LOOKIN' INSIDE MYSELF

So this is me
tryin' to be
sexy
yeah 
This is me 
tryin' to be
human
Girl
What are you doin'?
Or who are you pursuin'?
jus'  be yourself
in every breath 
you have 
yeah
make them
laugh
in your paths 
or 
make them 
think 
with every blink 
yeah 
jus' don't 
shink 
and 
you will 
find 
that you are
fine 
yeah 
from the front 
which is 
What you really want 
and not 
jis' for
your
 badonkadonk

OOO0H WEEE. NUDITY (IN EVERY SENSE OF... THE WORD )

MAN
i wish 
i was 
nude 
with
a dude 
yeah 
kissin' him
and kissin 
food 
yeah
this 
is 
my mood 
right now 
wow
i'm not 
a child 
anymore 
yeah
along 
to soar
from my core
and more 
for sure
yeah 
this is 
roar 
going on 
strong 
inside of me
jus'waitin
to be
set 
free

 

THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN ( DONE SIGNED MY NAME)

Life is real

Don't you feel?

yeah, even 

when

a breath 

is

left 

alone 

yeah 

we 

still 

grieve

and moan 

for one 

to come 

home 

 yeah 

even though

we know 

that death 

moved

 slow

towards 

the glow 

of 

the flo'

d'angelo 

SUCH STRESS

DAMN 
i'm alone 
because
something is
physically wrong 
with 
my body
and no 
i'm not talking 
about 
being naughty 
i'm talking 
about 
not being 
able to
walk it out 
like waterspout 
so
i'm feeling blue
yeah 
instead 
i sit 
like led 
with all these
 thoughts 
in my head
yeah some 
should be dead
but
Chrit bled 
for me 
to be
single 
with a tingle 
and 
a desire
to mingle
i guess
but 
oooh weee
baby 
such stress  

13 DREAMS

MAN

i wanna scream

at my 13 dreams

but what does that mean?

they were sweet

like ice cream

until

my auntie 

yeah

i cried 

so much 

i nearly 

loat 

my sense of

touch 

and  my breath 

when she left 

yeah

i've been myself 

yeah

i love 

and 

miss her 

till death

IN THE DIRT of DISABILITY

MAN

i jis' wanna 

be

happy 

in this body

in this life 

so help me Christ 

 yeah, please 

gimme a slice 

of 

pie 

or squeeze 

from the most high

guy

in the sky 

or from

the most 

beautiful 

girl 

in the world 

yeah 

the one 

who made 

the sun 

come up 

and down 

and move 

and groove 

smooth 

all the way 

around 

yes lord 

i'm so 

tired 

of what's

required 

and 

My inner frown 

like a crown 

that no one 

really

sees

unless 

i hurt 

my knees 

in the dirt

of 

disability 

ON CLOUD 9 IN MY MIND

girl 

i wanna

 hold you

in my arms 

like a charm

yeah,

keep you safe

from harm

in a storm 

and when we

 perform love

i will touch you

like dove

yeah 

with every 

single 

tingle

i will 

rub

hug

or 

plug 

your

 sweet core

and sure

hope 

that 

you 

beg

for

more

between 

you legs 

i mean

my queen

yeah 

these are the things

i wish

my mate 

would say 

something greatO

to me 

one day

 

7 times of CEREBRAL RHYMES

MANE
it's insane
how much
emotional pain  
i'm in 
yrah
it's like
i've been 
slammed 
but ni one 
seems 
to hear 
my screams 
or 
Give a damn 
 How I live 
yeah
which is 
so insendative 
to my need
or 
lack of speed 
or
lack of motion 
oh Lord
Where's the potion?
or 
the ocean

Inspired by my life and 2 Kibgs 5

HUG (HURTING UNDER GOD)

MAN
i
just wanna 
cry
in someone's arms 
yeah 
feel like
a charm 
or 
feel no harm 
from my storm 
yeah 
i  wanna feel 
real
warm 
yeah 
a really good
embrace 
would put 
such a smile 
on my face 
and knock 
out
this 
bitter 
taste 
in my mouth 
from the south cerebral 
 

MAN, TO HELL, WITH THIS DISSABLE TALE

Man
i wish
someone
wanted 
to kiss 
me 
romanticlly 
yeah 
i wish 
someone 
wanted 
to be
body to body
naughty to naughty 
yeah
just leave 
the world 
behind 
for an extended 
amount of 
time 
just stop
walking 
blind 
and find 
me

fine 

like wine 
or 
see me 
as one 
of
 a kind 

OOOOH. POOH

i'm depressed

'cause 

i don't see 

less of 

cerebral palsy 

and 

the verbal 

negativity 

keeps comin'

more and more 

yeah 

my insides 

are 

so sore

to core 

yeah 

i pray that 

God 

gets 

these people 

back

yeah 

wheelie 

evems 

the score 

for 

the whole entire 

race 

the needs 

some extra speed 

or 

automatic door

or 

a special packin'

space 

yeah because 

no one's 

life 

is 

a waste 

or 

a disgrace 

to Christ 

ORANGE SQUEEZE

now sadly
people see
cerebral palsy 
like cancer
but i am 
the answer 
to a problem 
that needs
to be solved 
yeah 
my body
might short 
but 
guess what?
my spirit 
stands 
tall
through it 
all
yeah 
especially 
in the pitfalls 
i have never been
recalled
yeah
just ask God 
the real iPod 
 or 
icon 
that truly runs 
the Earth
our births
and 
the sun

RISE AND SHINE (GOD GOT MINE)

God raised me

from the 

dead

yeah he

 got me 

out of bed

 because

 his blood

is 

red 

and still 

moving 

yeah 

his will 

is still

making 

an appeal

yeah 

it's 

doing something 

\we maybe

can't see

but 

for surely 

will be

eventually

Inspired by my life and 1 Peter 1

FEELIN' LIKE A MATADOR part 2

God

am i 

wheelie 

bult 

for this 

fight

because

i 

find it 

wheelie hard 

to drop 

my guard 

and 

sleep 

at night 

so is that right?

Lord, show me 

the light 

or gimme 

a flight 

out of here 

yeah 

no more

fears 

no more 

tears 

or 

cerebral palsy 

years 

FEELIN' LIKE A MATADOR

God

why

is my 

life 

so full

of 

bull-

sh^t

and when

is it 

gonna 

quit 

yeah 

i'm loookin'

for more 

things 

with real wings 

and that are 

legit 

and won't 

switch 

their 

pitch 

in the middle 

of  a

pickle 

or a tickle

or a 

subject 

yeah 

no 

neglect 

or 

new dialect  

CHUMP CHANGE

Lord

i'm feelin' 

kinda 

strange 

yeah 

almost 

derange 

yeah 

because 

i so 

know 

that as 

life 

go

i'm no 

chump change 

yeah 

i'm  so 

worth 

more

than

the turf 

that i'm 

sittin' 

on 

yeah and 

i'm strong 

yeah

even when 

people 

Who need me 

treat me 

like 

i don't  belong 

in this 

earthly home 

yeah

which is 

so wrong 

on all accounts 

yeah and

in every amount 

yeah 

oucue 

for 

oncue

Based on my life and Proverbs 18

MY JAR OF... SCARS

Lord

i don't wanna 

be 

here 

yeah 

in this body 

full of tears 

yeah Yeshua 

i'm drowning 

and frowning 

because 

the people 

who are

supposed to be 

from your steeple 

are 

clowing

 me 

down 

here

and Father

i fear

that 

it will

steer 

me 

in the 

wrong 

directions

yeah 

away

from 

your protection 

and affection 

yeah 

the things 

that my life 

brings,

Christ

has 

got me 

questioning 

my past 

decisions 

in my 

hourglass

LISTEN

yeah Father

it's like 

your daughter

has 

doubble vision 

inspired by my life 

and Psalms 56

WAVING MY HAND

 God

Here I am

waving my hand

waiting to stand 

and work 

your pain 

i guess

yeah 

see pass 

the stress

and realize 

that 

i'm blessed 

despite 

being 

briused 

and 

misused 

by 

people 

spreading 

fake news 

about me 

and also 

doubting me 

from head 

to toe 

but God

what about 

healing 

this cerebral 

that i was

given, 

though

inspired by my life and John 5

NOW WAIT A 3RD MINUTE

WOMAN

You are making me 

 hate

my life 

doubt others 

and not trust

 Christ 

yeah woman 

your words 

cut me 

like a knife 

yeah interbally 

i bleed 

with every slice 

yeah maybe 

Here I come 

paradise 

yeah because 

This Christian lady 

shows me

 no love

on a daily 

which is 

crazy 

so  Father 

Will you come 

save 

this daughter 

yeah 

no grave 

or 

slave  quarters 

yeah just 

your order 

your rapture 

and 

your hereafter 

Based on my life and 2 Corinthians 12

WAITING AT... THE BEAUTIFUL ... GATE

God

i'm still 

angry

i'm still

 scared

yeah 

i'm still 

sitting 

and feeling 

really 

unperpared 

for

the next door 

or 

the ship 

coming 

to

the shore 

yeah 

because 

i'm not sure 

which way 

to go 

or 

how 

the wind 

and 

the water

is gonna 

flow 

for your daughter 

head to toe 

but farher

you know 

so i will

still 

grow

beautiful 

IS THERE REALLY ANY LOCKED DOORS?

MAN

It's a shame  

that i'm already

 stuck 

in this frame

yeah 

I'm already 

in emotional 

pain 

and now

WOW

I'm constantly 

being treated 

like a child 

yeah i'm feeling 

so defeated 

and over heated 

bwcause 

 I have 

lived 46 miles 

but father

Why can't 

your daughter 

at least 

smile 

for a quarter 

of 

her life 

yeah Christ 

don't think 

i've 

suffered 

enough 

yeah

don't think 

my road 

has already

been tough 

and then 

some more 

open sores 

to my

core

yeah 

is 

there

really 

any

locked 

doors 

MY TENDER CEREBRAL

i wanna

cry

i wanna

die 

i want 

a king 

And I want 

my spiritual wings 

so i can

fly 

high 

in the heavenly sky

or 

walk freely 

on earth 

yeah 

reverse 

the curse 

of my 

physical birth 

yeah 

before 

i get worse 

or totally

lose 

my right 

to choose

my hunger

or 

my thirst

for life 

yeah\

so help me

christ 

to 

surender 

my tender cerebral 

and not 

let people 

bother me 

that should 

even be 

in my headspace 

with their bitter

taste 

of

disgraced 

of me

and 

the disabled

soceity 

WHERE IS THE INTEGRITY? (IN THIS OR THAT)

So let's see
God
allowed me 
to be 
born 
with cerebral palsy
but where 
is 
the loyalty 
 and 
fair 
yeah 
where 
is the love 
and care 
for me 
up there 
yeah 
for dealin' wit' 
these lies 
and sh-t
that are 
makin' sick 
and wanna 
quit 
on myself 
or 
take 
the breath 
that i have left 
and put it on a shelf 
for safe keepin'  
yeah, i swear 
but where
is 
The integrity in that
or 
this 
yeah 
i'm pissed 
dimissed 

CANARY

Man

living with this

cerebral palsy 

plan

is kinda 

 scary 

but 

apparently 

God's wants 

me to

sing like 

a canary 

to you 

about 

feeling blue 

yeah about 

all the things

i can't do 

or 

shouldn't even 

try to 

pursue 

yeah and in 

every single word

but 

Guess what?

I'm not a bird 

I'm a human 

yeah 

with many 

aesthetic ruins 

but 

I'm still 

brew-ing and coo-ing 

Insomnia of a Wanderer

 Last night. It was so hard for me to sleep. Yeah it was so hard for me to keep my eyes closed. But I suppose only God knows.

CEREBROSPINAL

 i drown 

my sorrows 

on paper 

and as 

a favor

to my father 

and 

my savior 

Yeah, as a daughter 

and since 

i can't walk 

on water 

nor build 

a fence 

writing is 

my

 evidence 

or 

my God 

quench 

when 

i can't find 

a friend 

or sin 

tries 

to draw

my in 

with

lies 

i write 

towards 

the light 

my replies 

and 

so hope

that 

it reaches

the skies

NO MORE HOG (HANICAPPIED ON GROUND)

so here i sit

in this pit

waiting to \

get out pf it 

yeah so God

please 

send me

a rope 

or 

a ray of sunshine 

of hope 

yeah 

to stop 

this coping mechanism 

in this cosmicism 

of 

cerebral palsy 

yeah where 

one

is  

very ballsy 

or 

very verbal 

about my 

hurtle 

yeah 

making me 

like a 

turtle 

slow 

and not\

so beautiful 

or 

like a 

clown 

breaking down 

in the middle 

of a 

dribble 

yeah 

just like 

Sybil 

yeah gimme 

the kibble 

because 

i feel 

like 

real dog 

or please

God

get me 

out of 

this mud flood 

because 

i'm tired of 

being a hog

OUT OF THE HEART... THE MOUTH SPEAKS

 ooooh weeeee

your heart

must be 

filthy 

yeah like

 muddy water 

And you are

 suppose to

reflect

God's daughter

sosking wet 

or 

dry 

so why 

girl why 

are you

constantly 

making me 

inner cry 

and making me 

for real 

like

i wanna die 

BASED ON MY LIFE AND MATTHEW 12

A VERY PIVOTAL POINT

Father

please 

help 

me

climb 

out of 

this depression 

and

the negative thoughts 

and 

the negative talk 

run through 

my mind 

everytime 

the sun 

starts 

to shine 

yeah here

comes 

a blind-

spot 

yeah 

leavin' me 

cold 

and 

hot 

and 

makin' me

wanna stop

my own

 clock  

yeah so 

heavenly pops 

please move 

these rocks

are hard

knocks 

GOD, I'M CURIOUS

God

i'm curious 

when are you

gonna come 

in 

and change 

this strange 

sin 

of

pretend

and 

sufferin' 

in 

silence 

yeah

because 

i'm so 

tired of 

this lack of 

love 

and this 

verbal violence 

yeah 

i feel 

like a 

gerble

jumpin'

over 

hurtles 

everyday 

yeah 

along 

with 

the sh*t 

of 

cerebral palsy 

but why Lord

does it 

have to be 

this way

COULD THIS BE THE LAST DAY ON EARTH?

so God

Are you comin' 

Yeah, should 

we be runnin' 

for cover 

or holdin' 

on strong 

to our lover 

or brother 

or 

in between 

Yeah, Lord 

what does

all of this 

mean

yeah, 

this green 

envy 

not so friendly 

situation

in this nation 

yeah, and 

guns are blazin 

and hermons 

are ragin' 

in every station 

of 

tempstion 

yeah and so 

There's a lot 

of 

cold and hot 

false allegations 

that really 

need to stop 

before the clock 

or 

that needs to 

burn

before your 

return 

or 

lesson learned 

 

THIS MORNING'S PROTOCOL

this morning 

i woke 

yearning 

yeah still

storming 

from lack of

sleep 

yeah 

i had 

to reach 

down deep 

inside myself 

to choose 

to use 

the breath 

that i have 

left 

in my cerebral 

people 

 yeah while 

also trying 

to hold on 

to a steeple 

yeah

to remain 

strong 

in this frame 

of 

palsy pain 

yeah 

what ashame 

But in the name

of 

jesus 

LAST NIGHT'S.... PILLOW FIGHT

i had a...
 nightmare 
yeah, it wasn't fair 
and it wasn't faithful 
and i'm so grateful
i woke 
and didn't crook 
in the smok-ing gun 
yeah because 
even in this dream 
i couldn't walk
run 
or scream
so i died 
yeah 
even though
i tried 
to hide
yeah they still 
found me 

and 

my wheel-ride 
and then 
i died 
but 
not for real
But it sho felt like it 
sh*t 
even when 
i woke up
and another day
begin
And I was
oksy 
in real /wheel life
Thank you, Christ 

CAN I SEE THAT FOR A SECOND OR TWO?

God
i so wanna 
see
29:11
applied 
to me 
yeah before
i soar
to Heaven 
yeah 
i wanna be 
happy 
more than 
 on the holidays
or 
feel it 
more than 
in 
waves 
Rabbi,
 am i?
getting closer 
to my grave
yeah because
 wow 
right now 
ssomeway 
somehow 
all i feel 
is real 
pows 
to my gut 
or 
slaps 
on my butt
WHAT THE _?
my ride 
hasn't been 
a glide 
yeah
it's been 
a worldwind 
yeah
bumpy 
and jumpy
yeah
and all that jazz
yep, except 
i  often 
wept
and hear 
the blues 
but oooh 
i so 
wama experience 
good news 
Before I go
so father please
gimme clearance 
inspired by my life, and Jeremiah 29:11

WHY WHEELS, FATHER?

Father, i

breathe

and i 

grief 

yeah, almost

daily 

yeah, 

that's so 

crazy 

but maybe 

it's supposed to be 

this way

yeah, feelin'

like 

some overworked clay

yeah, who's supposed to stay 

put 

from the root 

but never 

on foot

in sut

 

SHEVY ONE MORE TIME

MAN

it's insane

how much 

SHEVY  is

on my brain 

yeah 

it makes laugh 

in pure pain 

yeah 

so much 

movement 

in my little frame 

but 

In Jesus name

i will never 

be the same 

again 

yeah 

even though

She's in the wind 

i miss her so 

much 

yeah her

personality 

had such

a touch 

yeah 

a touch 

of this 

and 

a touch 

of that 

yeah 

mam oh man 

y'all don't 

understand 

just how much 

i wish 

she was 

on this

land 

of 

the living 

yeah

just 

for

one 

more 

thanksgiving 

MY SOUL JUST...CRIED (46 TEARS)

man

last night 

i cried 

because 

i don't have 

a romantic love 

to ride 

by my side  

yeah

in this thing 

called

life 

and yeah 

it doesn't 

look like 

Christ 

is 

going to 

send me

anyone 

to have

or

to hold 

yeah 

in the hot 

or 

in the cold 

so 

That's right 

last night 

yeah 

instead of 

taking fight 

my soul

just 

cried

SHEVY'S VIRTUAL BIRTHDAY CARD

hey shevy

You should be 

here 

instead of 

there 

yeah 

in the air 

doesn't seem fair 

yeah, it's feels 

like a  real

 dream

  that screams

GIRL. 

I'M STILL 

VERY MUCH 

ALIVE 

IN THIS WORLD 

YEAH 

AND 

I'M STILL 

APART 

OF 

GOD'S  PLANS 

YEAH, MONI

EVEN IF 

MY LOCATION 

SHIFT 

DON'T BE 

MYTH 

AT ME 

OR GOD 

YEAH  JUST

CELEBRATE 

THE BOTH 

OF US

REAL HARD 

MAN, I WISH I HAD A FAMILY OF MY OWN

 okay Lord 

This is me 

Moni

putting in 

my bid 

for a husband 

a kid 

yeah Yeshua 

Please get rid of 

my loneliness 

before i rest 

with the best 

Yes, which is

you

yeah please 

make my dreams 

come true 

out the blue 

sky 

yeah, please 

make me 

squeeze 

out 

a happy cry 

MAN, I WISH I HAD A BOYFRIEND

MAN. 

i wish i had a boyfriend 

Yeah, i wish  i had 

a man 

with a plan 

to hold my hand 

and my heart 

and yeah

other body parts

yeah 

from start to finish 

yeah, with or without 

a blemish 

Yeah, where is my dentist?

because 

i'm craving 

something sweet 

yeah 

from his head 

to my bed 

to his feet 

Yeah God, 

Please let me be

geeked 

for once

yeah 

in very 

BOLD 

FONT

YOU NEED TO LEARN YOUR TWIST AND TURNS ( DIRECTIONALLY SPEAKING)

I'm not beneath you 

Boo

so why 

Do you lie

and treat me 

like you so

yeah i see 

that the sy 

is 

blue too

And I know 

that God

makes

 all things

new

so why

are you 

still the same

in your frame 

yeah

making  

me 

cry

and 

causing me

pain 

and then 

yeah, 

like the change 

in the wind 

you say 

right away

in Jesus name

with no shame 

in your game

mane

What's wrong

with you. Girl

I AM STILL A PERSON

hey
i might be handicapped  
and all that crap 
but if 
you slap
my face 

with your words

i will feel 
i will hurt 
yeah 
and feel 
like real 
dirt 
taste
but nor
because of
grace 
my love
No, it's so
simple 
i have a 
temple
i have a 
mental 
i have a 
heart
and plenty 
other working 
parts 
that you 
should never 
disreguard 
that God
Put me together
like leather 
but 
i am still
a real 
person 
or 
whatever

TRASH

God,
May I ask? 
why?
Am I?
being treated
lower than trash 
yeah
and it hurts
like glass to the heart 
But did i?
play a part
to make it start
yeah, 
by stoppin' my 
guard
or believing 
every lie
that people 
reply
or 
fake cry 
to me 
but Father
If I am 
your daughter
How can?
this be
yeah 
me hangin'
from a tree
emotionally 
for the whole world 
to see 
by way of ...
cerebral palsy

SO MONI WHO'S WHEELIE WITCHA IN THIS LIFE SIZE PICTURE? (A VERY HOT SNAPSHOT)

 God
i have been nice 
but yet and still 
yeah even with 
my goodwill
people disregard 
my heart 
or 
How I feel 
Yeah, with everything else 
i already have to deal with
sh*t
and then...
they switch
from friend 
to foe 
oh no 
i'm low 
and ready 
to go 
beserk 
yeah 
from all of the
hurt and the dirt 
WOW 
that has 
been
 piled on 
me 
but no seems 
to hear my screams 
or even care about my dreams 
So the moral of the story 
no pain no glory 

KRISSI'S POETIC SKY BALLOON

Now
let me 
sit 
in my regret
SH-T
as my eyes
get wet
from being 
UPSET
for missin' u 
CUZ
Yeah 
for what

 should've been 
and for what 
was 
yeah 
it cuts 
like a knife 
but 
You're in 
paradise 
way too soon 
but here
is
your poetic sky
balloon

 

GOD'S DECISION?

God, when did you decide 

that i was born to ride 

in a wheelchair

with long hair

or only walk

with someone

or something

by my side 

yeah. God

Please give me 

a guide 

or a slideshow 

to let me know 

how else 

my life 

and breath

is supposed to

 go

from here

or

grow

from here

or

flow 

from here

yeah

like water 

Dear  Father

this is 

your daughter

right?

so please 

give me 

insight

yeah

so that 

i might 

be free

inside me 

GOD STILL CARES FOR ME ( ON FOOT)

man, sometimes 

cerebral palsy

feels like...

cancer

or 

 an unanswered 

prayer

 yeah

but i swear

with every single

breath

that i have

left 

i have to

constantly 

remind 

myself

that God

still care 

for me 

yeah

somewhere

up 

in the air

yeah 

especially 

when life be

unfair

yeah

one day

somehow

someway 

i will be okay

on foot