X MARKS THE SPOT

TODAY SCARES ME BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN BECAUSE GOD IS REALLY THAT CAPTAIN OF MY SHIP BUT I HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO SLIP RIGHT OFF THE BOAT AND NOT ABLE TO FLOAT AND CHOKE TO DEATH SO TODAY COULD BE MY LAST BREATH BUT I REALLY DON'T THINK ABOUT MYSELF I THINK ABOUT OTHERS MY LOVERS BUT NOT IN SEXUALLY SENSE BUT THOSE WHO EVIDENTLY LOVE ME FOR ME LIKE SHERI AND RONNIE DID BUT MOW THEY'RE GONE AND I FEEL SO ALONE AS THOUGH I DID SOMETHING SO WRONG IN MY PAST TO MAKE THEM BOTH PASS AWAY AND I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CRAZY TO SAY BUT THIS IS HOW I REALLY FEEL TODAY WELL,OKAY, AT THIS MOMENT BUT I OWN IT YEAH I ACCEPT IT RATHER I LIKE IT OR NOT X MARKS THE SPOT TO PAIN AND CONFUSION AND MY EMOTIONAL CONTUSION