THE MYSTERIES OF LIFE

man relationships are so hard
especially when of you has to part
to heaven
and the one who is left behind
must find something else to do with their time
but they don't feel like doing anything really
because they feel silly moving on
yes they feel down right wrong
yes they feel like me
empty
and raw
with a very low jaw
and who's body has been sawed in half
trying to grasp what just happen
but no one seems to know
why i still have perfect blood flowing
through my veins
but i am in so much pain
and i am trying not to go insane
in the process
of my distress
but i am still blessed
thus say the lord
so i can't afford to quit
even though i feel like sh*t
right now
i must figure out how
to put myself back together
but i never want to do this again

I STILL MISS THE DECEASED

i've been faced with physical death
yes been left by myself
yes the last person standing
but i'm kinda demanding that God not do that to me
because i don't wanna be
a society
yes i love variety
yes being in a pack is "all that"
yes i love being a we
or an us
yes having someone that i can trust
or depend on
yes the right to my wrong
the melody to my song
yes the friend to my ship
before i slip
into depression
but the life lesson here
i shall not fear
because God is always near
despite my tears
my belief
or my grief
so that gives me some peace
but i still miss the deceased

IN THIS DIRECTION

i go somewhere
whenever i write
yeah it's like i'm riding a bike
while go on a hiking trail
yeah i let my feelings tell me where to go
so that my inner muscles can grow strong
yeah so last long
but i never go along
no God is my workout partner
yeah he encourages me push harder
until it became easier
to a certain point
yeah i am to work every joint
until i reach the top mountain
until i can drink from the fountain
of my father
who loves me like a baby
and who treats me like a lady
no matter how crazy i act
he always seems to have my back
but i should never slack off
look for short cuts
no matter how much my butt my hurt
or if wheel get stuck in the dirt
i'm just supposed to push through
any dark glue
in my way
according to what the expert say
so okay
i will stay
in this direction

IMPACT--FULL

GOD YOU GRANTED ME ANOTHER DAY AT MIDNIGHT
IN HOPE THAT I MIGHT LIVE RIGHT
EVEN THOUGH MY SIGHT HAVE NEVER SEEN
THE THING THAT YOU HAVE
YOU STILL WANT ME GRASP
THE WILL OF YOU
ALL THAT YOU DO
IN YOUR TRUE FORM
WHICH IS ALWAYS WARM
AND COVERING ME FROM HARM
FROM ANY STORMS
IN MY LIFE
LIFE STRIFE
OF ANY KIND
YES YOU MAKE IT FIND
WITH YOU MIND
WHILE I'M DOWN HERE
THINKING THAT I HAVE TO GRIND
BUT IT IS ALREADY DONE
I JUST NEED TO FOLLOW THE PATH OF SON
BECAUSE HE IS THE ONE...
WHO HAS BEEN WHERE I AM TRYING TO GO
AND SO I SHOULD JUST TRUST
AND GET ON THE BUS
WITH NO FUSS
AND ON THE PLUS
I LOVE TO RIDE
TO SEE THE COUNTRY-SIDE
WITH NOTHING BUT THE CLOTHES ON MY BACK
JUST GOING ON FAITH AND FACT
BUT I NEVER LACK
THAT WAY
YES WHEN I LISTEN TO WHAT THE HOLY SPIRIT HAS TO SAY
ABOUT EACH DAY
OF MY PERSONAL PLAYBOOK
THAT MY ANCESTORS TOOK THE TIME TO WRITE DOWN
IN HOPES THAT I WOULD GET FOUND
INTERNALLY
SO I CAN BE FREE
IN THE WILD BLUE YONDER
MOVING AS FAST AS THUNDER
AND LI9GHTING
YES THE THOUGHT OF A NEW DAY
IS SUPPOSED TO EXCITING
AND INVITING
SO HELP ME GOD
ROD AND AXLE
YES LORD
HELP ME
TO BE
IMPACT-FUEL

SPIRITUALLY NAKRD

even though i feel lonely i am not phony yes i can express the mess i am in and desperately need a friend and want to feel the wind on my face yes i want to see grace around my earthly place and taste the sweet paste mercy like a Hershey- bar yes Lord take me far like a star despite my tar and inner scars yes a make me a winner and not a dinner for others to feast on for the wrong reason i am just season so there is no real room to tease or to please so as i am on my spiritual knees i ask for this sense of boniness to pass before my hourglass run out of sand so i can fully commit to your plan yes this i ask in Christ name amen

HUMAN FOR GOD SAKE

IT IS SO HARD NOT TO WORRY WHEN I DO NOT KNOW EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN BECAUSE GOD IS THE CAPTAIN AND I AM JUST A CREATION YES I AM JUST A TV TO STATION OR A SONG TO A RADIO YES I AM JUST A DROP TO THE WATER-FLOW BUT AS I GROW I LEAN BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT IT DOESN'T BURN AND THAT MY STOMACH DOESN'T TURN OR THAT MY HEART DOESN'T BREAK BUR I AM HUMAN FOR GOD SAKE SO I DO LIKE TO TAKE MY TIME LINE AFTER LINE BUT OFTEN TIMES GOD SAYS "RIGHT NOW MY CHILD" AS MY EYEBROWS GO UP BUT GOING BY FAITH AND NOT BY LUCK AND ALSO FORGETTING ABOUT MAKING A QUICK BUCK SO BASICALLY GOD TURN ME IN TO DUMP-TRUCK HE FILLS ME UP AND POURS ME OUT ON THE WORLD YES LIKE I AM DIAMOND OR PEARL BUT YET I STILL LET WORRY COME OVER ME WHEN GOD SAYS "I AM FREE SO WHAT IS WRONG ME? I AM HUMAN

I DO BELONG

GOD HERE I SIT READY TO LEARN AS THE WORLD TURNS AND MY HEART BURN BECAUSE MY MIND DOESN'T UNDERSTAND ALL OF YOUR PLAN FOR ME OR ANYONE ELSE BUT I KNOW THAT I AM NOT BY MYSELF YES THERE'S A LOT OF DOWN HERE FEELING LEFT OUT AND HAS A SENSE OF DOUBT BUT STILL WANT TO FOLLOW YOUR ROUTE YES FOLLOW YOUR WAY EVERY SINGLE DAY AS WE LAY AND PRAY FOR PEACE TO STAY AROUND ON THIS GROUND OF CLOWNS AND RINGMASTERS INSTEAD OF KINGDOM LIVING AND THANKSGIVING LIKE YOU DESIGNED IT TO BE IN THE BEGINNING OF YOUR WORD YES BEFORE THERE WERE EVEN BIRDS IN THE AIR WITHOUT A CARE IN THE WORLD BUT HERE I SIT FEELING LIKE A SQUIRREL INSTEAD OF PEARL OR YOUR GIRL BUT YET YOU SAY I AM SO SLAM DUNK I SHOULD JUST BACK UP MY TRUNK AND MOVE ON BECAUSE I DO BELONG