2026 DREAMS

DREAMS

why u keep screaming?

at  me

but don't seem to 

wanna be 

in my life 

yeah, so 

help me Christ 

 yeah 

sacrifice after sacrifice 

and i keep praying 

for something 

yeah 

just a slice 

will do

yeah 

come true 

come true 

yeah please 

erase 

the blue 

on my face 

and 

let me 

taste

 some happy 

grace 

with some laughter 

yeah, some 

happy ever after 

yeah like 

from the 

rafters 

ALL ABOARD | A Children’s Christmas Story by Monique Antoinette

THE WHEEL SACRIFICE

 Christ
i know 
what u doing 
in and with 
my life 
but i do 
feel 
the wheel sacrifice
yeah 
the verbal cuts 
of 
the knife
to my butt
and 
my brain 
is almost 
driving me 
insane
but 
still 
u use 
the abused 
and 
my pain 
yeah reign 
and 
spread 
the new good 
of 
my cerebral 
heard 
yeah 
and all 
of 
the parts 
of 
my heart 
that are not dead 
yeah 
u shine the light 
on my darkest 
nighr 
or 
my earthly 
bread 
that u 
have feed 
me 
constantious 
yeah 
even if
i don't 
understand 
the plan
or 
the shift 
yeah
This is me 
clearly 
in myth 

BE IN-LOVE AND BE ALIVE

so here i sit

at age 

47

writing page after page

yeah. 

wheelie settung 

the stage

tryin' nor to quit

and hopin' 

that someone

falls 

in love 

with me 

ooooh weee

before i go to heaven 

for 24/7

365

yeah

i wanna 

be in love 

and 

be alive 

Mrs. Scorpio x2

so i gave him 

my number 

and i wonder 

if  he will 

call 

or

want to do

 anything  

romantically

with me 

at all 

yeah will ever

fell  

in love 

or catch 

a wet 

feelin' 

towards 

me

ooooh weee

i so wanna be 

in his company 

constantly 

Or better yet 

on his familytree 

yeah Mr & Mrs Lock-and Key

.for Arkansas to see

or 

Mr & Mrs. Scorpio

from head to toe 

or 

from the ceiling 

the flo' 

CEREBRAL REGRETS

man
my eyes 
are wet 
because 
no one 
will let 
me 
love them 
romanticly 
but why? 
you reply
does 
this be 
will i think 
and it really 
stinks 
Why don't have 
my missing 
and kissing 
link 
is 
because 
i look 
like 
worn-out book 
or 
a lazy, crazy lady, maybe 

ROLL A MILE IN MY CHAIR (YEAH, THE AG-O-NY OF THIS DIS-ABILITY)

MAN

sometimes

my mind 

wants 

somebody else 

behind

to roll a mile 

in my shoes 

That's right 

It's Saturday 

And I got the blues

But God

how much more 

 will my heart

be sore

And I lose 

my core 

to another

close door

But for real, God

this cerebral palsy life

is 

hard 

and 

Damn

i am 

emotiomally 

scarred 

and yeah 

sometimes

my mind 

is 

not fine 

with me 

constantly 

sitting on my behind 

And I kinda 

want someone 

to see  

and feel 

the ag-o-ny 

of 

this dis-ability 

HEY I DOUBLE DOG DARE YOU TO, DEREK

hey Baby

is the reason 

that i'm not 

your lady 

this season  

is because 

i can't walk 

on my own. 

My Love

if so 

i want you 

to know 

that we  could 

still have a good, 

beautiful life 

with spice 

and Christ 

yeah so come 

over here 

my dear

and roll 

the dice 

yeah make me 

your wife 

and take me to

a view

of 

paradise 

SITTING ON THE BROOK OF MY BAE

so here i am 

sitting at a dam

or 

Here I am 

sitting at a brook 

yeah, just waiting 

for him 

to a swim 

in me 

intentationally 

yeah 

up close 

to post 

or 

wetter is 

better 

together 

yeah 

like leather

to a cow 

wow

we laugh 

we smile 

like a child 

running miles 

on a playground 

in my mind 

yeah, and i'm 

walking 

just fine

WRITING BY FAITH

Man

 Everybody gets to walk by faith 

with mercy and grace

But no, not i 

i try

and cry

and write 

day and night 

but  

it doesn't seem right 

But maybe it does 

in God's eyesight 

Yeah, maybe  he likes

What I type 

or 

 pen

yeah maybe 

It's like 

recieving 

a letter 

from a 

dear  friend 

So let's begin 

Jesus, I'm hurting 

while I'm working 

for you

so whatcha gonna do?

with my pain 

and the rain 

coming from my eyes 

Yeah, due to people 

telling lies 

and with 

no apologize 

surprise, surprise 

BOY, I WISH THAT MAN WAS MINE

BOY
You just don't know 
that
last time
you hugged 
i didn't wanna 
let go 
But if we did 
You should have 
backed away 
real low 
yeah 
so 
i could 
savour 
the moment 
real good 
yeah 
really 
Knock on your 

wood chest

but instead 
we just 
put our paator 
to be 
for his 
final rest 
yeah Rev Boyd
one of the best 
so i didn't 
confess
or contest 
 

BON-SAI LUST

God, i know it's wrong 

for me to carry on 

like this 

but as you see  

ooohwee

lust 

resides 

in me 

apparently 

yeah 

like a bonsai tree

yeah small 

but has 

a mighty power

 for hours and hours 

yeah  Father 

i need a 

shower 

because 

my love 

for him 

is 

so hot 

and i know 

that 

i need 

to stop

thinking about him

and un 

taking a swim 

around the clock 

But I'm ready 

to dock

with a friend of mine 

Yeah, Lord, he's so fine 

and one of a kind 

But his love is blind 

to me 

Yeah his eyes work 

but they are...

buried in dirt 

and he...

just can't see 

what we 

could be  

2 BROOKS IN-LOVE

hey listen 
There is so much 
sexual tension
inside

 of me 
yeah man 
i'm so ready 
to be
    your steady 
Yeah, body to body 
nose to nose 
yeah so 
come on man 
and take my left hand 
and just 
propose 
yeah 
i want 
Your final rose 
i surpose 
    

SO WHEN DOES THE ROMANTIC PART BEGIN?

okay man 
i wanna be 
more then 
just frriends 
So tell me
when 
Does the romantic part
of 
our hearts 
begin 
yeah 
the dating 
and the excitement 
of 
wating
to see each other 
my dark chocolate brutha 
and soon to be 
lover 
yeah
i don't 
want 
another 
no 
all i want 
is...
you
yeah so...
whactha 
gonna 
do
boo
yeah
'cause
i'm 
so tired 
of 
bein' blue
and 
without you 

FROM A BIBLICAL POINT of VIEW (OOOOH I SEE ME & YOU)

man, it really hurts 
That I only see you 
at church 
 yeah, i'm ready 
to put in some work 
yeah get in 
that topsoil 
or
pure olive oil 
dirt 
yeah 
i'm ready 
to grow 
or 
to flow 
with you 
from a 
biblical point
of view 
yeah 
i wanna be 
your boo
and 
You would be 
mine too baby
Yeah, call me
But I do 
wanna be 
forever your lady

SO THIS ME SHOOK AND SITTIN' BY THE BROOK

MAN
When I think of you 
all i do 
is think 
about 
What could  be 
true 
between me & you
one day
yay 
fun day
yay 
okay?
man 
may say 
yay 
that you 
and the things
you do 
got me 
feelin' 
some type 
of 
way 
which i 
like 
and wish 
that we 
 could kiss
and take 
a bite 
out of 
each other 
yeah 
become lovers 
especially at 
night 
yeah 
let's 
make it
wet 
before 
heaven's door 
open 
and one of 

our sun's set

ALL KINDS oF PLEASURE

MAN
please 
come inside me 
yeah ride me 
and bride me 
for good luck
and then 
knock me up
for good meter 
yeah, gimme 
all kinds of...
pleasure 
Yeah, let's bond 
together 
like leather
forever 
well at least 
until 
the  good Lord 
wills us 
to say
PEACE  OUT
or 
until 
we are 
old and gray 

EXPLORING THE RULER of THE PEOPLE ... (A SMALL STREAM)

MAN
I so want to 
explore
yeah 
to see
If there is 
something more
at the core 
yeah behind 
the romantic door
between you & me
yeah
Should we be 
the lock & the key
  

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OXYGEN LEVEL ( book trailer)

EMBARRASSING?

Christ 

why is 

my life

so embarrassing 

i mean 

can your

queen 

wipe 

her own ass

before she pass

through her hourglass 

or

can she at least 

live in  peace 

yes Lord

before 

she is 

released 

from 

cerebral palsy prison

yeah

can she

which is me 

walk and run 

into the sunshine 

yeah please 

don't let this be 

just another 

poetic rhyme 

My Brother 

 

CEREBRAL-HEAD-QUARTERS

God, i'm already sittin' 
So yeah, that means
thar you're queen 
is 
already committin' 
everything 
yeah 
her cerebral wings 
 Yeah, her mind
her time 
her breath 
and whatever 
is 
left
unsaid 
before her bread
or 
death
And who's she?
She is me
yeah tryin to be 
obedient and free
yeah worthy
of
 royalty
yeah
even if 
i need a lift
or two
or feelin' 
wheelie blue 
and not wheelie 
sure about 
What to do 
but then 
like the wind 
There is you 

HER VOICE (NOVEMBER 1, 2O25)

God

today 

i can 

wheelie say 

i heard 

her voice 

yeah

such a

beautiful sound

and never noise 

and oooh weee

it was 

her choice 

to call 

me 

And dare i say 

i was 

happy and relieved  

that i didn't 

have to 

grieve

yeah so father 

i do believe 

i must 

thank you 

for my prayer 

being 

recieved 

amen

ROLLIN ' WITH COMMITMENT

Christ
You know i have been
rollin'
 with cerebral palsy
all my life
so far
but you say 
that i'm a part of
your play 
or 
a star 
in your sky
so why 
do i 
cry
 yeah
even when
i try
to do
what you
say
every single day
yeah
Aren't i 
My brother's keeper 
and 
the potter's clay
then
why
is 
my life 
in such 
disaray  
in this 
present day

Inspired by my life and Proverbs 16

ORTAINED?

God
am i 
ortained  
to be 
in this 
palsy 
frame
for the
glory 
of 
your name
if so
Please let me 
know
where i am
supposed to 
go
yeah 
while 
blood 
still 
flow 
in my
 veins
or 
in my 
brain  
but father
quick question 
What am i 
supposed to 
gain
or what is 
the life 
lesson 
from this earth 
pain 

WIN-DOWS 25

God 
i see
you
and 
feel
your will
pushing me 
theough 
too
yeah 
even 
though
my healing 
seems 
so slow
and 
my dreams
seem 
to scream 
"NO MO'
LET THAT 
GO"
 i still see
you 
looking out 
for me 
con-sis-tent-ly

ON A TYPICAL DAY

i'm lonely
i'm horny 
and to  y'all
That just sounds  
corny 
but damn 
i am 
46
and 
i'm sick of
no love 
yeah 
i wanna go 
on dates 
i wanna have
a mate
yeah
That would be 
so great 
not to wait 
any longer
yeah 
this feelin' 
that i'm 
dealin' wit' 
sh#t
is gettin' 
stronger and stronger
But this is 
the way 
i really feel 
on a typical day

LOOKIN' INSIDE MYSELF

So this is me
tryin' to be
sexy
yeah 
This is me 
tryin' to be
human
Girl
What are you doin'?
Or who are you pursuin'?
jus'  be yourself
in every breath 
you have 
yeah
make them
laugh
in your paths 
or 
make them 
think 
with every blink 
yeah 
jus' don't 
shink 
and 
you will 
find 
that you are
fine 
yeah 
from the front 
which is 
What you really want 
and not 
jis' for
your
 badonkadonk

OOO0H WEEE. NUDITY (IN EVERY SENSE OF... THE WORD )

MAN
i wish 
i was 
nude 
with
a dude 
yeah 
kissin' him
and kissin 
food 
yeah
this 
is 
my mood 
right now 
wow
i'm not 
a child 
anymore 
yeah
along 
to soar
from my core
and more 
for sure
yeah 
this is 
roar 
going on 
strong 
inside of me
jus'waitin
to be
set 
free

 

THE ANGELS IN HEAVEN ( DONE SIGNED MY NAME)

Life is real

Don't you feel?

yeah, even 

when

a breath 

is

left 

alone 

yeah 

we 

still 

grieve

and moan 

for one 

to come 

home 

 yeah 

even though

we know 

that death 

moved

 slow

towards 

the glow 

of 

the flo'

d'angelo 

SUCH STRESS

DAMN 
i'm alone 
because
something is
physically wrong 
with 
my body
and no 
i'm not talking 
about 
being naughty 
i'm talking 
about 
not being 
able to
walk it out 
like waterspout 
so
i'm feeling blue
yeah 
instead 
i sit 
like led 
with all these
 thoughts 
in my head
yeah some 
should be dead
but
Chrit bled 
for me 
to be
single 
with a tingle 
and 
a desire
to mingle
i guess
but 
oooh weee
baby 
such stress  

13 DREAMS

MAN

i wanna scream

at my 13 dreams

but what does that mean?

they were sweet

like ice cream

until

my auntie 

yeah

i cried 

so much 

i nearly 

loat 

my sense of

touch 

and  my breath 

when she left 

yeah

i've been myself 

yeah

i love 

and 

miss her 

till death

IN THE DIRT of DISABILITY

MAN

i jis' wanna 

be

happy 

in this body

in this life 

so help me Christ 

 yeah, please 

gimme a slice 

of 

pie 

or squeeze 

from the most high

guy

in the sky 

or from

the most 

beautiful 

girl 

in the world 

yeah 

the one 

who made 

the sun 

come up 

and down 

and move 

and groove 

smooth 

all the way 

around 

yes lord 

i'm so 

tired 

of what's

required 

and 

My inner frown 

like a crown 

that no one 

really

sees

unless 

i hurt 

my knees 

in the dirt

of 

disability 

ON CLOUD 9 IN MY MIND

girl 

i wanna

 hold you

in my arms 

like a charm

yeah,

keep you safe

from harm

in a storm 

and when we

 perform love

i will touch you

like dove

yeah 

with every 

single 

tingle

i will 

rub

hug

or 

plug 

your

 sweet core

and sure

hope 

that 

you 

beg

for

more

between 

you legs 

i mean

my queen

yeah 

these are the things

i wish

my mate 

would say 

something greatO

to me 

one day

 

7 times of CEREBRAL RHYMES

MANE
it's insane
how much
emotional pain  
i'm in 
yrah
it's like
i've been 
slammed 
but ni one 
seems 
to hear 
my screams 
or 
Give a damn 
 How I live 
yeah
which is 
so insendative 
to my need
or 
lack of speed 
or
lack of motion 
oh Lord
Where's the potion?
or 
the ocean

Inspired by my life and 2 Kibgs 5

HUG (HURTING UNDER GOD)

MAN
i
just wanna 
cry
in someone's arms 
yeah 
feel like
a charm 
or 
feel no harm 
from my storm 
yeah 
i  wanna feel 
real
warm 
yeah 
a really good
embrace 
would put 
such a smile 
on my face 
and knock 
out
this 
bitter 
taste 
in my mouth 
from the south cerebral 
 

MAN, TO HELL, WITH THIS DISSABLE TALE

Man
i wish
someone
wanted 
to kiss 
me 
romanticlly 
yeah 
i wish 
someone 
wanted 
to be
body to body
naughty to naughty 
yeah
just leave 
the world 
behind 
for an extended 
amount of 
time 
just stop
walking 
blind 
and find 
me

fine 

like wine 
or 
see me 
as one 
of
 a kind 

OOOOH. POOH

i'm depressed

'cause 

i don't see 

less of 

cerebral palsy 

and 

the verbal 

negativity 

keeps comin'

more and more 

yeah 

my insides 

are 

so sore

to core 

yeah 

i pray that 

God 

gets 

these people 

back

yeah 

wheelie 

evems 

the score 

for 

the whole entire 

race 

the needs 

some extra speed 

or 

automatic door

or 

a special packin'

space 

yeah because 

no one's 

life 

is 

a waste 

or 

a disgrace 

to Christ 

ORANGE SQUEEZE

now sadly
people see
cerebral palsy 
like cancer
but i am 
the answer 
to a problem 
that needs
to be solved 
yeah 
my body
might short 
but 
guess what?
my spirit 
stands 
tall
through it 
all
yeah 
especially 
in the pitfalls 
i have never been
recalled
yeah
just ask God 
the real iPod 
 or 
icon 
that truly runs 
the Earth
our births
and 
the sun

RISE AND SHINE (GOD GOT MINE)

God raised me

from the 

dead

yeah he

 got me 

out of bed

 because

 his blood

is 

red 

and still 

moving 

yeah 

his will 

is still

making 

an appeal

yeah 

it's 

doing something 

\we maybe

can't see

but 

for surely 

will be

eventually

Inspired by my life and 1 Peter 1

FEELIN' LIKE A MATADOR part 2

God

am i 

wheelie 

bult 

for this 

fight

because

i 

find it 

wheelie hard 

to drop 

my guard 

and 

sleep 

at night 

so is that right?

Lord, show me 

the light 

or gimme 

a flight 

out of here 

yeah 

no more

fears 

no more 

tears 

or 

cerebral palsy 

years 

FEELIN' LIKE A MATADOR

God

why

is my 

life 

so full

of 

bull-

sh^t

and when

is it 

gonna 

quit 

yeah 

i'm loookin'

for more 

things 

with real wings 

and that are 

legit 

and won't 

switch 

their 

pitch 

in the middle 

of  a

pickle 

or a tickle

or a 

subject 

yeah 

no 

neglect 

or 

new dialect  

CHUMP CHANGE

Lord

i'm feelin' 

kinda 

strange 

yeah 

almost 

derange 

yeah 

because 

i so 

know 

that as 

life 

go

i'm no 

chump change 

yeah 

i'm  so 

worth 

more

than

the turf 

that i'm 

sittin' 

on 

yeah and 

i'm strong 

yeah

even when 

people 

Who need me 

treat me 

like 

i don't  belong 

in this 

earthly home 

yeah

which is 

so wrong 

on all accounts 

yeah and

in every amount 

yeah 

oucue 

for 

oncue

Based on my life and Proverbs 18

MY JAR OF... SCARS

Lord

i don't wanna 

be 

here 

yeah 

in this body 

full of tears 

yeah Yeshua 

i'm drowning 

and frowning 

because 

the people 

who are

supposed to be 

from your steeple 

are 

clowing

 me 

down 

here

and Father

i fear

that 

it will

steer 

me 

in the 

wrong 

directions

yeah 

away

from 

your protection 

and affection 

yeah 

the things 

that my life 

brings,

Christ

has 

got me 

questioning 

my past 

decisions 

in my 

hourglass

LISTEN

yeah Father

it's like 

your daughter

has 

doubble vision 

inspired by my life 

and Psalms 56

WAVING MY HAND

 God

Here I am

waving my hand

waiting to stand 

and work 

your pain 

i guess

yeah 

see pass 

the stress

and realize 

that 

i'm blessed 

despite 

being 

briused 

and 

misused 

by 

people 

spreading 

fake news 

about me 

and also 

doubting me 

from head 

to toe 

but God

what about 

healing 

this cerebral 

that i was

given, 

though

inspired by my life and John 5

NOW WAIT A 3RD MINUTE

WOMAN

You are making me 

 hate

my life 

doubt others 

and not trust

 Christ 

yeah woman 

your words 

cut me 

like a knife 

yeah interbally 

i bleed 

with every slice 

yeah maybe 

Here I come 

paradise 

yeah because 

This Christian lady 

shows me

 no love

on a daily 

which is 

crazy 

so  Father 

Will you come 

save 

this daughter 

yeah 

no grave 

or 

slave  quarters 

yeah just 

your order 

your rapture 

and 

your hereafter 

Based on my life and 2 Corinthians 12

WAITING AT... THE BEAUTIFUL ... GATE

God

i'm still 

angry

i'm still

 scared

yeah 

i'm still 

sitting 

and feeling 

really 

unperpared 

for

the next door 

or 

the ship 

coming 

to

the shore 

yeah 

because 

i'm not sure 

which way 

to go 

or 

how 

the wind 

and 

the water

is gonna 

flow 

for your daughter 

head to toe 

but farher

you know 

so i will

still 

grow

beautiful 

IS THERE REALLY ANY LOCKED DOORS?

MAN

It's a shame  

that i'm already

 stuck 

in this frame

yeah 

I'm already 

in emotional 

pain 

and now

WOW

I'm constantly 

being treated 

like a child 

yeah i'm feeling 

so defeated 

and over heated 

bwcause 

 I have 

lived 46 miles 

but father

Why can't 

your daughter 

at least 

smile 

for a quarter 

of 

her life 

yeah Christ 

don't think 

i've 

suffered 

enough 

yeah

don't think 

my road 

has already

been tough 

and then 

some more 

open sores 

to my

core

yeah 

is 

there

really 

any

locked 

doors 

MY TENDER CEREBRAL

i wanna

cry

i wanna

die 

i want 

a king 

And I want 

my spiritual wings 

so i can

fly 

high 

in the heavenly sky

or 

walk freely 

on earth 

yeah 

reverse 

the curse 

of my 

physical birth 

yeah 

before 

i get worse 

or totally

lose 

my right 

to choose

my hunger

or 

my thirst

for life 

yeah\

so help me

christ 

to 

surender 

my tender cerebral 

and not 

let people 

bother me 

that should 

even be 

in my headspace 

with their bitter

taste 

of

disgraced 

of me

and 

the disabled

soceity 

WHERE IS THE INTEGRITY? (IN THIS OR THAT)

So let's see
God
allowed me 
to be 
born 
with cerebral palsy
but where 
is 
the loyalty 
 and 
fair 
yeah 
where 
is the love 
and care 
for me 
up there 
yeah 
for dealin' wit' 
these lies 
and sh-t
that are 
makin' sick 
and wanna 
quit 
on myself 
or 
take 
the breath 
that i have left 
and put it on a shelf 
for safe keepin'  
yeah, i swear 
but where
is 
The integrity in that
or 
this 
yeah 
i'm pissed 
dimissed 

CANARY

Man

living with this

cerebral palsy 

plan

is kinda 

 scary 

but 

apparently 

God's wants 

me to

sing like 

a canary 

to you 

about 

feeling blue 

yeah about 

all the things

i can't do 

or 

shouldn't even 

try to 

pursue 

yeah and in 

every single word

but 

Guess what?

I'm not a bird 

I'm a human 

yeah 

with many 

aesthetic ruins 

but 

I'm still 

brew-ing and coo-ing 

Insomnia of a Wanderer

 Last night. It was so hard for me to sleep. Yeah it was so hard for me to keep my eyes closed. But I suppose only God knows.

CEREBROSPINAL

 i drown 

my sorrows 

on paper 

and as 

a favor

to my father 

and 

my savior 

Yeah, as a daughter 

and since 

i can't walk 

on water 

nor build 

a fence 

writing is 

my

 evidence 

or 

my God 

quench 

when 

i can't find 

a friend 

or sin 

tries 

to draw

my in 

with

lies 

i write 

towards 

the light 

my replies 

and 

so hope

that 

it reaches

the skies