D.A.M.N. (DON'T ASK MY NEIGHBOR

Man

today i learned 

that your stomach

can really burn 

and turn 

like the world 

yeah when i heard 

those words 

spoke 

my heart broke 

and my throat 

chocked 

because 

i loved 

the person 

i thought of 

like a dove 

only to find 

out 

they are not 

so kind 

yeah 

i was blind 

and now wow 

my mind 

is 

blown 

yeah 

i feel real 

wrong 

thinking they were...

a clone 

of Christ 

or 

a picture of paradise 

MOR-TAL-I-TY

so God, give me a breath
to be myself 
yeah 
until 
all is still  
and there's...
no more will
yeah  my body 
is cold 
but my soul 
is warm 
yeah 
away from harm 
and from all of...
these sit-u-a-tion storms 
that i have 
had to perform 
like it was
 the norm  
and i wasn't sad 
at all 
but my Heavenly Dad 
said 
"Duty Calls"

in me 

BUT WHAT IS TODAY ... REALLY TRYINA SAY ?

MAN

today is Sunday

but it feels like Monday 

but what does that mean?

man

I'm so in-between 

i wanna screen 

but i still dream 

of 

any tomorrow 

that comes  my way 

and 

I'm very thankful 

for today 

yeah 

the sunshine 

the thoughts in my mind 

and 

the fine line 

that is kind of...

blue and gray   

NO CALENDAR IN SIGHT

 what day is this?

it doesn't matter 

i still exist 

and the world 

didn't shatter 

so yeah 

I'm in the latter 

of the chatter 

or 

the noise 

and i still 

can hear 

the will of God's voice 

and choice 

to have me be 

so poetically free 

yeah 

key to key 

pain to brain 

yeah 

when i write

i get excited 

but 

i feel wheel insane 

BEHIND THE SCENES

behind the scenes 

i

 interally cry

 and screem 

because 

i haven't 

seen 

many of dreams 

come true 

yeah  like 

layin' 

next to 

someone who 

has made me 

their boo 

longterm 

yeah 

gimme that 

heartburn 

lesson learned 

for a lifetime 

with a glass of wine 

and some sunshine 

walking blind 

with our cute 

and kind 

kids 

yrah 

i 

can't die 

until...

GOD'S WILL

replies 

and 

i can say 

all the way 

"LOOK WHAT GOD DID"

NO COSTTUME JEWELRY PLEASE

man, i think a lot 

about my spot 

in this world 

yeah, i wish i was...

a diamond 

but i need...

some more...

 refining

yeah 

some nickel and diming

just to be

a peal 

or 

a physically able 

girl 

with a...

sexy swirl

in my opinion 

but God 

gave me 

dominion   

THE WRITING IS ON THE WALL BECAUSE I CAN NO LONGER CALL

so sadly 

i have to write 

to my dad 

that i  had 

 yeah the one 

who really put me through 

and made me mad 

For many years 

but yet and still 

God's will

or 

my dad's death 

or 

lack of breath 

brings tears 

to my eyes 

but no surprise

yeah because 

even with 

his loveless sh*t 

it is 

very clear 

that 

it was 

he 

that brought me 

here 

with 

my dear 

momma 

yeah 

way before 

all of 

drama