2 A.M.

i hear thunder and lightening
it's kinda exciting
but i wanna go back to sleep
yeah i wanna go deep
so i can reach for God
in my dreams
yeah if i start to scream
yeah i mean, i want my daddy
that had me
on his mind
a longtime ago
yeah my blood-flow
he so knows
all of my grows
and woes
but i still pose
this question
why such an early lesson?
yeah 2 a.m.
the sky is still dim
and i can't take a midnight swim
because it's to cold
and i'm disable
physically
so Father please help me understand
your insomnia plan
so i can...
go back to sleep
yeah "this sheep" can't count itself

THE REST OF MY YEARS

so as i sit here in this chair
i think about how life isn't fair
but i still care
and will to make things better
yeah in this crazy weather
i will never give up
or just leave it up to luck
no because the Lord knows just where to go
yeah and how to make me grow
beautiful ans patient
yeah wise and ancient
or really old
and more precious than gold
yeah, and that really warms my soul
yeah i feel whole
not being in control
of everything
this is happening
here
yeah even in my tears
of frustration and fears
I trust God with the rest of my years

NOT SO FREAKY FRIDAY

my flesh is so much more than sex
my flesh is so much more than my feelings
dealing with a disability
that is not my fault
yeah my cerebral got caught
in a bag of tricks and treats
yeah some pretty sweet meat
that will bleed for real
if you cut deep
yeah i can't sleep
thinking about that
but i can't take my life back
because Christ picked up my slack
yeah before i was even born
yeah he was fully warm
and ready to perform on the cross
yeah he did it to save the lost
sheep
yeah the weak
yeah the so called freak
that wasn't so neat
and clean
but yet he saw a queen
on a very mean and scary Friday
i must say

OVERSHADOWING

man, sometimes i sob
because i feel like i have robbed
yeah robbed of my rights
and God's light
but guess what?
that's just my natural eyesight
playing a sick joke on me
yeah because God is love
and sees supernaturally better
so no kind of weather
can block his view
of me and you
but to boohoo is fine
yeah get it off your mind
and out of your heart
yeah so doubt cam depart
and your guard
can soften
more often
yeah because once a coffin
is in front
of what we want
it's all over

DEAD ROSES

my flesh loves to yell
so hell, here i come
i can't run from you
yeah even if i wanted to
so what's a girl to do?
sit still?
and do God's Will?
or take a pill
and hope that things will change?
in this place called "my body"
but it not just about being naughty
yeah, it's more about me being human
and me just thinking about doing
something
with someone
whom which
i have done something with
before
but i want more
and that door is close
i suppose?
but my thoughts
are still growing
like a rose
that will pose
at the place
where i will rest
i guess?

READING THE BIBLE

i am a goldsmith
yeah i am a goldmine
yeah i an considered
the pick of the litter
yeah very fine wine
from the vine of virtue
yeah i was born to help
not hurt you
yeah my view is beautiful
from head to toe
yeah from the ceiling
to the flo'
and did you know?
that my spirit glows
and can fly very high
yeah without actually...
touching the sky
but by and by
i will try
yeah until i die
on this earth
yeah i have...
so much worth
thirst
hunger
and wonder
but with God's help...
i will never go under

THINGS I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR

hay lady
i would never leave your side
that would be crazy
because i love you woman
and you're supposed to be my bride
and baby momma
with no drama
yeah so come here caramel skin
and be my best friend
to the end of earth
yeah because i know your birth
had worth
the first day i met you
yeah i couldn't forget you
yeah because the way you talk
made me feel like i could fly like a real hawk
and i don't care that you can't walk
yeah i swear i don't
but if you want to...
cool
i'll help you
yeah i'll help you crawl
yeah i help you do it all
if need
yeah you can honestly
lean on me, queen
yeah these are things
i would love to hear
on my ear