MY 11-18 STING

Now don't u know

i firt 

like a scorpio

but also

 i hurt 

 like one too

yesh, whst's a girl 

to do

besides

cryin' on the side

feelin' sad  and blue 

But screw it 

as sit 

with this sh*t

tryin' 

not to quit 

on life

until i see 

the real paradise 

in front 

of me 

46 LOLLIPOPS

 ooo

it makes me

so sick 

that at the age 

of 46

i can't even get 

a love lick 

so yeah 

i'm ticked 

off

yeah 

i feel 

so loss

to neva been 

really tossed

in the bed 

yeah 

these are 

things 

that swing 

in my head 

instead 

of 

prayers 

sometimes 

but 

dear lord 

am i 

out of my mind

MY DEEP TISSSUE ISSUE

MAN

i hate being single

Yeah, not getting

 a hug,

 a back rug

a tickle  or a tingle  

from the one

you dream 

to have fun 

with 

is 

pure torture 

sh*t

BUT GOD SAY 

i can't quit 

or 

turn off 

the switch 

to my heartbeat 

But I still yearn 

for something 

sweet 

and 

to hear 

the sounds 

of 

little feet 

yeah Father

Will your daughter 

ever feel

 really complete

INSANELY SORE (MY CEREBRAL PALSY P.U.S.H. BACK)

MAN 

i wish 

i could

see you

no more

yeah

i wish 

i could 

stop fighing 

this war

or

just say

goodbye 

to you

through and through 

from my core 

yeah, 

That's for sure 

yeah because

Cerebral,

my love 

my brain 

is 

insanely sore 

THE MARY MAGDELENE IN ME

 Woman

why are you weepin'

Lord, 

'cause i haven't been sleepin'

but 

you know 

the reason 

for

this season 

Yeah, so please

stop teasin' 

and let 

the breeze in 

yay, 

to blow

my years 

of tears 

away 

yeah 

i'm so tired 

of being 

hardwired strong 

for so long 

blue and gray 

inspired by my life and John 20

MY NIGHTLT UNSIGHTLY PRAYER

i need to stand 

i need to take somebody's hand 

but not man's 

but God's 

yeah God

Please lead me

to the truth 

or point me 

to Heaven's roof 

as proof 

of 

your everlasting 

love 

or 

your eternal frame 

in Jesus name  

MY QUEST FOR ANSWERS

GOD 

why 

is life

and death

on the same planet 

yeah even though 

as you know

i don't take nothin' 

or no one 

under the sun 

for granted 

BUT MAN

i don't understand 

the sugar and the spice 

and not so nice

to us 

on this land

But I still trust 

BUT BOTH 

life and death  

are serious 

situations 

for every single 

creation 

on this nation

yeah

so can't change stations