RAW EMOTION

flesh
shut up
because i'm tying to live a spiritual life
but you constant child's play
is affecting me everyday
in someway
but i can't seem to stay away
it's like a need you to breathe
even though constantly grieve...
over you
and the things you get me to do
and think
and then i sink
into this hole
because i lost control
and forget about  my soul 
 so i don;t feel whole
or real
and i can't seem to find a pill
to make my mind stop...
acting out..
of character
of my core
but i do have...
this tug-of-war
going on inside of me
but i so wanna be fee...
of this agony