HARD HEADED JESUS

MAN

i get 

put down

ar least 

five days

But God say

be meek

and still stay 

sweet

to my 

ememies 

yeah 

even though

they are 

killin' me

slow

but God said

he will never 

let me go

but sometimes 

i wonder

yeah 

When I feel like

i'm goin' 

under

the thunder

of 

their words

yeah 

their thoughts

instead of

hummingbirds

flyin' over

my head 

but at least

i'm dead

and neither 

is God

but why 

is life 

still wheel hard

I'M BEIN' WHEELIE SERIOUS

 WHEELCHAIR

Why to love

to scare

people 

away 

yeah

from 

loving me

romanticlly 

every single day

yeah

i too 

wanna say 

i do 

and

have 

a baby 

too

but 

you

keep

on 

blockin'

or 

stopiin'

anyone

clockin'

for me

yeah 

speadin' time

with 

my body

and 

mind 

yeah

what kinda 

Mess is that 

whack 

i say 

yeah 

fall back 

today

and 

neva 

come back

yeah

not even to

 pick up 

my lack

MAN. I FEEL REAL ( SINFUL)

 man

it feels 

like a

real sin 

to be 

alone

yeah 

when no one

rings your phone 

to ask you 

What's right 

or 

What's wrong

yeah

in the middle 

of the night

with a romantic 

tone 

attached 

yeah 

i wish 

i had 

someone

to kiss

my lips

and 

hug and rub

my back

yeah

being alone

is 

whack 

yeah

especially 

on

the weekend

but 

here

i 

go

oh no

again

BONE DENSITY

MAN

i hate 

being single 

Yeah, 

i wanna do more 

than just mingle

or

passify my 

tingle 

yeah

with a  passion 

i'm askin'

for someone 

to 

love me 

hug me 

kiss me 

miss me 

yeah 

want the best 

for me 

and

adore me 

yeah 

be my

other half

and 

make me 

laugh

until

one us 

passes

out 

and 

goes 

another route

but until then

let's be friends

and shower 

for hours 

under God's 

power

yeah 

let's make 

a beautiful 

cake

or 

a lovely 

flower

 

9:09 am MAN IT'S ALMOST THAT TIME (the culmination of a cycle and the highest form of compassion)

God

i jus'twanna

walk 

okay?

yeah

i jus' wanna 

today?

yeah

no wordplay

so what do u say?

yeah

even on this 

very rainy 

day

work me 

like clay 

or 

move me

like a 

muscle

built 

for a

hustle 

or 

remake 

my mind

more equipped 

for this 

Earthly grind 

at this time

of

cloudy sonshine

GOOD HEAVEN (6:33 AM)

Heaven

open up

yeah please

show me 

what's what's

yeah 

from the front 

to the back

yes Lord

please show me

where it's at

yeah let me 

come  inside

and ride 

That Soul Train 

track

yeah

for a little while 

let this child smile 

in style

You can reign 

But I will

have no pain

and no skin

in 

the skin

and 

That would be

good heaven 

to me

 

I WISH I DID...KNOW THE ANSWER

Man

i wish

i had 

gotten married

in my 20s

and had 

plenty 

of 

kids 

yeah 

i wish i did

i wish i did 

but 

now 

wow

i'm in

my 40s

and still 

no one 

adores me

for real 

no husband 

no kids 

and no one 

putting in 

their bid 

for this fig 

newton 

this is

still

 fruiten 

yeah Father

why

as 

i cry 

on the inside

 is it really 

as silly 

as my 

unique 

ride

that i've 

neva 

been 

a bride 

or 

more 

yeah 

please 

speak 

to my 

core  

NOT SO WEATHER PROOF (AFTER ALL)

OOOOH WEEEE

i rather be

horny

than angry 

yeah 

i wish 

someone 

wanted 

to have fun  

yeah 

kiss me 

and 

spank me

but sadly

no one

wants 

to see

between me

knees 

and 

hear me

say

yes

 please 

in all degrees 

yeah all because

i can't 

really walk 

or 

run

that i can' gett none

and then 

the anger 

comes back

like a gust 

of 

wind 

which is 

so whack 

but once 

i cannot sin 

and so 

i lie

in bed 

and

cry from within 

6:12 am (THE CRACK of DAWN) in ARKANSAS

 HEY
my life
is already 
HARD
and 
my insides 
have already 

been 
SCARRED
like sin
so please
 STOP
bonbarring me
with 
hurting words 
yeah
trying to
flush me 
like a turd 
or 
sufficate 
my breath 
to death 
or 
simply 
make me 
second guess 
myself 
or
anything 
God has
blessed 
in stress
and left 

INSIDE OF  ME 
FOR THE WORLD 
TO SEE
YEAH
I AM 
A KEEPER 
AND MUCH 
DEEPER
THAN 
CEREBRAL PALSY 

4 am. AMERICA

dammit 
girl
u  make me feel
so unreal 
yeah like 
i'm not human 
or like
i'm ruin 
yeah
what r u doin'?
sittin' over  there
keekee cooin'
over my pain 
yeah 
as my 
inside 
rain 
yeah girl
u should be...

 ashamed 
because 
my life 
is not a game
or a joke
i too
was made
and woked 
by 
Christ

NOT ON MY WATCH ( 9:88 O'CLOCK)

 sometimes

i pray
to not 
wake up 
the next day 
but clearly 
God doesn't 
hear me
because 
he does 
it 
anyway 
yeah 
i stay 
in cerebral 
palsy 
emotional hurtin' 
and 
feel like 
wheel
a burden 
but that is
based on
what people 
say 
and then 
they walk 
away 
like 
it is 
child's play 
and now 
WOW
i feel 
wheel 
blue and gray 
and 
that's
not okay
yeah because 
i am 
Christ's clay
and love 
but
\you know what?
hurtful words
do not 
fly like 
birds
yeah
they 
linger 
like turds
and 
make you 
feel like
sh*t
and wanna 
quit
or 
split 
legit 
forever 
But God says 
NEVER
NOT 
ON 
MY 
WATCH 

OOOOH WEEE THIS IS ME? (ASKING HIM... TO TOUCH HIS HEM

God i need

not to bleed 

in this war 

of 

wheels

or 

in this field 

of feels

anymore 

yeah because 

my love 

my body 

is 

so sore 

from the core 

on out 

yeah Yeshua

What's that 

all about

yeah 

why 

must i 

cry 

and 

be 

gutted 

like 

trout  

JESUS CHRIST, (IS THIS LIFE?)

God

why 

is this life 

so muddy 

and bloody 

or so 

slient 

and violent 

at the same time 

in the same rhyme 

yeah darkness 

and sunshine

is like light 

to the blind 

or like 

shock 

to clock 

of 

the mind 

yeah

which is

not so kind 

yeah 

it's a crime 

in a line-

up

yeah 

this world

is 

so corrupt 

GIRL

or

what the -UCK

MAN

this Earth

 Society 

really

 sucks  

OOOOH WEEE (THIS HEAVY CEREBRAL PALSY )

Peace

i search

for you

in the dirt

or 

in the mist

of hurt 

yeah 

i need 

a kiss

from the kingdom 

to soothe 

My sad season 

for some reason

my life

keeps teasin' me

or God

  keeps just lettin' it be 

or 

just grow like a tree

ooooh weee

i just wanna 

be

free

of

this heavy

cerebral palsy 

CONCERING MY YEARNING ( IN JESUS NAME AMEN)

God
please
quiet
all of 
my dream's 
screams
or please
make them 
come true
for me
Your baby boo
down here
yes Lord
make it 
crystal
clear 
yeah
so that 
i can hear
or  
see
totally
what is 
goin' on
concerning 
my yearning

 

OOOH. MY LATE NIGHT APERTITE

God knows 

my heart 

and

 God knows

my flesh 

and God 

also

 knows 

that i 

do my best 

to pass 

every test 

yes 

even with 

stress 

and

resistance  

i rise

to the occasion 

yeah 

even with 

abraions

i still

blazing 

yeah

which is

whithin 

itself 

yeah 

because 

i feel like 

i don't 

have much 

time or breath 

left 

EXCITING THOUGHTS?

lord

i can't seem to

SCREAM

or make sense

of my dreams

so what does this mean 

my love 

my dove

my rainbow 

 Yeah, i really wanna know

Before I go

crazy 

down here

or 

paralyzed 

by fear

or drown 

above 

ground 

from my tears

of 46

years

of 

being 

like this 

and never 

really been 

kissed 

yeah 

so why 

do i

rabbi

really exist 

MIND OVER MATTER

i'm still
in this
wheel-
chair
and i
care
that
people 
are 
so 
unaware
about 
what it
takes
for me
not to break-
down
or 
to feel 
lost 
and never
to be 
found 
on this 
round 
ground 
coffee
bean 
yeah 
feelin'
so 
green 
and 
in between 
 just wondering
what does 
all this 
really means 
 
 

6:15 p.m. ( MAN'S DELIVERENCE AND REST

at 6:15

i still 

really 

wanna be

 a queen 

or

at age 46

i'm still craving

some constant 

and commit d---

 Man

y'all 

don't understand 

i how much 

i still 

want a real ring 

on my hand 

yeah

Before I leave 

this land

or 

i finish 

God's plan

for me 

yeah

i wanna be 

marriaged 

and carried 

in the house 

by a spouse 

11 O'CLOCK ( disorder imperfection, or a departure from the divine order

 man

i feel 

like i'm walking 

on glass 

and my ass

is 

out

as people 

pass 

me by 

And I'm bleeding 

my beath 

is fleeing 

and i wanna

 cry 

because 

i not feeing 

the love 

and 

i don't 

no why 

yeah please 

God

reply 

to my outburst 

yeah before

it gets 

hellah worse 

or 

i  die 

of thirst 

first 

yeah 

just saying

this verse

2:22 p.m. (UNITY, WITNESS AND DIVISION)

i see me 
i see u
at 2:22
yeah doing 
what love
is supposed to do
yeah,
that right 
being like
God 
in every sight 
or 
in every sense 
of 
the word
yeah 
you & i 
are supposed to be 
fly
like birds 
man 
yeah 
movin' and groovin'
hand and hand 
on this land 
 living out God's plan 
of 

takin' a stand

WET CLAY ( OUR FATHER WHO ART IN HEAVEN)

my father

wants me 

to be 

bothered 

with being 

happy 

when i''m missin'

my friends 

and my pappy 

yeah 

i'm not being 

sappy 

they died 

i cried 

yrah, no 

i had  

to let 

the sad 

go

yeah

my eyes 

get wet  

to really 

reset 

But I'm not 

lying 

i'm still 

crying 

but 

testifying 

that 

in fact 

it's'okay 

to feel 

this way 

5:55 P.M. (GRACE GRACE GRACE)

God, i don't like
this bitter taste 
But I know that
You won't let 
this pain 
of 
my physical frame 
go to waste 
Yeah, all because 
of 
your love 
and not 
human haste  
or 
human hate 
yeah because 
my love 
you great 
in any state 
that I'm in 
yeah because 
You are closer 
than a brother
and friend 
yeah 
you are 
by far
my clock
my rock
and my savior
but please 
do me a favor 
calm the storms 
of all things 
meant to bring 
me harm 
and keep me warm 
in this mindless behavior 
surrounding me 
yeah. please 
ground my knees 
over a hundred degrees 
In Jesus name 
amen 

RULE OF THUMB

Rabbi

i cry

enrage  

Yeah, please help me

turn this page 

Or take me off

 of this stage 

of  life

christ 

yeah you can 

help me stand 

up

 to man 

yeah just 

take

my hand 

Or work your plan 

if you don't 

take me 

first

to paradise 

yeah Yeshua 

this is not

just a verse 

yeah i need 

to 

break this 

blue 

curse 

yeah so 

forget about me 

being

 cool 

because my love 

i so tried 

of 

being a fool 

yeah

so Father 

point me

to your rule

of school 

MY BIRTHDAY BLOWS FOR RIE RIE!!!!

all i hear 
is 
whistles 
and laughter 
and 
happy everafter 
on this day 
and 
many others 
hey Rie rie 
Can you see
the newest baby 
on our family tree 
named Melody 
ain't crazy
man. i already 
love 
that lil lady 
Like your dressing 
and gravy 
and maybe 
Your red beans 
and rice 
but anyway 
How's your 
permanent stay 
in paradise with Christ

SHERI'S BIRTHDAY BASH 47

SHERI
    Your birth 
still  means 
a  great deal 
yeah
and it always 
will 
Yeah, like
 your favorite 
meal 
on the grill  
on any given day
but except 
We get to say 
as we wipe tears away
happy 
You know the rest 
as your rest 
But we were blessed 
yes. 
no contest 
by the presence 
of 
your adolescence 
and 
like wheelchair prints 
in the sand 
mixed 
with God's unchanging 
hand and plan 
it was 
better than
not to have had 
at all

"SHERI'S SPACE CADET" ( on Earth)

GIRL
i sure do
wonder what ur up to
up there 
yeah i swear 
i feel like 
a square 
since you put 
this round town 
down 
yeah
i feel like
Such a clown 
but 
I'm not 
laughin'
yeah. what happen?
What happened?
Captain Christ
Why did you
take such 
a big slice 
out of  
my life 
and place 
her 
in paradise

FATHER GOD, WHAT ARE YOU WHEELIE DOIN'? (TO ME)

 Jehovah 

Why do i 

have to be 

like Job 

or 

wear a colorful

robe

like Joseph

or

 wear 

long hair 

like Samson 

Am I Ramson 

for handsome 

or 

the human

yeah, Father God

what are you wheelie doin' 

to me

yeah,  how much humility

do you need to see

before i get free 

of 

this 

cerebral palsy 

body 

MY SOUL 360 GOAL

 i wanna be able to

 walk on my own 

for a year straight 

surrounded by love and no hate  

Yeah, that would be so G.R.E.A.T. 

GOD'S REAL EVERLASTING ASSIGNMENT TROPHY 

goes to me 

obvioussly 

for not falling off

or 

being too soft 

on the family tree 

oooh weeee

i can see

what my life 

will be 

360

IN THE GREY of PALSY

MAN

i'm in 

this body 

all the time 

it's mine 

and it's fine 

but i 

cry 

because i 

don't want it 

SH*t

yeah  because 

all i seem 

to do 

is sit 

in a wheelchair 

And I swear 

even with 

cool long hair 

it's still 

hard 

to play 

my part 

everytday 

as being 

okay 

in the grey 

of 

palsy 

THE RIVERS OF APPLE FRITTERS

     MAN

my heart is...

hurtin'

feelin' like...

burden

but my insides 

are workin' 

doubletime 

or 

rhyme 

for rhyme 

So I guess  

I'm still 

wheel blessed

even though 

my love life 

is 

slow

God refuses 

to let me

go

under the flo'

you kniw 

DINNER IS SERVE ( YEAH, EVERY SINGLE WORD)

MAN

you don't have to be 

physically able

to sit at

 God's table 

and

 you don't have to be

able to stand 

to speak 

God's plan

yeah, 

That's the way 

of the land 

but not

the Lord

yeah 

You can't afford 

to be bored 

on this walk

of eagles 

begles 

and 

hawks

or

wild prey 

every single

day 

okay 

yeah

come what may 

sunny 

funny 

or 

grey 

just stay

and work 

the dirt 

of the hurt 

of a few 

jerk chickens'

point of view

of 

you

put listen 

you belong 

in the kitchen 

and also 

in  the dining room 

with some beautiful tunes 

as the sun goes down

for dinner 

playing in the backgound