SINGLE SPACE

 whenever it gets dark 

my heart 

gets lonely 

i wish someone would hold me 

but i sleep alone 

yeah and that feels so wrong 

but at least my writing is strong 

and long enough 

to write a rough draft 

to make you all laugh 

at my pain 

and at my shame  

but who's to blame?

at my no-name change 

yes i feel strange 

being single 

because my heart...

so wants to mingle 

yeah this tingle 

is torching me 

but no cares to see 

my availability 

PAPER CUTS

 pages and pages 

of my emotions 

almost drown me like an ocean 

but trust me  

poetry  

is like lotion 

to my inner skin 

yeah it soothes me like a friend

over and over again 

yeah no need to pretend 

when 

I'm hurting 

and being self-serving 

to whatever I'm going through 

and choose to share it with you know who 

yeah I bare to blue 

and the green '

and the in-between

yeah I come clean 

while still looking like a queen  

in the meantime 

REAL MOVIE LOVE

 man, 

i'm still waiting to be kissed

under the mistletoe 

and to dance real slow 

on the flo ' 

yeah don't let go 

and love me so much 

yeah please let me feel your touch 

like a crouch 

to a broken leg 

yeah love me

like men love Meg Ryan 

whenever she is crying 

or close to dying 

yeah I'm not lying 

i wanna be like that "it girl"

in the movies 

that all guys...

 can't keep up their eyes...

off of

yeah, I yearn...

for a turn...

real movie love 

CROSSING GUARD

 MAN, 

whenever i see someone

walk into a room 

or play a tune 

i say...

why can't that be me?

today 

yeah in someway 

my sky is gray 

and my heart 

is dark 

yeah because

i am not 

an active part 

of the crossing guard 

Crescendo

 man, I cry 

'cause my soul can't lie 

about my hurtful 

yeah even if it tried 

my pride...

goes out the window 

and my feelings...

crescendo

yeah my cerebral

loves to let people know 

just how painful 

my palsy can be

yeah it's like a raging sea

to a boat 

yeah, no hope \

without a rope 

bur I cope 

as I soak 

in water

yeah so father

I don't wanna be bother 

but guess what?

I am 

damn 

 

UNTIL MY FEET FALL ASLEEP

 man, i wish y'all could understand 

that the ability to walk on this land 

looks so grand to me 

yeah it's literary all I can see 

and all that I hope to be 

doing someday 

yay, I wanna say 

"hey earthly ground "

"let's play around" 

"yeah, step by step"

leap by leap"

"let's walk around"

"until my feet fall asleep" 

 

 

OUTRAGEOUS

 MAN
words were here 
before our tears
words were here 
before our tears 
yeah words were here 
before our gears got to going 
and why? 
because God is 
the word 
so he is all-knowing 
yeah flowing on pages 
and stages 
yeah he is 
outrageous 

Enrich

money 

please stop acting funny 

with me 

yeah please be

in my bank account 

for centries 

yeah even after I'm dead and gone 

money, please live on 

strong 

and proud 

yeah green 

and loud 

yeah even in the clouds 

stand proud man 

yeah even in quicksand 

rule over this land 

like a king or a queen 

yeah spread your wings 

and make things better 

42 OVERVIEW

 okay 

this is my last day 

living this way 

yeah in the grey 

and the blue 

yeah okay 

it has been sun too 

and some fun too 

but tomorrow is new 

so please no sorrow 

in my borrowed day 

of birth 

yes please send worth 

and friends 

to spend quality time 

yes please Father just let be... 

Heavenly happy

on Earth 

yeah in Christ Name 

please bless my frame 

with  no pain 

or no hurtful games 

yes Father just reign 

on this here daughter 

amen 

THE GLORY GLUE DOCUMENTARY

man, i have lived 41 years of Sundays on this land 

yes , because that was God's plan 

so that I can 

write this word 

like a bird 

flies high 

in the sky 

yes by and by 

I try 

and do 

yes I pursue 

the glory glue 

yes which you know who 

I am stuck to 

yes I have a clear view 

and an open ear 

yes I am his dear

daughter 

yes I am worth more

 than a quarter 

MY LIFE: AS A SITCOM

i am a real-life sitcom 

yeah it's funny

how i can't really walk 

or run 

to have fun 

in the sun 

or in the dawn 

single 

wishing I could mingle 

wishing I was kissing 

a neighbor 

but not as a favor 

but as a future 

choice 

yeah I have voice 

but it seems to scream 

noise 

to others 

but I so want a lover

but not just for undercover 

success 

yeah I want to be

publicly best 

MY LIFE :THE STAGE PLAY

 so here i stand

as a human 

yeah trying to figure out 

what life is all about 

yeah my soul shouts 

for answers 

as dancers 

move and groove 

around me 

yeah they look so peaceful 

they look so free v

but why?

can that not be 

my story 

of glory  

from right to left 

breath to breath 

heartbeat to heartbeat 

yeah before God'closes the door 

or puts in a very deep sleep 

MY LIFE: THE MUSICAL

 I cry alone 

like a song on the radio 

yeah my tears love to flow 

fast and slow 

but no one really understands 

what is playing in the middle 

is it a fiddle

and are the lyrics riddles 

set to instrumentals 

but either way 

all I can say

is... 

my eyes are wet 

and my feelings are hurt 

but work work work work work work  

A SUPPORTIVE WIFE

 I woke up 

my heart beating strong 

but I woke up alone 

yeah i sad clone of yesterday i must say 

so my heart is still really grey 

but that's okay, i guess?

yeah since my body got some rest 

but i still would like to be blessed 

with love 

yeah as real as doves 

flying high in the sky

i would love for a guy to give me a try 

before i die 

or cry out with doubt 

like a spout 

filled with real 

water 

yeah i am a lonely daughter 

from Arkansas 

but i long to be a strong 

supportive wife 

in life 

when i am woke 

or provoked 

 

A REAL-LIFE ROMANTIC REALATIONSHIP

 man, in my dreams 

i have a guy 

who makes me scream 

and cry happy tears 

and he calms my fears 

like Christ 

but why can't I have this in real-life?

yeah to be kissed 

and missed 

with some spice 

yeah a.k.a. paradise 

on a pillow 

and sweet talks

in our walks 

on this world 

yeah, I yearn to be....

 somebody's girl-

friend 

but when the time is right 

I will become a wife 

but man, right now

it cuts like a knife 

because there's no romantic-love 

to speak of 

oh well, I guess...

i will go get some more rest 

a.k.a. deep sleep 

and just keep on dreaming 

about a dude 

that sometimes feeds me food 

when the mood is right 

yeah my eyesight works perfectly 

at night 

but man, 

I don't understand 

why I can't see nothing in the morning?

THIS IS MY NEW BOOK. PLEASE GO AND TAKE LOOK.
 

BOY, DO I GRIEVE

 man, i just wanna scream

at my dreams 

for not come true 

yeah i'm so mad 

i'm so sad 

i'm so very blue 

but what's new?

pussycat 

yeah these last few days 

have been like a haze maze 

yeah my cerebral has been crazed 

yeah my mind feels so left behind 

and my heart feels like it doesn't wanna start

anymore 

yeah been in this wheelchair 

is really not fair 

yeah it is such a war 

to get to more 

yeah and acting silly 

is becoming a bore 

but i want friends 

so i pretend 

that i believe 

that i'm gonna win 

but boy, do i grieve 

i want my momma and daddy

 Christ 

i am so confused 

about the recent news

oh yes i have the blues 

because i did not get to choose 

to be this 

so yeah i'm super pissed 

 super sad

i want my momma 

i want my daddy 

AS THE SUN GOES DOWN

 man, as the sun goes down 

my face starts to frown 

yeah i get sad 

i get mad 

i get lonely 

yeah someone please 

hold me 

yeah console like a lover 

and not like brother 

or a mother 

yeah do i have go any further?

yeah the day is going way 

and i want it to day 

because i didn't get to go outside 

and play

 today  

and hey 

that is not okay 

as the sun goes down 

and you realizes...

that no friends....

have been around 

MY PERFECT PIE

 hey 

this girl 

is still waiting 

on her perfect world 

yeah a diamond on left hand 

given to her by her man 

yeah along with his last name

with no shame 

or no games 

but who or what do i blame?

for this single pain 

or this pouring rain 

that exist over my life

yeah so help me Christ 

find paradise 

yeah even if it's...

slice by slice 

HOW THIS WORLD WORKS?

 man being happy is so overrated 

and my feels real deflated 

or grated like a block of cheese 

yeah so Father help me please 

get off my spiritual knees 

and walk around 

yeah because this ground 

is not round 

yeah meaning fair 

yeah no one really seems to care 

about my screams 

or my dreams 

and man does that hurt 

yeah i don't like how this world work? 

ANOTHER ROUND OF BROWN PLEASE

 writing

is my alcohol

yeah whenever my feeling fall

i get drunk 

yeah my trunk slumps   

and i 

try 

to get by 

with a silent cry 

words 

but o how i so want to be 

heard 

through the grape 

vine 

yeah heart soul and mind 

man, people can be 

so blind

and unkind to me 

MIND OVER MATTER

boy, do i hurt 

yeah i feel lower than dirt 

yeah i'm about to go 

berserk 

yeah straight out of control 

yeah my soul 

is running hot 

and cold 

yeah man 

i feel so old 

in this moment 

and young 

at the same time 

yeah even 

my mind 

feels blind 

THIS IS ME: DESPERATELY SEEKING CLARITY

 Father God wet tears 

wet fears 

yeah i really need to hear from 

yeah please Heavenly Papa 

tell your daughter what to do 

yeah i only want to see your view 

yeah and did i mention that i am so lonely too

yeah this is me 

can't see 

what needs to be 

a reality 

in Jesus name

yeah Savior 

can't you see 

i am in pain 

and the blame 

and the shame 

is not a game 

I'M STILL BREATHING FOR NOW

 spend time with me please 

yeah before my time runs out

do I  have to shout 

 or die 

for you to realize why 

i am important to you 

damn 

yeah one day 

i will 

pass away 

yeah some will slam

my casket 

and then you will 

blow a gasket 

as my friend 

i hope 

that you would cry 

and try to cope

but when was the last time 

that i was on your mind 

or that we spent some time

together 

yeah i hate this lonely weather 

or this lonely season 

but at least i'm still breathing for now

MAN, I SO WANT THE BEST

 man, the hardest part of being single 

is that my heart still wants to mingle 

yeah even though no wants to give my body a tingle 

or my soul some sprinkles

yeah i wanna lose control 

and i want to feel whole 

yeah like a woman should 

yeah i so wanna feel real... 

good with someone 

yeah i wanna feel the sun 

on my face 

and taste love  in my mouth 

yeah i wanna go north, south, 

east and west 

with the best 

A MUCH HAPPIER VIEW

 girl, i can't write to u 

anymore 

and sadly u can't walk 

through my door

and so my heart is sore 

yeah there is a war 

going on strong 

in me 

yeah the fire 

is not friendly 

at all 

yeah i so wanna fall 

or go AWOL 

but God called 

me 

to be 

alive 

and not to take

a break

or a dive 

while i'm a child 

in this wild world 

and so your girl 

writes until she sees 

the dark in her heart 

finds the bright light 

in her mind 

from missing you

to a much happier view 

SLEEP WITH NO PEEPS

 God i realize 

that my temperature

is steady rising 

yeah i keep on

fantasizing 

about 

having sexual shout 

with people who 

don't want me 

in that way

but o how i wanna 

play 

and want someone 

who wants to stay

but Father i know that it's not okay

for me lust 

yeah i am only supposed to trust 

in You when i'm lonely 

and nothing more 

yeah behind close door 

i should just sleep 

with no peeps 

MY WATERED DOWN DREAMS

 damn, do i have to put a romantic kiss

on my bucket list  

just to get one 

and do i have to write 

i wanna be able to...

walk and run 

just for fun 

until God's will is done 

for me 

yeah in this earth society 

where i see a variety

of better or worse 

but i so thirst

for a burst 

of love 

and not war

yeah my heart is sore 

but i yearn for more

burn 

yeah more fire 

yeah this daughter 

wants to use her water 

to make things grow 

and flow 

peacefully

yeah like an amazon tree 

shielding me from the sun 

yeah kingdom come 

down 

to the ground 

and wash away...

my loneliness today  

    

A CHILD, HOW PROFOUND

 man, i so want to give birth 

to something with worth 

yeah lady first 

a queen i mean 

in the making 

that isn't taking...

anything sh*r 

yeah a woman...

who won't quit 

yeah even when things get stuff 

she will become rough 

if need be 

yeah that's the daughter...

i want to come out of me 

eventually 

yeah i want to see 

a female tree 

grow and know 

that i loved her so 

yeah now and before...

i go 

where there is a glow 

and a flow of faith 

that taste milk and honey 

yeah i'm not being funny 

i want produce 

more than money 

yeah i want a baby 

as crazy as that might...

sound 

i believe that i was put on...

 this ground 

to have a belly...

 that is round 

yeah a child 

how profound

STAY WOKE

 sleep makes me weak 

sleep makes me sad 

sleep makes me yearn 

for things that i once had 

yeah which is so bad 

as i toss and turn

man, will my heart ever learn?

or will it always burn?

MORE THAN READY

man, i can't seem to get my dreams 

off my mind 

yeah i been living 41 years 

but i still feel real...

left behind 

man, i don't understand...

why life is so unkind 

and love is so bind to me 

yeah oh how yearn...

to have a turn 

at a burning burn 

yes Father please give me a push 

or a change to dance...

on water like Fred Astaire 

yeah moving without a care in the world 

yeah a real dream-girl 

with pearls of wisdom 

in her head 

and finally my husband in our bed 

and our kid in my belly 

yeah i'm more than ready 

MY UNHAPPY HEART

 man, anger 

is no stranger 

to my daily life 

but so help me Christ 

i so want to stop...

being so mad and sad 

about what i have had 

and want back 

or the fact that...

i want more 

yeah such a tug a war

is going on inside of me 

but i want to let go

to be set free 

yeah i'm searching 

for the key 

of my unhappy heart 

yeah to start over 

                    

YOUR REAL SIDE-PIECE

man, i can't pursue you

no, that's not what a girl is supposed to do

so i guess...

i must not stress 

and be true 

to you 

finding me 

with your lock and key 

yeah your property

your wife 

your life 

yeah the spice 

on your rib 

that is sensitive

and tender 

and something to remember    

WORDS ARE MY BOSS

 man, when i write 

i feel real

normal 

human

able

and stable 

yeah like a maple tree 

just free 

to be 

me 

or more 

yeah i can soar 

through doors 

if i choose 

or sing the blues 

or spread the good news 

of God 

yeah his hard work 

has paid off 

yeah because...

my soul is not loss 

yeah because...

words are my boss 

BRAIN-FOG

 my desire to walk

is hovering over me like a hawk 

or a crow 

but only God know....

if it will be so 

yeah if i will... 

stay still 

or get up and go

fast or slow 

yeah like the flow of water 

God's knows his daughter 

 yeah because he created me 

like the sea 

yeah with complexity 

and flexibility

beyond my comprehension  

but Father if i can add an extension 

please make this hun...

  walk and run 

into the sun 

Quenched Thirst

 i have been in love twice 

but i have yet to see paradise 

yeah i have yet to become...

 someone's wife 

or someone's mother 

yeah cover to cover 

i yearn to be

 someone's lover 

yeah someone's ...

happily ever after chapter 

and verse 

yeah someone's...

quenched thirst 

R.E.M. P.M.

 man, i swear i have so many nightmares 

yeah my sleep don't play fair 

yeah no it doesn't care 

that my heart beats fast 

against an hourglass 

that i can't see 

yeah Father please help me

fully wake up 

and fill my morning cup 

with good luck 

yeah that will last 

before i pass 

away in my sleep 

yeah the dark 

and deep 

makes me weak 

so yes Lord, 

please keep

me 

in your reach  

TIMEZONE

all i have is time on my mind 

yeah time wasted 

and time worked 

yeah in the dirt 

of hurt 

and harvest 

yeah mud 

and floods 

until i see 

rose buds 

growing out of me 

continuously

yeah flowers are not free 

yeah says the powers the be 

the seed 

that all us need 

grow 

strong, tall, and beautiful   

The Flows of The Father and His Daughter

 man, my heart is heavy 

bu my spirit is ready

to soar into the war

of the unsure 

yeah because of God's love 

circling me like dove 

or catching me like a glove

when my soul rolls 

out of control 

yeah but only heaven really knows 

the flows of the father and his daughter 

yeah like rivers and waters 

banks and harbors 

together we can 

go farther than man's plan 

on this land 

of quicksand 

and quarantine

yeah this world 

is mean and clean 

at the same time 

yeah like moonshine and wine 

yeah blind and kind 

innocent and committing a crime    

behind bars 

yeah while looking up at the stars 

ON A RIDE TO RUNNING

man one day i will walk into a room 

yeah i don't know how soon 

but one day my feet will make a beautiful beat 

on some concrete or linoleum floor  

yeah for sure i will soar 

from my core 

like an eagle 

yeah i can

just picture me 

trying to be regale  

for people 

to see 

but on the inside 

my soul 

will be on a ride 

to running 

A SMOKIN' HOT GUN

i 

want

a

guy 

who doesn't care...

if i ever walk or run somewhere 

yeah and loves the feel of my lips 

and the taste of my tongue 

yeah someone who sees me

as a smokin' hot gun 

of a woman  

yeah that would be

 truly 

something good 

yeah to be understand 

under my hood 

and into my heart 

man, what a perfect start?

yeah to be able to...

let down my guard 

with a guy 

who makes me feel high 

and like i can fly...

if i just try

yeah it makes me wanna cry 

just thinkin' about it

yeah because...

i don't wanna die 

without ever experiencing...

 real romantic love  

A GROOM +ME

man, i want a groom 

who will make room 

for me

in heart 

start to finish 

yeah with blemishes 

and all 

but feels called to me 

by the heavenly's 

yes please 

get on your knees  

and propose 

yes please put a ring on hand 

and not in my nose 

and as my face glows

you know 

that i love you so much 

yeah your gentle touch 

give me such a rush

that i can trust 

yeah us 

is definitely a plus 

WILL YOU MARRY ME?(PART 2)

man, i want a guy 

who isn't ashamed to cry 

and who isn't afraid to ask God why?

do good or young die? 

and when God replies...

he doesn't run 

no, he will...

just sit still... 

and listen like a good little son 

yeah until the kingdom comes for him 

yeah  he will swim 

even in the dim

or walk on water 

towards the father 

and then to me 

yeah man will you be...

mine for a lifetime 

MY WEDDING WILL BE LIKE THIS ...

yeah so my wedding will be like this...

well it will end with a very passionate kiss 

yeah because of the love that we found in our dating bliss 

yeah and both him and i...

will start to cry 

because of our vows 

yeah some written as a child 

but now wow...

front and center 

as an adult 

yeah this is what i want 

and this what i deserve 

but does he have nerve?

to love me 

yeah despite my disability 

or will he flee?

yeah leaving no lock or key 

or forwarding address for me to be...

Mrs. Whoever 

no, he would never 

yeah because we go so

good together 

and after all...

it is Fall 

and this is our wedding day 

hooray!!! 

IN MY SLICE OF LIFE

Savior where did that storm come from?

You know i can't  run away from the hot sun 

so please cool my life off Boss

yes Lord please toss this turmoil in the oil 

and let it burn up 

yeah lesson learned 

yes Father, please turn the page of this chapter 

and write some laughter 

yeah some happy ever after 

or some heavenly scent in my air vent

yeah no accident 

i need You

yeah i need to see You in my earthly view 

yeah please no more burnt dinners

or charred lunches 

yeah please send my some continued blessings 

in bunches 

from now on 

yes Christ please help me to be strong 

in my slice of life 

MY KINGDOM VISION

good morning my king 

and everything that comes with you 

so what are we gonna do today?

yeah you lead the way 

yeah even in the play 

i will stay 

by your side 

yeah like a loving bride 

should 

so yeah again i say 

good morning  man 

take my hand 

and lead me to the promise land 

yeah which is a good marriage 

and a baby carriage 

one day  

HOUR 25

good morning new life 

yeah good morning paradise 

my breath is just a slice 

but i'll take it 

in 

yeah hello wind 

hello friend 

hello air

thanks not being fair 

and taking care of my share 

of oxygen 

yeah when you could've taken it away last night 

but instead 

my head

saw the light this morning 

KISS ME RIGHT

kiss me 

because it's Friday 

kiss me 

because u love me 

yeah let's be close 

and toast and coast 

to the most highest plane 

yeah grab my frame 

and change my last name 

to yours 

yeah let's soar 

yeah no doors 

or floors 

nah, just more 

core emotions 

in store 

yeah no war 

just love 

yeah doves 

and diamonds 

yeah internally 

speaking  

yeah trust 

us 

kissing 

will deepen our love 

one day 

in some way 

but until then 

kiss me right tonight 

my friend 

PHONE-TREE

please phone ring 

yeah please show me that i mean something 

to you 

yeah let your vocal come through 

and say some new 

and true 

to make my blue 

change to a strange 

bright color 

yeah make me lover 

but no more cover 

no love me openly 

yeah where others can see

us as a healthy tree 

yeah growing and blowing 

in the wind 

yeah no sin 

or rotten spots 

yeah i love is hot 

or warm like corn 

yeah even in a storm 

we will still...

perform 

PARIS FRANCE

i want to go to Paris France 

yeah to dance in the organ of my name  

yeah no pain or shame can blame 

me 

for wasting

to see 

beauty 

all around 

earthly grounds 

yeah how profound

that a clown 

can touchdown 

on a land 

made for man 

but made by God 

Himself 

yeah with His Breath

He made and left 

life and Christ 

all in one 

yeah Grey Po-upon   

Me: IN THE FLESH

sadly,i have lusted 

more than i have loved 

yeah more black crows 

i suppose 

than white doves 

yeah my thoughts 

seem to get caught 

up or down 

in a merry-go-round 

of sounds of sins 

Daddy, when will  this ride

stay still or end?

ME: PHYSICALLY

if i could walk 

where would i go?

i don't know 

but i would walk slow 

to savor the moment 

of God's favor

 in my future 

yeah step by step 

breath by breath 

by myself 

yeah normal 

like caramel

on a ice cream sundae 

yeah what a fun day 

that would be for me

yeah to see my dream 

become a reality 

yeah no lock or key 

just free 

physically  

CASTING OUT THE SHAME

Savior
take these sins
in me
out
yeah and please give me another route
yeah one that is narrow
but big enough for a sparrow
to walk alongside her guide 
yeah her morning star
or her bright moon
yes  Lord what a beautiful tune
or a sweet cocoon
to be wrapped in
yeah no more sin
or a reason to pretend
yes Father, i can feel your still...
but strong wind
on my inner-skin
yeah it feels like kin
or HELLO FRIEND
yeah this i say
and this i pray
in Jesus Name 

HALF EARTH, HALF HEAVEN

girl, i wish i could bring you back into my sight
yeah for just one night
yeah so i can sleep right
in the dark
yeah because you broke my heart
when you left with your breath
yeah and now i don't feel like my self
because death is a funny thing
you get your wings
the choir sings
but it also brings...
a deadly sting
to your kin
and your friend
yeah it feels like a real sin
when you did nothing wrong
but just moved on
to a stronger power
with nothing but flowers
yeah you are being showed
by the savior, girl
but you are not in this world
and so my soul swirls
and then curls up into a ball
yeah until i fall...
asleep
weak
and not whole
oh Christ...
please take control 

JUST OPEN YOUR EYES

man, flirting 

hurts 

yeah because...

flirting doesn't work 

yeah i wan't to be...

free

to love 

to be hugged

to kiss 

to be missed 

yeah in a climate 

yeah when the world is pissed 

i wan't to exist 

in a relationship 

that is romantic 

and i have no need to panic 

yeah even if,,,

all of my wishes are not granted 

i can stand it 

yeah being with....

a man...

with a plan 

yeah where my hand 

fits 

in his 

like a light switch 

on a wall 

yeah i see it all

when it's said and done 

brighten like the sun 

A RESTLESS ROMANCE

lonely nights
are not right
but they are i see in my sight
and ooo how that hurts
yeah i feel like real dirt
but i need a seed
to feed on
yeah to make me strong
yeah because my heart has been breaking
for so long
yeah like a sad song
on the radio
playing really slow
yeah i feel like plant
that just won't grow

THIS REAL LONG LESSON?

why
want a guy
give me a try
before i die
my disability
yeah that stays with me
constantly
yeah cerebral palsy
is it's name
and causing me social shame
is it's game
yeah jokes
and pain
all rolled into one
yeah it thinks

that it is fun
that i can't run 

or walk 

like normal 

and my skin 

is caramel

so it's hard to tell 

rather or not 

i'm doing 

yeah this body 

is like my own...

personal jail-cell

or hell 

with no smell 

just hurt 

dirt 

and workmanship   

yeah trying not to slip

into a depression 

yeah while learning...

this real long lesson  

REAL WORLDLY WISDOM

proverbs
are God's words to the people who hear with an inner ear yeah clear like a tear or a ice cold beer's soul yeah Christ is the mold for our life yeah he is... paradise on Earth yeah he is first before our birth wow, what a thirst that's about to burst out of my brain yeah, such much hunger pains i feel but at least... i am real and i am worthy yeah no hurry or worry just wonder and thunder under the sun yeah until Jesus comes... back yeah truth And facts

BIGGER THAN SIN

sins are not our friends
yeah like the wind is kin to clouds
yeah sometimes it whistles loud
"i love you"
"come on through"
"and breath in what is new"
yeah it's true
God's view
of you
is nice and clear
with no fear
of the future
yeah because...
all is known
before anything is blown
or grown
in a field
yeah for real
all is still
in the night
but all is right
in the moonlight
yeah God's sight
is bright
and mighty
like a duck
yeah there's no need
for luck
yeah when you have a friend
much bigger than sin
in the wind

WRITING IN THE SAND

good morning paper
good morning pen
good morning sun
good morning wind
now where do we begin?
Father forgive me for my sins
and still let your will fill me up
with your lovely cup of Joe
yeah i will sip it slow
even after i blow
my breath
to the left
of your right-hand
yes please work your plan
yeah your writing in the sand
in this human right here
yes lord, please make your words clear
for your sake
yeah before my heart breaks
in Jesus Name
Amen

GIMME ME LIBERTY

God when will i....
stop wanting to be...
a we
yeah my love key is..
free
so take it
but don't break it
yeah my heart is...
apart of a beautiful start
yeah so my guard is down
but my mind is profound
so please man come around
or please God take my breath
yeah if i have to live life
by myself

WALKING IN WONDER

i just wanna wake
and take
a breath
and walk by myself
yeah before my death
comes
i just wanna run
like a track star
yeah who needs a car?
to go far
when you have feet
and the ability to reach
the concrete
yeah beat by beat
how sweet?
would that sound?
to touch the ground
yeah while it's round
and my mind is still profound
yeah to walk up and down
a street
may make me look weak
or like clown
but look deeper
like the reaper
and realize
that i am walking
in wounder
and i am not going under

100% WOKE

lord, i swear
this chair
makes me wanna pull out my hair
yeah it's not fair
that i can walk in my dreams
but in real life
it hurts like a knife
because i can't
well, at least not right now
yeah my body is like child
at 41
yeah i can't walk by myself
nor can i run
to have fun
in the sun
yeah until dark
and my heart can't take it
so lord, just break it
yeah just break my desire
to be on fire

Heaven Vs Earth

life
death
breath
nothing
ain't that something?
wet
dry
high
low
no blood flow
or facial glow
yeah it could get racial
yeah it could get real
but can we feel?
human
but get dealt with?
like an animal
or a cannibal
but God's will
is still
to love
like doves
that don't cry
with people who don't lie
yeah life with Christ
is do not try
yeah to live
and not die

God vs Us

God made us all
to rise and not fall
when he calls
us to trust
in his word
and his love
when we see doves crying
and people dying for no reason
other than it's human hunting season
i guess
but we are still suppose to bless
each other in the mess of stress
confusion
yeah God is using
our bruise
for his choosing
yeah no excusing
yeah he's watching
the clocking
but he already knows
who he has chose
to heal the earth
yeah not to make it worse

A COMPLETE PUZZLE

i have black brothers
i have black cousins
i have nephews
that mean something to me
so please let them be
free
and breathing
yeah able to achieve their american dreams
yeah with no bloody screams
just a life
with Christ
or paradise
on earth
yeah they all have worth
because of their birth
but the world is getting worse
because of some white peoples's racial thirst
that must stop
yeah it's not
just cops
with bad crops
no, it's anyone who feeds
on weeds
or greed
or speed
but what we need
is each other
to go farther
and we must not forget...
our daughters
our sisters
and our nieces
yeah all our little pieces
that make us
a complete puzzle

NO MRS.

so here i sit
on a lit planet
now, granted i am blessed
but i am always stressed
yeah because
there's no romantic love
to speak of
yeah no kisses
no hugs
no back rubs
or hand holding
yeah no one is proposing
anything
yeah not even a porch-awing
yeah i so desire...
a king and a kid
yeah before i bid this world adieu

LET ME IN FRIEND

man, often times
people think that my mind
is mentally challenged
because my body is physically
but no i'm not slow like a turtle
now, it's true
i do have hurtles
but i also have a heart
yeah that yearns to be a part
of a love
or a glove to group
that's roots comes from God
and nowhere else
yeah the maker of breath
life
and paradise
yeah birth
earth
and first
unrehearsed
yeah with a burst
of thirst
for more
yeah my soul roars
at the door

NORMAL THOUGHTS

man, wanting to walk
and to fly like a hawk
is a normal thought
for me

and wanting to marry guy
that makes me "happy cry"
is a normal thought
for me

yeah can't you see?
despite my disability
i am normal
just like you

yeah i have hopes and dreams
that scream at me too

so what's a girl to do?
when the sky is blue
and the night is dark
she shares her heart
yeah because that part of her
is very normal

A SEASON OF BREATHING

i write for days
but my thoughts still make me feel like i'm living in a maze
man, this phase is making me crazy
but not lazy
yeah because like i said
poetry runs in my head
like a hamster on its' wheel
yeah i can't stay
yeah i must deal
with the way i feel
yeah which lovely
ugly
lonely
phony
disable
strong like clark gable
or clark kent
yeah heaven sent
no accident
yeah here for a reason
and a season of breathing
out loud

LONG ISLAND

life is a long island
yeah filled with sinners
and winners
eating steak
and chicken dinners
with no breaks
but plenty of outtakes
yeah for goodness sake
but i live it
yeah i give it my best shot
yeah rather the weather is...
cold or hot
my spirit...
does not stop
yeah it moves like clockwork
even if it hurts like dirt
to an open womb
yeah my tone...
always assumes
the motion of a balloon

MAN, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER

poetry
let's be more than friends
yeah, let's sin
and win together
yeah we should never separate
or spew hate
on our dates
yeah ice cream and cake
sounds really great
on your plate
but wait...
let's get married first
yeah says our vows
and sing our verse
unrehearsed
yeah poetry
you quench my thirst

POETRY PAIN

man, i'm so romantic in my mind
but people keep leaving me behind
so i guess that why they say...
"love is blind"
yeah because obviously...
they don't see me
lonely...
yeah sitting by the telephony
hoping to hear a hommie -lover-friend
on the end
yes Father when?
can i stop the pretend?
of sin
in my brain
yes Lord
it's driving me insane
yeah i hate the weight...
of this poetry pain

DAMN THIS HUMAN LOVE THING!

even if i was blind
i could still see you in my mind
yeah because i think about you all of the time
yeah because my mental clock still works
so yeah my heart still hurts
so will you dig me out the dirt?
or kill me like God did the fig tree?
yeah being human can bring ruin
or humility
yeah Lord help me please
with the bees
or butterflies
in my stomach
yeah before i vomit
over this war of love

WE WERE MORE THAN FRIENDS

man, i'm tryin' to shake you like milk
but your body feels like silk
so lets dunk our trunks in our thoughts
and get caught up in a love affair so rare
but who cared?
lets go there
yeah no more splittin' hairs
or makin' comparisons
yeah and jus' remember when....
we were more than friends

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE

hey you know who you are
yeah you got me searching for a bar
maybe my feelings went to far
but you looked like a star
and so i reached for you
but you didn't follow through
so what's a girl to do?
but feel blue
because you don't love me back like that
and even though that feels wack
that is a fact
so i am single
but i still have a tingle
but sadly know one wants to mingle with me

EARTHLY LIVING

Hell, why do i feel like i know you so well?
yeah i know you by your smell
so don't try to tell me any lies
yeah i would reorganize
your red eyes
from anywhere
yeah because there's no love
or good there
yeah just violence
and silence
pain and shame
yeah with some very hard rain
yeah tears and fears
for years to come
yeah and so i run
to the son/sun
yeah with no guns
just fun

UNION STATION

heaven is not black
heaven is not white
heaven is not dark
heaven is the light
on the flight
to the Almighty
alright y
so we must all get along
yeah we must all become strong
before we are all gone
because separation is wrong
yeah like the coron
yeah such a sad song
playin' on america's soil
yeah it really makes my blood boil
like water
yeah so help us father
in heaven
in the eleventh hour
yeah please shower us
with more love and trust
yeah, because look at us
we need it

EX-FACTOR

man, i wish
that people knew that i exist
yeah to feel a kiss would give me bliss
and to feel a hug...
would make me feel really loved
yeah like a dove in a hand
but please understand
i wan't God's plan
that has already been written in the sand
for me
but i do yearn to be seen
yeah i wanna be somebody dream
come true
yeah i'm so tired of being blue
yeah i yearn for a new color
or lover
in my soul

GOOD MORNING KISS

good morning my love
yeah good morning my dove on Earth
i so praise God for your birth
and the worth that he put in you
yeah foot by foot
inch by inch
you are essential
yeah so kiss me
yeah don't miss my lips
yeah every single drip
i wanna feel
for real
yeah please don't be still
use your will
to make me tingle
in this daybreak
yeah take my breath away
today
man

GOODNIGHT KISS

oh how i yearn
at a turn at a goodnight
yeah that goes and flows like this:
a lot of lip and tongue
yeah the kind of kiss that will make me walk and run
like never have before
yeah i yearn for more love
not war
yeah i wanna feel the kiss in my core
yeah i wanna soar
without my feet ever leaving the floor
yeah i just want my inside to that ride
that no one can see but me and my company
yeah very intimate and time well spent
yeah heaven sent
but earthly bound
yeah i yearn to get lost and found

FOLLOW TOMORROW...

man, i see love everywhere i go
so that mean my dreams are getting close
to toast
yeah i yearn for my turn at the most
beautiful day
to ever come my way
yeah no more gray skies
or sad blue tears coming from my eyes
surprise
i am in a relationship
and a ring was slipped on my hand
so yeah wedding plans will follow tomorrow

HURTS & LAUGHS

i wanna love
romantically speaking
yeah where my insight is deepened
and my soul is weeping with joy
oh boy
no i can't be coy
i must share my ploy
with y'all
yes i yearn for a call
that will turn into a date
that can't wait
to become a relationship
yeah no hit and run
i long for some
forever fun
in the sun
and in the dark
yeah i long to share my heart
and all of the parts of my life
that a wife
has up for grabs
yeah my hurts and laughs

TO SPAZ NO MORE

devil
unloose my body
yeah stop treating it so naughty
yeah hurting it like fo' real
yeah i want some pain pills
but i truly believe in the one
who heals
yeah no thrills
it just is
what it is
to spaz no more

SOUL STRONG

everybody wants to talk
but no one wants to a mile in my shoes
yeah no one wants to dance the blues
but even i didn't choose
this life
no, Christ did for me
and now here i be...
writing exciting things down
yeah flapping my wings of dreams around
yeah despite being clown
by a crowd that speaks loud
about my weakness
but i want be in a rut for long
yeah because God made my soul strong

AMONG THE BILLIONS

so i made it to another week
yeah even though i feel a little weak
God didn't let me sleep deep
no death didn't creep
in on me
but i do feel lonely
yeah like something is missing
i wish i was kissing
somebody
yeah nothing naughty
yeah just kissing
openly
but not for others to just see
no, but for them to be...
inspired
to love someone back
yeah no slack
no lack
just no that
it is real
so why be still?
yeah if you can feel
among the billions

JESUS JELLY

if i say that i am a christian
would you sit down and listen?
or would you treat me like clown on a little bike
and laugh at me on sight
because what i said...
didn't make any sense to your head
yeah and you think i have been misled
all of this time
yeah you think being a christian...
is a crime
a lie
a wack try
at a brainwashing
non-stopping
back-bitten
but yet a very exciting ride
and look on the outside
yeah lets hang glide
to a gospel
that may or may not...
be true
but see...
you were once new like me
yeah a bonsai tree
in your mom's belly
yeah but where did this kiss of Jesus Jelly come from?

WARM CANDLE WAX

man, today i really wanna hear from God
yeah, i'm listenin' really hard
yeah my guard is down
and no one is around
yeah so God has the ground
and the floor
yeah i jus' yearn to learn
more
to soar
out of this war
called earth
yeah my birth
brought on a thirst
and a hunger of wonder
that jus' won't go away today
yeah no wordplay
jus' the truth
and proof
that in fact
there is more
behind these revolving doors
called life
yeah please help Christ
to hear you clearly
yeah so i can be nearly
through
with your view