BLOWING OFF STEAM

people i love keep dying while people i hate keep living but in life that's a given or so seems as my soul screams out what's this all about? and why i'm i still here? and about to drown in my tears or get choke to death by my grieve and disbelief O God i just want this pain in chest to cease to exist because i don't want to live like this for the rest of time on earth because that would be the worst but God your will comes First i know as You continue to show me each and everyday in every way rather i understand Your Plan or not reign on top of what i feel and all that is real and just and still certain things are hard to accept in depth even after i wept but you know exactly what i mean but im still blowing off steam