BUSTING AT THE SEAMS

 MAN

I'm busting at the seams

trying to get to my dreams 

Yeah, the cake and ice cream 

Do you know what i mean?

Yeah, i SCREAM 

"COME HERE."

"MY DEAR"

Yeah, up close 

and crystal clear

Yeah, like a whisper 

in the ear 

ring 

yeah bring 

me something

to sing 

about 

yeah Lord

help me 

to be 

free

and, oooh wee

just 

let

it

out

DEAD BEHIND THE EYES

GIRL
Don't you realize?
that you need 
to apologize 
for all of 
the ugly inner 
cries 
and constantly 
telling lies 
on me 
yeah, 
Don't you care?
Can't you see?
MAN
I'm already 
dealing with
cerebral palsy sh*t
so QUIT 
being 
so lit 
about 
dimming 
my light 
alright?

DEAD BETWEEN THE EARS

MAN
some people 
see me 
as in-between 
yeah but 
the maker 
of
 all things 
Yeah, the king 
calls me 
royalty   
yeah a princess 
ot 
a queen 
so go 
ahead 
and
 SCREAM 
mean
 message 
from 
the dead 
yeah because 
Jesus bleed
out of love 
for me 
too 
Boo
so screw
what you're
truing 
to do 
yeah because 
that weapon 
of hurt 
will never 
work 

against God's 

e-lec-tric fence

BLACK DOVES

MAN
being hanicap 
makes me
humble 
BUT
being called 
crippled
makes me
wanna 
crumble 
yeah 
which is 
way worse 
than stumble
over 
a verse 
unreharrased 
yeah which then 
brings on 
a sudden 
thirst 

to sin 

or to 

breakwind

or 

to begin 

again  
BUT
to be 
looked at 
as lame 

or 

whack
makes me 
really 
wanna act
silly 
and 
jump out 
of 
my physical 
frame
my love
but where
i swear 
is 
the fair 
yeah because 
all i hear 
crystal clear 
is 
black doves

TAKING NOTES

MAN

love songs 

really make 

me sick 

yeah 

the lyrics 

hit me 

like a tone 

of bricks 

yeah because 

i have 

no love 

or 

no d^^k

to make me 

sore 

or

have me 

beggin' 

for more 

but 

guess what 

my lonely 

butt 

keep on 

playing them 

yeah 

especially 

when 

the day 

goes dim 

yeah 

emotions 

Dive into music 

like the ocean 

yeah 

love songs 

right or wrong

are my 

pain, shame & potion 

PRETZEL LOVE

TALKING TO A FRIEND WHITHIN

Hey, Jesus, Bud
Please stop the flood 
from coming 
i don't feel
like running 
in these whrrls 
to the Pearly Gate 
yeah. i can wait 
to skate 
like Usher  
yeah Lord,
i trust  You
in this dark 
and blue 
yeah,
So tell me 
What to do 
new 
yeah 
to save 
Your \Crew
do i need
to read
Hebrews  

HEAL THE SKY

 Father, i 
command You to 
heal the sky
yes please. 
let this storm 
pass us by 
yeah, i don't want 
anyone 

to die

or
to be

 taken 

towards the sun 
or 
have to run 
to take cover 
yeah please. 
protect 
my brother
my mother 
my sister
my friends 
yeah please 
let this clouds 
come to an end 
yeah 
no more 

wind

INSPIRED BY MY CURRENT SIT-U-A-TION AND LUKE 8

DO U HEAR ME TALKING TO YOU?

storm 
don't cause 
any harm 
or better yet 
don't get 
anything wet 
or even 
perform 
in this season 
yeah because 
Jesus is
noting but love 
and the reason 
for our
 power, shower being. and hours
yeah 
so 
go on 
where you belong 
yeah 
which is 
Hell
yeah 
and just
wish 
us 
well

inspired by my current sit-u-a-tion and Matthew 8

ANY RIGHT(S)?

GIRL

You don't have 

any right 

 to complain 

yeah because 

I'm the one 

Who's stuck 

in this cerebral palsy 

frame 

yeah 

in so much 

emotional pain 

but all for 

Christ's gain

and 

You should be 

ashamed 

for how 

you talk 

to me 

yeah 

when 

you already 

see 

this crippled tree 

blowing in the wind

but still 

trying 

to be 

your friend 

in this wheelchair

but  life is 

 just aint fair  

yeah even with 

the length 

and the strength 

of 

Samson s hair 

OFFICALLY LETTIN' GO part 2

 MAN 
i find it strange 
that my last name 
is not gonna
 change 
yeah 
i feel 
out of range 

yeah

Can you hear now?

cryin' like a child 

with a cooked smile 
and it's all because 
of 
my physical 
framr 
What a shame 
yeah 
especially 
because 
I'm not to blame 
for my lack of love 
or 
the two 
missin' 
turtedoves 
kissin' 
yeah 
some straight 
double sissin' 
is 
bein' had 
but i'm still 
sittin' here 
in God's wheel
and sex appeal 
feeling sad 

OFFICALLY LETTIN' GO

 man
i have 
given up 
hope 
of having 
my heart 
on a rope 
Or a string
or 
my finger 
in a ring 
yeah 
Do you know?
What i mean?
man
to let go 
of a dream 
yeah 
the cake 
and  ice cream
is such 
a heartbreaking 
and earthshaking 
thing 
to bring 
mysekf 
to 
but it seems 
like it's something 
i must do
even if 
it  makes 
my belly ache 
and boohoo 

TO GET OVER HER

DAMN

it's gettin' dark  

and my heart 

is gettin' 

lonelier

Yeah, i miss 

how we were 

yeah 

'cause 

the love 

is now 

wow

brrr

yeah 

i need 

a fur

yeah

to get 

over her 

dying 

yeah 

She left me

 crying and lying 

to myself 

about her 

Loss of breath 

yeah man 

death 

 is 

a beast 

of grief 

all by 

itself 

but 

here and now 

WOW

i receive it 

somehow 

BEIN' L.O.S.T. IN THE S.A.U.C.E.

 Saturday 

no park 

but i still

have a heart 

to fall in love 

yeah 

turtledoves 

and 

to be thought of 

as the one 

that u  can 

romance  

and 

fun with 

yeah 

while listening to

 The group"Switch"

yeah 

with us both 

doin' the most 

singin' off pitch 

but instead 

I'm in my head

bein' led 

to write 

what i want 

or 

what i like 

 on another 

single night 

HUMAN HAWK?

God

Why can't i 

fly 

on foot 

yeah why

must i 

stay put 

or  feel

like 

soot

 from the root 

or 

like 

a cut 

in the butt 

what 

yeah 

oftentimes 

not just 

in my rhymes 

i feel 

like a wheel-nut 

asking 

to walk

or 

to fly 

like 

A human hawk 

and flock

amongst the people 

yeah 

especially 

when i 

so do 

believe 

in You

and the steeple

WHEEL ROMANTIC

Hey,

i woke up 

this morning  

feelin'

 wheel romantic 

yeah, 

i so wanna 

be 

paired up 

on this planet 

yeah 

Do normal stuff 

that even walkin' people 

in a steeple 

take 

for granted 

yeah

some kissin'

some huggin' 

some marriage

some lovin'

some babies 

in the oven 

yeah, 

some memories 

with some 

chematry 

yeah

some him 

some me 

under God's rree

WHEEL I EVER LEARN?

 Lord, 

when wheel 

i learn

what u want me to

yeah

'cause wow 

your child's

heartburn 

and smile 

are

so blue 

yeah 

my insides 

are cryin' 

boohoo

yeah while 

waiting 

for the hatin' 

or deflatin'

to stop 

or for 

my casket 

to stop 

but 

what 

i wheelie want 

is 

a basket of blessing

yeah 

instead 

of

the walkin' dead

yeah 

please Father

help your daughter

get rid of 

all this stressin' 

and second gueesin'

in her head

from here on out

yeah 

please God 

let me scream 

and shout 

with ni doubt 

but for 

your clout 

THE NEW APHRODITE

OOOH  WEEE 

one day 

i will be 

free

of 

cerebral palsy 

yeah 

one day 

This human curse 

will be 

Reverse 

on Earth 

yeah 

no longer 

will my body 

thirst 

to be 

stronger 

no baby 

you will see

all of 

my physical 

ability 

yeah thanks

to The Almighty 

alrighty

yeah

so just 

start calling me

Aphrodite

IF AND WHEN

Oooohwee 

if y'all 

could see 

how hard 

it is 

to live 

with 

cerebral palsy 

 just maybe 

u would 

treat me better 

and help me weather 

this storm 

yeah instead 

of 

causing me 

so much 

misery 

and emotional 

harm 

with your 

verbal gerbil 

talk 

now ain't 

enough 

that my road  is 

rough 

yeah because

i can't walk

normal 

in

my caramel 

skin

and 

i don't know 

if or when 

i ever will 

but yet and still 

words can 

slowly kill 

or at least...

it feels 

STRUMMING MY GUITAR TO THE MAKER OF THE STARS

God

i so 

wanna know 

how this earth stuff  

works

yeah 

to avoid 

all of the annoyed 

yeah

all of the 

hurt 

and the

 disappointing dirt 

that i face 

and taste 

in my interface 

yeah 

what a disgrace 

to human race 

but 

pace

 by 

pace 

move 

and try 

to self-soothe 

to the blues 

of the good news 

WHAT'S DIS? (WHAT'S THIS?)

 DAMN
i need a hug 
a backrub 
or 
a kiss
yeah
not to be 
dismissed 
or 
disable 
yeah
jus' 
pull up 
a seat 
to my table 
yeah 
be sweet 
have sumthin' 
to eat 
yeah 
talkin' 
would be 
a treat 
yeah 
especially 
if u 
and me 
get deep 
like a bowl 
yeah 
share 
our hearts 
and 
our souls 
yeah 
solid gold 
(solid goals)

YOU NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT'S FEELIN' BLUE

 GIRL

i don't know why 

you keep on

shutting me out 

yeah,

 i don't know what

 that's all about 

or 

maybe i do 

but you  not the only one 

that's feelin' 

blue 

yeah

I'm blue 

but 

you & me  

are 

suppose to be 

each other's 

glue 

yeah baby

i thought you knew 

what best friends 

are suppose 

to do

yeah

openly cry 

and never ever...

lie 

yeah 

until we 

die 

FOR WE WRESTLE NOT

 GIRL

you claim 

to believe 

in Jesus's name 

But on daily 

It's cray 

you cause me 

nothing 

but 

heartache and pain 

but you never 

take the blame 

yeah,

what a shame 

what a shame

you bitter, 

sugarcane  

inspired by my life and Ephesians 6:12

SO LORD, AM I A GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT?

God 

i don't wanna 

have to wonder 

so long 

that i am 

underground 

 yeah 

i wanna be 

found

with 

a crown 

on my head 

yeah

before 

i am 

dead 

yeah 

from foot 

to head

yeah 

blood black 

not red 

if i reed 

your word 

and if

i am 

pleasing 

in your sight

alright

so gimme 

a sign 

or 

a sense 

of

 time  

yeah

Before 

my body 

goes 

blind 

MAN, BEWARE OF UNFAIR CAPRICON HORNS

GIRL

it's like

you love to

throw spikes 

at my soul 

yeah 

you're gettin' 

out of control 

yeah

you're gettin'

so cold 

but listen

aren't you?

suppose to be 

a Christian though 

but don't you think?

God sees 

the diss ease 

put in 

my cool breeze 

well, if not 

please stop 

yeah before 

someone

gets 

clocked 

SOME WHEEL MARCH MADNESS AND SITTING SADNESS

MAN

oftentimes 

i feel 

weak

yeah 

in English 

not Greek 

and a lot of times 

i can't sleep deep 

like others can 

on this land 

now why?

i don't understand 

but boohoo 

i so want to 

yeah before 

Heaven

 opens up 

it's door

yes, Earth 

please 

show me more 

first 

yeah 

the blessing 

and 

the curse 

BUT IT IS TRUE AND I AM BLUE

no one

wants 

to talk

to me 

romanticly 

yeah 

all because 

of

this cerebral palsy  

that should be 

assigned to me 

yeah 

like a branch 

to tree 

or 

a house 

to a key 

but oooh wee

i wish 

i had 

a spouse 

with 

a kiss

on my mouth 

or

with tongue

movin' 

from north

to south

but instead 

my heart 

and 

my heart 

is 

feelin' 

like a louse 

whose blood 

is 

red 

yeah 

needin' 

a med 

 

NOSY, KNOWY part 2

GOD

i wheelie 

wanna know 

why u 

expect me 

still glow 

yeah  

when 

i am 

hurtin' so 

yeah 

why?

should i?

pretend 

or lie 

like a sin 

yeah

if 

u and i 

are kin 

then 

i 

should 

openly cry 

yeah 

until 

u will 

me 

to die

 

NOSY, KNOWY

GOD

you know 

that i so 

wanna know 

mo'

yeah befo' 

my body

hittin' 

the underground ground flo'

yes Lord

Please be

so kind

to shine 

your light 

on my behind 

yeah since 

you got me 

walin' blind

out here 

my dear

with tears 

and  fears

yeah for 

46 long long

years

yeah so Savior 

please 

do me 

a wheelie big

 favor 

and as you stir 

let me hear 

loud and clear 

your laber

GOD DOES....BUT WE... DOO

God does bless America

but we keep on cursing her out

yeah, what's that about?

for clout or fame?

but wow, how?

could we? 

do that?

in Jesus name

with no shame

but boy oh boy 

how we love?

to blame 

and play 

her like a game 

all day 

or

like some clay 

ah naw

no way

and then 

say

"God bless America"

MY RHYME REMEDY

 GOD

i just wanna

do better

in this weather

of 

wheels

yeah 

be able to

express

how i wheelie wheelie feel 

yeah like 

being like this 

yeah even though 

i still exist 

takes a lot work

and 

hurts 

like a dentist's drill

 so mane, 

i need a pill 

to deal 

with 

this pain

and 

oftentimes 

  the shame 

that comes 

alone 

with 

my physical 

frame 

but

guess what?

Jesus reigns 

and so 

i have gained 

so much 

respect 

for 

poetry dialect 

 yeah because 

it lets 

me 

be 

myself 

with

every 

single 

earthly 

breath

CEREBRAL AND SOME INSENSITIVE PEOPLE

hey, if u can't handle  

my scandal

or the situation

 i'm in

please leave 

me 

to grieve 

you non-friend 

yeah because 

it is so much more 

than just a tug-a-war 

for sure 

or 

the even of 

the score 

yeah 

it's a sin 

to pretend 

to be 

somebody's kinfolk 

yeah when 

you treat them 

like a joke 

yeah 

you poke 

and you poke 

but 

guess what?

there are no clowns around

yeah, you just love to put me down 

and making my insides ache 

God, how much more? 

do i have to take?

for goodness sake

THE E.T. IN ME

i'm not

from

 this world 

but

i am

a human girl

with 

the wisdom 

of woman 

yeah

i am 

really something 

 to behold 

yeah with 

a heart of gold

spirit and soul

that's trying 

to find 

some peace of mind 

and some self-control

yeah before

my body dies 

or gets old and cold  

THE SPOKESPERSON

God

why 

do i 

have to be 

the  spokesperson  

for 

cerebral palsy 

can't you see 

how the earthly 

is 

forcing me 

to live 

yeah 

very few 

are sensitive 

to your view 

or my 

emotional blue 

so what's 

a girl 

in this world 

suppose to do 

just sit 

and continue 

to get treated 

like sh*t

just to prove 

that you can 

move 

mountains 

are turning on 

a forever water

 fountain 

for your daughter 

yeah 

when it's getting harder,

 Father 

in every quarter 

but i am not 

a sporter 

so please stop 

yeah because 

I'm not feeling....

THE LOVE 

from above 

or maybe 

I'm just crazy hurting 

or this wheelchair ...

is just not working 

THIS IS NOT THE LIFE (I WANT)

 Lord 

this is not the life 

i want to be a wife 

and a mother 

and a lover 

yeah 

should i go further?

mummering talk 

yeah Yeshua 

this disability 

is trying 

to kill 

me 

for real 

yeah 

i wanna walk 

and nor 

be still 

yeah Savior 

do u hear?

loud and clear 

how i feel

and 

do u see?

how people 

who say

that they 

 believe 

in Your Steeple 

everyday 

treat me 

like playdoh 

just say yes 

or no 

and i will 

let it go 

but i would 

really like 

to know 

yeah 

so i can 

grow

or 

flow 

differently 

from now on 

yeah 

because 

My Love 

I'm so tired 

of doing 

what's required 

and bring 

strong 

yesh 

all while feeling 

like i 

don't belong 

but that's 

wrong, right?

but thank you

and goodnight.

YOU DO THE MATH =?

 i started crushin' 

on  some1

at 14

but here i am damn 

at age 46

still lovesick 

and never been 

a queen 

but what 

does this mean 

i don't know 

should i let go

of my dream 

of a wedding cake 

and ice cream

yeah 

as my heart-

brakes 

and my soul 

wants to scream 

out loud 

in a  crowd 

for these things 

but 

botta boom botta bing 

don't laugh 

at my feelings 

or 

my wheelings

 and dealings

yeah but 

u do the math 

on my behalf  

AFRICAN AMERICAN

being

 african

 amerian 

is 

no sin 

or 

just a blow 

in the wind 

no 

think again 

yeah before 

you shut 

the door 

or 

shrink us 

down 

to the floor 

yeah 

cutting 

our core 

to less

than more 

than the best

but anyway

that's okay 

we are 

a star 

of love 

and success

LOOKING FOR A KING-SIZE SURPRISE

 God please 

make 

my eyesight 

right 

yeah take 

away 

all of 

the night 

fright 

yeah 

make me sleep 

real nice, light, 

and deep 

yeah 

no creeps 

lurking 

or 

my heart 

falling apart 

or 

hurting 

yeah 

my love 

because 

whatever 

I' have 

been doing 

is

not working 

yeah people 

jerking me around 

treating like 

a clown 

yeah by 

verbally 

putting me down 

yeah. like i'm dead 

in the head 

or 

in the ground 

yeah and so 

my feelings

sink low 

and begin 

searching 

for a friend 

or 

a pillow 

on Zillow 

to wipe away

the willow 

from today 

THE POMEGRANATE OF MY PAIN

MAN

my situation 

or

My cerebral palsy creation 

makes me

 so sad 

 and oftentimes 

so mad 

at the Messiah 

but despite 

my plight 

i still 

wanna go 

higher 

yeah 

to do 

what's 

required 

of me 

yeah 

to see

the root 

of 

my bitter fruit 

or

the real reason 

 winter season 

WISHING TO ACQUIRE ...MY DEEPEST DESIRE

 kiss me 

please 

yeah 

make my weak

in the knees 

 or buckle

yeah

when you squeeze 

my body 

yeah 

nice and naughty 

yeah

my insides 

chuckle 

with pride 

yeah 

take me 

on a spiritual 

ride 

yeah 

let God 

be our 

guide 

alongside 

this globe 

Constantinople

 

EGGSHELLS

 Father, am i doing well?

walking on eggshells 

'cause i can't tell 

down here 

yeah, 

i realize 

that my Earthly eyes 

are not 

very clear 

yeah 

so Savior 

please do me 

a favor 

and steer 

or 

stir 

things 

as they were

or was 

yeah, like 

the doves 

in Eden 

yeah before

there were 

any 

close doors

or

 slippery floors 

 or 

love loss 

on the cross...

beatings 

MR.AND MRS.BLACK HISTORY AMERICA

there's nothing wrong 

with my skin 

or

 what's in 

me 

yeah 

i was born 

to be

black. beautiful,   

intelligent and free

yeah so 

take a 

look see 

at this 

glow 

or sit down 

and listen 

to this 

flow 

that exist 

like a kiss 

from 

the kingdom

GOD'S CHOCOLATE RAINBOW

 hey 

my history 

is no

mystery 

i'm black 

yeah 

that's a fact 

yeah 

Christ airbrushed 

my life 

like that 

or He 

put the wind 

to my skin 

and then 

put me 

right in 

place 

yeah 

my style 

my grace 

yeah much more 

than 

the color of my face 

yeah so 

always remember 

from January 

to December 

i have 

a taste 

not a race

SO CLEARLY, NO REST... FOR THE WEARY

 i lay 

on a pillow 

but you know me 

i would rather be 

laying on 

a masculine chest 

yeah 

with somebody 

holing me 

obviously 

saying 

that 'i'm the best

that he's ever had 

bur boy 

it's makes 

me

a very sad 

lad 

yeah

that's why 

i 

got this 

notepad 

out 

yeah 

to help me

combat 

my lonely 

and 

doubt  

AN UNDER WATER DAUGHTER

 MAN

i have so much 

time on my hands 

yeah 

i have so much 

poetry in my plans 

that i don't understand 

but God

says 

i can 

write 

everything 

down 

just don't 

drown 

yeah 

float 

on a boat 

as you cope 

with hope 

and don't 

let the rope 

choke 

the life 

out of you 

and 

Christ 

I WISH LIFE WAS ...THE WAY IT WAS (thinking about TY)

hey cos 

i still

have a real 

sore spot 

yeah man 

my blood 

is 

still boiling 

hot 

that your heart stopped 

like a broken 

clock

and i'm 

sitting here 

writing this...

doc. 

with so many 

inner tears 

yeah, 

just thinking 

about 

your years 

on Earth 

yeah man 

starting with 

your birth 

and then 

your hunger 

your wonder

and 

thirst 

on this land 

yeah

God had a plan 

i didn't understand 

i don't know if 

i can 

but boy, 

how i miss 

your eyes 

of surprise

and love 

that never 

lied 

and cos 

i just wish 

that life 

was 

the way

it was 

THE WHEEL MEANING of GOOD GRIEF?

  MAN

i try to run away 

from 

cerebral palsy 

every single day 

but man 

cerebral palsy 

always wants 

to stay 

by my side 

yeah

cerebral palsy 

is 

always 

down to ride 

so yeah 

i swallow 

my pride of sorrow

and hope for tomorrow

or i...

 pause for the cause

and try to obey 

The Laws 

of The Lord

i guess

but man oh man 

this sit-u-a-tion plan 

is 

so stressful 

to say 

the less

so Father 

is this

 the wheel meaning

 of

 good grief