WOMAN
You are making me
hate
my life
doubt others
and not trust
Christ
yeah woman
your words
cut me
like a knife
yeah interbally
i bleed
with every slice
yeah maybe
Here I come
paradise
yeah because
This Christian lady
shows me
no love
on a daily
which is
crazy
so Father
Will you come
save
this daughter
yeah
no grave
or
slave quarters
yeah just
your order
your rapture
and
your hereafter
Based on my life and 2 Corinthians 12
i'm still
i'm still
yeah
i'm still
sitting
and feeling
really
for
the next door
or
the ship
coming
to
the shore
yeah
because
i'm not sure
which way
to go
or
how
the wind
and
the water
is gonna
flow
for your daughter
head to toe
but farher
you know
so i will
still
grow
beautiful
MAN
It's a shame
that i'm already
stuck
in this frame
yeah
I'm already
in emotional
pain
and now
WOW
I'm constantly
being treated
like a child
yeah i'm feeling
so defeated
and over heated
bwcause
I have
lived 46 miles
but father
Why can't
your daughter
at least
smile
for a quarter
of
her life
yeah Christ
don't think
i've
suffered
enough
yeah
don't think
my road
has already
been tough
and then
some more
open sores
to my
core
yeah
is
there
really
any
locked
doors
i wanna
cry
i wanna
die
i want
a king
And I want
my spiritual wings
so i can
fly
high
in the heavenly sky
or
walk freely
on earth
yeah
reverse
the curse
of my
physical birth
yeah
before
i get worse
or totally
lose
my right
to choose
my hunger
or
my thirst
for life
yeah\
so help me
christ
to
surender
my tender cerebral
and not
let people
bother me
that should
even be
in my headspace
with their bitter
taste
of
disgraced
of me
and
the disabled
soceity
Man
living with this
cerebral palsy
plan
is kinda
scary
but
apparently
God's wants
me to
sing like
a canary
to you
about
feeling blue
yeah about
all the things
i can't do
or
shouldn't even
try to
pursue
yeah and in
every single word
Guess what?
I'm not a bird
I'm a human
yeah
with many
aesthetic ruins
but
I'm still
brew-ing and coo-ing
Last night. It was so hard for me to sleep. Yeah it was so hard for me to keep my eyes closed. But I suppose only God knows.
i drown
my sorrows
on paper
and as
a favor
to my father
and
my savior
Yeah, as a daughter
and since
i can't walk
on water
nor build
a fence
writing is
my
evidence
or
my God
quench
when
i can't find
a friend
or sin
tries
to draw
my in
with
lies
i write
towards
the light
my replies
and
so hope
that
it reaches
the skies
so here i sit
in this pit
waiting to \
get out pf it
yeah so God
please
send me
a rope
or
a ray of sunshine
of hope
yeah
to stop
this coping mechanism
in this cosmicism
of
yeah where
one
is
very ballsy
or
very verbal
about my
yeah
making me
like a
slow
and not\
so beautiful
or
like a
clown
breaking down
in the middle
of a
dribble
yeah
just like
Sybil
yeah gimme
the kibble
because
i feel
like
real dog
or please
God
get me
out of
this mud flood
because
i'm tired of
being a hog
ooooh weeeee
your heart
must be
filthy
yeah like
muddy water
And you are
suppose to
reflect
sosking wet
or
dry
so why
girl why
are you
constantly
making me
inner cry
and making me
for real
like
i wanna die
BASED ON MY LIFE AND MATTHEW 12
Father
please
help
me
climb
out of
this depression
and
the negative thoughts
and
the negative talk
run through
my mind
everytime
the sun
starts
to shine
yeah here
comes
a blind-
spot
yeah
leavin' me
cold
and
hot
and
makin' me
wanna stop
my own
clock
yeah so
heavenly pops
please move
these rocks
are hard
knocks
God
i'm curious
when are you
gonna come
in
and change
this strange
sin
of
pretend
and
sufferin'
in
silence
yeah
because
i'm so
tired of
this lack of
love
and this
verbal violence
yeah
i feel
like a
gerble
jumpin'
over
hurtles
everyday
yeah
along
with
the sh*t
of
cerebral palsy
but why Lord
does it
have to be
this way
so God
Are you comin'
Yeah, should
we be runnin'
for cover
or holdin'
on strong
to our lover
or brother
or
in between
Yeah, Lord
what does
all of this
mean
yeah,
this green
envy
not so friendly
situation
in this nation
yeah, and
guns are blazin
and hermons
are ragin'
in every station
of
tempstion
yeah and so
There's a lot
of
cold and hot
false allegations
that really
need to stop
before the clock
or
that needs to
burn
before your
return
or
lesson learned
this morning
i woke
yearning
yeah still
storming
from lack of
sleep
yeah
i had
to reach
down deep
inside myself
to choose
to use
the breath
that i have
left
in my cerebral
people
yeah while
also trying
to hold on
to a steeple
yeah
to remain
strong
in this frame
of
palsy pain
yeah
what ashame
But in the name
of
jesus
Father, i
breathe
and i
grief
yeah, almost
daily
yeah,
that's so
crazy
but maybe
it's supposed to be
this way
yeah, feelin'
like
some overworked clay
yeah, who's supposed to stay
put
from the root
but never
on foot
in sut
MAN
it's insane
how much
SHEVY is
on my brain
yeah
it makes laugh
in pure pain
yeah
so much
movement
in my little frame
but
i will never
be the same
again
yeah
even though
She's in the wind
i miss her so
much
yeah her
personality
had such
a touch
yeah
a touch
of this
and
a touch
of that
yeah
mam oh man
y'all don't
understand
just how much
i wish
she was
on this
land
of
yeah
just
for
one
more
man
last night
i cried
because
i don't have
a romantic love
to ride
by my side
yeah
in this thing
called
life
and yeah
it doesn't
look like
Christ
is
going to
send me
anyone
to have
or
to hold
yeah
in the hot
or
in the cold
so
That's right
last night
yeah
instead of
taking fight
my soul
just
cried
hey shevy
You should be
here
instead of
there
yeah
in the air
doesn't seem fair
yeah, it's feels
like a real
dream
that screams
GIRL.
I'M STILL
VERY MUCH
ALIVE
IN THIS WORLD
YEAH
AND
I'M STILL
APART
OF
GOD'S PLANS
YEAH, MONI
EVEN IF
MY LOCATION
SHIFT
DON'T BE
MYTH
AT ME
OR GOD
YEAH JUST
CELEBRATE
THE BOTH
OF US
REAL HARD
okay Lord
This is me
Moni
putting in
my bid
for a husband
a kid
yeah Yeshua
Please get rid of
my loneliness
before i rest
with the best
Yes, which is
you
yeah please
make my dreams
come true
out the blue
sky
yeah, please
make me
squeeze
out
a happy cry
MAN.
i wish i had a boyfriend
Yeah, i wish i had
a man
with a plan
to hold my hand
and my heart
and yeah
other body parts
yeah
from start to finish
yeah, with or without
a blemish
Yeah, where is my dentist?
because
i'm craving
something sweet
yeah
from his head
to my bed
to his feet
Yeah God,
Please let me be
for once
yeah
in very
I'm not beneath you
Boo
so why
Do you lie
and treat me
like you so
yeah i see
that the sy
is
blue too
And I know
that God
makes
all things
new
so why
are you
still the same
in your frame
yeah
making
me
cry
and
causing me
pain
and then
yeah,
like the change
in the wind
you say
right away
in Jesus name
with no shame
in your game
mane
What's wrong
with you. Girl
God, when did you decide
that i was born to ride
in a wheelchair
with long hair
or only walk
with someone
or something
by my side
yeah. God
Please give me
a guide
or a slideshow
to let me know
how else
my life
and breath
is supposed to
go
from here
or
grow
from here
or
flow
from here
yeah
like water
Dear Father
this is
your daughter
right?
so please
give me
insight
yeah
so that
i might
be free
inside me
man, sometimes
feels like...
or
an unanswered
yeah
but i swear
with every single
breath
that i have
left
i have to
constantly
remind
myself
that God
still care
for me
yeah
somewhere
up
in the air
yeah
especially
when life be
unfair
yeah
one day
somehow
someway
i will be okay
on foot
i'm a prison
and a good listener
for the Lord
yeah, wow
that's how
living with
really feel
yeah, it's very hard
to deal
with a life
that seems
to scream
yeah
just still
in a body
of bars
and steel
where only
words
can
escape
this
yeah
place
have mercy
have grace
Inspired by my life and 2 Timothy 1
Hello Father
i don't want
to be
a bother
but
i need
to ask you
some questions
about
My life lesson
or
to keep me
from
second guessing
myself
in every single
breath
i take
or
every move
i make
yeah please
gimme
a break
and heal
me
now
or
show me
how
as
your child
yes
gimme
your best
everlasting
innner
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