THE SPOKESPERSON

God

why 

do i 

have to be 

the  spokesperson  

for 

cerebral palsy 

can't you see 

how the earthly 

is 

forcing me 

to live 

yeah 

very few 

are sensitive 

to your view 

or my 

emotional blue 

so what's 

a girl 

in this world 

suppose to do 

just sit 

and continue 

to get treated 

like sh*t

just to prove 

that you can 

move 

mountains 

are turning on 

a forever water

 fountain 

for your daughter 

yeah 

when it's getting harder,

 Father 

in every quarter 

but i am not 

a sporter 

so please stop 

yeah because 

I'm not feeling....

THE LOVE 

from above 

or maybe 

I'm just crazy hurting 

or this wheelchair ...

is just not working 

THIS IS NOT THE LIFE (I WANT)

 Lord 

this is not the life 

i want to be a wife 

and a mother 

and a lover 

yeah 

should i go further?

mummering talk 

yeah Yeshua 

this disability 

is trying 

to kill 

me 

for real 

yeah 

i wanna walk 

and nor 

be still 

yeah Savior 

do u hear?

loud and clear 

how i feel

and 

do u see?

how people 

who say

that they 

 believe 

in Your Steeple 

everyday 

treat me 

like playdoh 

just say yes 

or no 

and i will 

let it go 

but i would 

really like 

to know 

yeah 

so i can 

grow

or 

flow 

differently 

from now on 

yeah 

because 

My Love 

I'm so tired 

of doing 

what's required 

and bring 

strong 

yesh 

all while feeling 

like i 

don't belong 

but that's 

wrong, right?

but thank you

and goodnight.

YOU DO THE MATH =?

 i started crushin' 

on  some1

at 14

but here i am damn 

at age 46

still lovesick 

and never been 

a queen 

but what 

does this mean 

i don't know 

should i let go

of my dream 

of a wedding cake 

and ice cream

yeah 

as my heart-

brakes 

and my soul 

wants to scream 

out loud 

in a  crowd 

for these things 

but 

botta boom botta bing 

don't laugh 

at my feelings 

or 

my wheelings

 and dealings

yeah but 

u do the math 

on my behalf  

AFRICAN AMERICAN

being

 african

 amerian 

is 

no sin 

or 

just a blow 

in the wind 

no 

think again 

yeah before 

you shut 

the door 

or 

shrink us 

down 

to the floor 

yeah 

cutting 

our core 

to less

than more 

than the best

but anyway

that's okay 

we are 

a star 

of love 

and success

LOOKING FOR A KING-SIZE SURPRISE

 God please 

make 

my eyesight 

right 

yeah take 

away 

all of 

the night 

fright 

yeah 

make me sleep 

real nice, light, 

and deep 

yeah 

no creeps 

lurking 

or 

my heart 

falling apart 

or 

hurting 

yeah 

my love 

because 

whatever 

I' have 

been doing 

is

not working 

yeah people 

jerking me around 

treating like 

a clown 

yeah by 

verbally 

putting me down 

yeah. like i'm dead 

in the head 

or 

in the ground 

yeah and so 

my feelings

sink low 

and begin 

searching 

for a friend 

or 

a pillow 

on Zillow 

to wipe away

the willow 

from today 

THE POMEGRANATE OF MY PAIN

MAN

my situation 

or

My cerebral palsy creation 

makes me

 so sad 

 and oftentimes 

so mad 

at the Messiah 

but despite 

my plight 

i still 

wanna go 

higher 

yeah 

to do 

what's 

required 

of me 

yeah 

to see

the root 

of 

my bitter fruit 

or

the real reason 

 winter season 

WISHING TO ACQUIRE ...MY DEEPEST DESIRE

 kiss me 

please 

yeah 

make my weak

in the knees 

 or buckle

yeah

when you squeeze 

my body 

yeah 

nice and naughty 

yeah

my insides 

chuckle 

with pride 

yeah 

take me 

on a spiritual 

ride 

yeah 

let God 

be our 

guide 

alongside 

this globe 

Constantinople