MY 11-18 STING

Now don't u know

i firt 

like a scorpio

but also

 i hurt 

 like one too

yesh, whst's a girl 

to do

besides

cryin' on the side

feelin' sad  and blue 

But screw it 

as sit 

with this sh*t

tryin' 

not to quit 

on life

until i see 

the real paradise 

in front 

of me 

46 LOLLIPOPS

 ooo

it makes me

so sick 

that at the age 

of 46

i can't even get 

a love lick 

so yeah 

i'm ticked 

off

yeah 

i feel 

so loss

to neva been 

really tossed

in the bed 

yeah 

these are 

things 

that swing 

in my head 

instead 

of 

prayers 

sometimes 

but 

dear lord 

am i 

out of my mind

MY DEEP TISSSUE ISSUE

MAN

i hate being single

Yeah, not getting

 a hug,

 a back rug

a tickle  or a tingle  

from the one

you dream 

to have fun 

with 

is 

pure torture 

sh*t

BUT GOD SAY 

i can't quit 

or 

turn off 

the switch 

to my heartbeat 

But I still yearn 

for something 

sweet 

and 

to hear 

the sounds 

of 

little feet 

yeah Father

Will your daughter 

ever feel

 really complete

INSANELY SORE (MY CEREBRAL PALSY P.U.S.H. BACK)

MAN 

i wish 

i could

see you

no more

yeah

i wish 

i could 

stop fighing 

this war

or

just say

goodbye 

to you

through and through 

from my core 

yeah, 

That's for sure 

yeah because

Cerebral,

my love 

my brain 

is 

insanely sore 

THE MARY MAGDELENE IN ME

 Woman

why are you weepin'

Lord, 

'cause i haven't been sleepin'

but 

you know 

the reason 

for

this season 

Yeah, so please

stop teasin' 

and let 

the breeze in 

yay, 

to blow

my years 

of tears 

away 

yeah 

i'm so tired 

of being 

hardwired strong 

for so long 

blue and gray 

inspired by my life and John 20

MY NIGHTLT UNSIGHTLY PRAYER

i need to stand 

i need to take somebody's hand 

but not man's 

but God's 

yeah God

Please lead me

to the truth 

or point me 

to Heaven's roof 

as proof 

of 

your everlasting 

love 

or 

your eternal frame 

in Jesus name  

MY QUEST FOR ANSWERS

GOD 

why 

is life

and death

on the same planet 

yeah even though 

as you know

i don't take nothin' 

or no one 

under the sun 

for granted 

BUT MAN

i don't understand 

the sugar and the spice 

and not so nice

to us 

on this land

But I still trust 

BUT BOTH 

life and death  

are serious 

situations 

for every single 

creation 

on this nation

yeah

so can't change stations

NO MORE SUFFERING IN SILENSE

World 

i am 

so through 

how you 

make me 

wheel blue 

yeah 

i'm through 

pushim' down 

how you 

constantly 

cut me 

like a clown 

and then 

laugh 

as i gasp 

and 

bleed 

yeah 

knowin' 

That I need 

you 

to be true 

BUT SCREW

YEAH 

I'M THROUGH

SUFFERING

in silence 

AND YES 

PUTTING OTHER

DOWN 

is a form 

of harm 

and violence 

 

COMING IN THE BREEZE

girl 
please stop
what u say 
Yeah, because
u  know 
i can't walk away 
from this cerebral palsy clay 
That I was put in 
Yeah, and not because 
of 
the sin 
of 
my parental kin 
with skin 
no 
My cerebral palsy 
is so 
spiritual 
yeah 
it has 
a glow 
from 
head to toe 
and so 
it sees 
the hurtful 
words 
u speak 
so deep 
and meant 
to make weak 
and to lose sleep
coming in the breeze 
but sista 
u can 
repent 
like a man 
and 
fall on your knees 

 

THE DIFFERENT COLORS OF CRULTY

 being  

called

in between 

sounds 

really mean 

yeah

i see

red 

i see

green

yeah

i see 

saddness 

makes me 

screem 

and 

it tries 

to drown 

This clown's 

dream  

yeah. which

sends me 

into 

depression 

but Father 

what is 

the lesson 

or 

what are 

you

trying 

to 

stress 

to

me 

NO DISRESPECT OR NEGLECT

God

says 

that i 

should 

die

empty 

and have 

a laugh

and 

sympathy 

for others 

yeah yeshua 

wants me 

to be 

the best 

kind of 

lover 

known to man 

yeah 

forget about 

the witing 

In the sand 

yeah 

i swear 

it's all

about 

the care 

of 

the withered hand 

GRASS ROOTS (AIDING AND ABETTING )

 God

Why am i 

no stranger 

to anger 

yeah 

why 

Can't i 

Just put it on 

a hanger 

and  just 

forget 

that it is 

yeah

just like 

my long 

hair 

yeah 

until

my wheels 

snare 

or 

my feelings

get hurt 

or 

stuck in the dirt

yeah Father

how does 

this human life

really work