NOT MY DREAM SCENE

MAN

it's so hard 

to drop 

my guard 

yeah

when i have 

been scarred 

for so long 

and 

so wronged 

yeah 

i feel 

because 

of 

my wheels 

i still 

don't belong 

in this world 

in this body

or 

to the party 

yeah 

however nice 

or naughty 

Father, i don't mean  

to be haughty

or unclean 

but

 this cerebral palsy thing 

is just not

my dream scene 

so 

please 

cut 

it 

out  

HELP, I FEEL LIKE I'M WHEELY GOIN' UNDER 'CAUSE I'M NO LONGER YOUNGER

 i should be '

happy 

that i am 

45 

and still 

alive 

but 

guess what?

I'm not 

because 

all i see 

in front of me 

is 

things that i still 

want 

and will never do

before i pass 

ib the grass 

yeah even though 

i have so 

asked 

the maker of  

my hourglass 

or 

my salt shaker 

to slow down 

the ground 

and just let me 

get found 

by a man 

who can 

stand 

but understands 

that it 

just might 

not 

be 

in God's plan

or

in his right card-hand

for me 

to walk

baby

but i;m still 

a good lady h

LISA'S SAN' CASTLE SMILE

God
take a look 
at your child 
yeah 
I'm so heartbroken 
right now 
yeah 
'cause i know
that you so 
took away 
Lisa's smile 
a.k.a 
my best friend's 
love 
yeah 
the one 
who finally gave 
her
a son 
and then 
you said 
"done"
what's the fun in that?
and no takebacks 
he's just gone 
and she's alone 
in a sense 
without her prince 
and i 
can't hold her 
when she cries 
but 
why?
GUY IN THE CLOUDS 
YEAH GOD 
I SERIOUSLY
ASK YOU 
FOR YOUR POINT OF VIEW 

OUT LOUD 

DANN ( DISABLE ANGUISH MOSTLY NIGHTLY)

MAN
    i'm not supposed to feel
like I'm in 
a wheelchair 
yeah 
i swear 
that I'm not 
supposed to care 
about 
all of 
the stares 
and 
unfairness 
yeah 
I should be 
feeling good 
that i 
exist  
and still
tryin' 
even though 
I'm pissed 
wit' cerebral palsy
and
even though 
people so 
be 
lying 
 on me
constantly 
but i am 
and i do 
because of you

TEL-E-PATH-IC

GOD
do words 
really heal
wounds 
or 
bring 
bodies 
out of tombs 
yeah 
like singing birds 
or 
dancing balloons 
in the shy 
or do  
they just fly 
and land 
with no plan 
man 
i really 
do 
wanna 
understand 
you 
if 
i can 

BY MYSELF???

 and so it seems 

that my dreams 

of  love 

and being 

a bride 

doesn't ride

or side 

with 'god's 

plan

but 

guess what?

my heart

still 

wants 

a man 

yeah 

just as much 

as 

i wanna 

walk and stand 

by myself 

on this land 

RISKY ( ROMANTIC IMPACT SITUATION KINDA YEARNIN')

 LORD
even though 
i might 
lose
my heart 
still 
wants to 
choose 
to fall 
in love 
like a dove 
or 
a bat 
to glove 
yeah 
home run 
gimme some 
yeah 
make my heart 
beat 
like a drum 
or 
make my feet
feel real 
sweet 
yeah 
mission
complete  

A VERY UNIQUE THURSDAY

so why 

do i 

thirst 

for 

another 

verse 

on 

unrehearsed 

or 

uncursed 

by 

my

 cerebral  palsy 

or 

why 

do i 

hunger 

to 

be 

a younger 

me 

yeah 

confident 

and free

or 

just 

to be 

reunited 

or 

excited 

and 

not

 have to 

hide it 

or 

stop 

the clock 

TAKING SMART TO HEART

Father

I acknowledge 

that Life 

should be 

lived 

yeah 

i should 

learned 

in every turn 

yeah 

from heartburn 

to cold breezes 

yeah 

i should be 

even thankful 

for hiccups  

and sneezes 

yeah 

that 

which pleases 

you 

yeah 

the fact 

that 

i 

just \

push through 

IN THE SPIRIT of THE TRUTH

i was made 

perfect 

in love

yeah 

i was made 

worth it 

for this world 

but then 

your girl  

got tarnish 

like a peal 

on a necklace 

yeah 

fear and tears 

have made 

me fade 

and reckless 

over the year 

yeah 

even  when 

God has 

forgiven my sin 

and oiled 

my gears 

to run 

and have 

fun 

i still 

struggle 

as though 

i am 

wearing 

a muzzle 

but still

trying to 

wheel and deal

to get 

things done 

well

yeah

Heaven's ways 

not Hell's wordplay

Inspired by my life and 1 John 4

FEELING LIKE SOME MOLDED BREAD

BOY

i wish 

my life 

was more than 

just a slice 

of 

personal 

but God 

as you know

that just isn't 

so 

but 

i can't go 

anywhere 

without 

almost having 

someone there 

all of the time 

yeah 

and that 

hurts my soul 

and blows 

mind 

yeah 

the sun doesn't shine 

for me 

all of the time 

and 

my dreams 

seem to 

beam 

for 

someone else 

while i

 sadly 

sit on the self 

waiting on 

my death 

LORD, NOT ANOTHER BLOODY BROTHER OR SISTER OR BABY THAT'S CRAZY

MAN 
   the thing that 
i really don't 

understand 
about God's plan 
is 
the fact that 
he or she 
give us or we 
free well 
yeah 
so if 
someone 
wants to run 
with a gun 
for fun 
they can 
or 
kill 
for trills 
they can 
but still 
i don't understand 
the mind of a man 
on this land 
of 
dump and swamp 
or 
bait and switch 
or 
treating each other 
like a bitch 
yeah 
this stuff 
is 
rough 
and 
needs 
to lose 
speed 
or 
just quit 
 

ARMED AND...DANGEREOUS

MAN
GUNS
should not 
be 
on any spot 
of 
the Earth 
and why?
because 
they disrespect 
birth
yeah
all they do 
is 
make us cry 
snd
take people 
from you 
and leaving us 
with a dark view 
and not able 
to trust 
a single soul
yeah 
because 
so many bodies 
got cold 
before 
they turned old  

 

OH HOW SAD I'M A HUMAN EMOTIONAL PUNCHING BAG (BUT WHY...?) PART 2

MAN
GOD
 YOUR PLAN 
hits 
so HARD 
yeah 
my life
JESUS CHRIST 
like 
no chin 
guard 
or 
breast shield 
and then 
you 
put me on wheels 
and expected me 
to be 
still
yeah 
still 
as in 
don't move
and 
steel as in 
strong 
and built 
to last
 long 
but 
it feels 
so wrong 
Yesh 
like 
i don't 
belong 
in this fight 
of  life 

OH, HOW SAD I'M A HUMAN EMOTIONAL PUNCH BAG ( BUT WHY....?)

 God 
why 
must i 
be 
the fall guy 
for everything 
i try 
on your behalf 
yeah 
why 
does everybody 
seem to laugh 
or 
scream 
at my dreams
but yeah God
what does all really mean  
yeah 
my life, Christ 
yeah
all the pain 
and 
the sacrifice 
or 
me just being 
sincerely nice 
but yet 
and still 
yeah 
even in wheel 
i still feel 
like a boxer 
with no shield 

THE 50 YARD LINE

 GOD
I wish 
could walk 
across 
the 50 yard-line 
yeah
and just 
toss 
the ball around  
just 1 time 
and 
get lost  
and never 
found 
on the ground 
but 
I'm not 
gonna lie 
if  i could 
walk good 
i would 
probably try 
to just 
streak by 
and 
wave "HI" 

yeah if 

the crowd 

shifts 

 and

 i get 

tackled  

and lifted

 off the field 

at least 

i released  

some inner peace 

and keep it

 REAL

MAN, I WISH COULD SEE REALLY GOOD INTO THE FUTURE pt2

GOD

i know 

that tomorrow 

is so...

THE FUTURE

but 

will i ever?

get my body together 

and 

be able to 

walk forever 

yeah 

never needing 

any physical help   

yeah Father

will your daughter?

ever get to 

weep deep 

in the streets 

and 

get healed 

for real 

like sick 

yeah 

like overnight

right quick?

MAN. I WISH I COULD SEE REALLY GOOD INTO THE FUTURE pt 1

God 

i can't see 

everything 

that you can 

yeah

like me 

getting a man 

and having 

a ring 

on my left hand 

or me  

being able 

to 

fully stand 

like most people do 

but 

even though 

i grieve so 

i still believe 

in 

a kinship 

so far 

so wide 

and 

somebody

always

by my side

WHY NO ( BEAU ) BOW AND ARROW FOR ME?

 MAN

my heart

SCREAMS 

because 

there's 

no love

or 

no wedding ring 

on my hand 

and i 

really don't understand 

why?

THE MESSIAH 

won't 

let a guy 

gimme a try 

before  i die 

of 

lack of love depression 

but Lord

what is the lesson 

yeah 

because 

You Know 

that 

I'm sooo tired of 

guessing 

and  

stressing  

APPARENTLY, NO CANDY HEARTS.,FOR ME?

MAN
for some reason 
my earthly season 
doesn't seem 
to involve 
a romantic dream 
come true 
and 
man 
rather or not 
i sit 
or 
stand 

GOD'S PLAN

makes 

my heart 
boohoo
and 
wanna 
fall apart 
in two 
but I'm dead yet 
but my insides 
and my pride 
are so soaking 
wet 
i cannot 
hide   

HEY, JUST CALL ME BY MY NAME AND NOT BY MY PAIN

calling me 
disable 
is 
like 
calling me 
the N-word 
to my face 
yeah 
such a disgrace 
and just 
leaves 
a bad taste 
in my mouth 
i  know \
maybe 
because 
I'm from 
the south 
or 
i know 
I'm not 
a louse 
or 
a lost cause 
just because 
of 
my cerebral pal-sy
yeah 
just get to 
know me 
and you 
will see 
that 
there's more 
than
me
having to use 
an automatic door 
but 
until 
then 
my misinformed friend 
stop 
bruising 
my heart's belly 
is 
sore 

 

THE BLACK AND BROWN EFFECT

 MAN

when i think about 

my life 

and 

i think 

about 

Christ 

i see 

brown 

all around 

yeah

come sun up 

cone aun down 

yeah

physically 

poetically 

profound 

yeah MAN 

we have 

been apart 

of 

GOD'S HEART 

since 

THE GROUND 

A NEGRO SPIRITUAL POEM FOR 2024

 

Father 

help 

your child 

yeah make me 

smile 

with your style 

yeah 

for miles and miles 

on the inside 

yeah 

no need 

for pride 

on this ride 

yeah 

keep me humble 

yeah 

even if 

Ai stumble 

or 

crumble 

in 

the rumble 

of 

righteousness

yeah Father

please keep me blessed 

even in 

the wind 

of 

stressed 

THE WHEEL BLACK-TOP

 MAN

whenever 

i stand 

i feel 

like God 

really does 

have 

a plan 

for me 

on this land 

and  

my hands 

well 

as y'all can tell 

whenever

i write 

my feet 

sort of 

take  flight 

like 

some civil rights 

movers and grooves 

back in the way 

yeah 

so i guess 

even with 

the stress 

i pay them 

blessed 

with 

cerebral palsy   

SMOKY KITCHEN

Lord, 

listen 

i know 

that you sent me

here 

on a mission

what's up with 

my smoky kitchen? 

i cook 

a.k.a. 

write book 

and still 

get wheel 

shook 

by 

all of my ]

situations ]

so when 

are you coming back 

my friend 

to this 

yeah 

where it all began 

before 

the sin 

yeah 

because 

i 

don't wanna  cry 

or 

lie 

a.k.a. 

pretend 

that 

i not bothered 

by the lack 

ingredients 

in 

my life 

yeah 

and this hurts 

like a butcher's knife 

slice

 

CHOCLATE RAINBOW

 I'm black 

i'm brown 

yeah 

i'm all around 

beautiful

yeah 

from head 

to toe

or 

from the ceiling 

to the flo' 

i was born 

to grow 

green 

or 

to make 

milkshake 

ice cream 

now 

do u know? 

what i mean?

well,

let me tell 

i was born 

to make 

dreams 

come 

true 

through 

you 

Rainbow 

yeah 

through you

colorful 

so yeah 

don't u run 

just kiss the sun 

and drink 

the rain 

yeah 

turn your pain 

into some

 pleasurable weather 

FATHER, PLEASE LISTEN AND GRANT PERMISSON pt. 2

 Father 

what's 

THE ANSWER?

or 

THE /CURE?

for sure 

for cancer 

of 

the body 

mind 

and 

soul 

yeah 

because 

i just 

wanna see 

those i love 

and 

the ones  

who love 

me 

grow 

old 

yeah 

because 

you 

told 

me 

that 

i could 

ask for anything 

that is good 

so i am 

because your word 

is 

strong like wood

so in Jesus' name 

with 

no shame 

amen

FATHER, PLEASE LISTEN AND GRANT PERMISSION pt 1

 Father 

please hear my prayers 

yeah, even if my knees 

can't go anywhere 

towards the floor 

but u don't want to sit 

anymore 

yeah 

please let my feet get wet 

or 

my body 

soar 

through doors 

not known to man 

but you can 

still will 

my hand 

but also 

please help me

to grow

and 

stand 

on 

 a land 

that moves 

because 

of 

your  command 

amen 

in Jesus name 

BLACK WORLD

 the world 
labeled us 
as dark 
but trust 
will have 

some beautiful 

sparks

 and

some joyous 

laughs 
on God's behalf 
yeah 
and despite 
our past 
we are 
a blast 
and 
we are 
very bright 
like light 
to an eyesight 
yeah our brains
should be 
framed 
and 
put 
in another lane 
yeah
no game 
no shame 
just proof 
and truth 
that we 
belong 
here 
yeah 
and sitting 
strong 
on  the world 
my dear 
black boys 
black girls