99.999% POOF ( PATERNITY TEST)

i have a daddy on Earth and another daddy in Heaven yeah, one i hardly see and the other who's always around me but i love them both but one i love the most because they both made me who i am today in some way inside and out even though i'm still not sure... what all i'm here for but i hate my existence anymore despite the occasional tug-a-war... going on inside of me i'm still glad i be... human yes, flesh and bone with a skin tone that's very well known but not to often shown... respect... but i haven't let... that turn me around yes, i have stood my ground in spirit and in truth because of my 99.999% poof

AS THE WORLD TURNS

i'm suppose to be alone and never hear the ringing of phone and always do right but never wrong yes i suppose to soldier on whatever comes my way every single day while i pray well at least that's what my feelings say and what a price to pay for being a human but i'm still doin' slowly but surely but i need the Holy Spirit to cure me of being lonely and ungrateful and help me to remain fateful to His Word as well as mine while i'm feeling left behind by so-called friends of mine until the time of His Return or until every lesson is learned as the world turns

HEARTBURN

i'm searching foe peace i'm searching for strength but at least i know... i'm not an accident so i can let that burden go and really start to grow and flow like a river as the toxins leave my liver so i won't be bitter and my soul won't shiver every time the world tries to work me and won't let me be me sincerely fearfully and wonderfully made and as unique as a float in THE ROSE PARADE but right now i need some shade right now i need some grace right now i really need a smile put on my face from the inside out and my emotional screams... to be turned into some more happier things because right now... i feel like i'm flying with a broken wing because my love ones are dying ans i'm steady trying to make sense of that without really looking back but the fact is... i do and i miss them too but i'm still here so i got work to do before i'm through with this life... of twist and turns but i'm open to learn

BLOWING OFF STEAM

people i love keep dying while people i hate keep living but in life that's a given or so seems as my soul screams out what's this all about? and why i'm i still here? and about to drown in my tears or get choke to death by my grieve and disbelief O God i just want this pain in chest to cease to exist because i don't want to live like this for the rest of time on earth because that would be the worst but God your will comes First i know as You continue to show me each and everyday in every way rather i understand Your Plan or not reign on top of what i feel and all that is real and just and still certain things are hard to accept in depth even after i wept but you know exactly what i mean but im still blowing off steam

ONE ON OME TIME

you can worship God anywhere you just have show Him that you care and that you are glad that he made you and saved you for something greater than yourself greater than death yes greater than a lot of things even angels with wings so try to fly spiritually wherever you are and see how far you will get if you let him in like a friend despite your sin just open and hoping for change of heart which is the only part that really matters that's right not a stain glass or your stain past just you now HIS CHILD

HOME ALONE

man, it's really starting to bother me what? me being lonely and unattached at this age and at this in my life yes,why Christ must i be alone? in this way everyday single when i have the desire to mingle and i have this annoying tingle inside me that desperately want to be set free for the whole world to see sort to speak yes this emotional pain is consuming my brain yes it's insane how being in love is mostly what i think about yes my heart cries out "LOVE ME IN THAT SPECIAL WAY... UNTIL MY DYING DAY yes, i want to left breathless... until i am left breathless

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

i have what i need
but my heart wants more
 tug-a-war tug-a war
yes my heart is sore
my heart is greedy
yes my heart is really hungry
yes my heart is really lonely
for attention to frame
and for an extension
to my name
yes i long for marriage
and a horse drawn carriage
and a baby buggy
yes i want a loving hubby
in all forms
who knows how to keep me warm
and comfort me in a storm
until the end
yes be my friend
with benefits

O WAIT A MINUTE NOW

should i even wait for date?
should even wait for a mate?
should i even wait for a child?
i am really starting to wonder
because it feels like i'm goin' under
the radar
so point me to the nearest bar
so i can drown my sorrows
until tomorrow
or jus' let me borrow...
happiness for a day ...
so i can say...
i know how it feels to happy
and wanted...
by someone...
who doesn't plan to run...
away
until his dying day
but it's not that way
well at least not right now
but i so wanna  husband
and i so wanna  child 

PARADISE ISLAND

i want to love
and thought of
in romantic way
like today
like right now
yes the thought excites me
like a child
on Christmas morning
yes i want to wake up beside someone
yearning
who wouldn't mind performing
 his husbandry duty
if you know what i mean
yes make me scream
for joy
and give me a boy
or a girl
yes add to my world
and make it wonderful
beyond belief
even in grief
yes i should be able too
find a four-leaf
in my life
yes paradise
island   

SOMEONE TO LOVE

i really want someone someday
yes who really wants to stay
yes this i hope
yes this i play
today
and tomorrow i'm sure
i don't wanna be alone anymore
no i don't wanna be strong anymore
'cause i yearn to be weak
and have someone to sleep with
especially when i going though...
some emotionally shit
yes someone to hold me
and console 
with clothes on
and clothes off
and i don't care if i sound soft
or lost
'cause i promise
i'm bein' honest
i want someone to love me
to death do us part
with their whole heart