HEY CHRIST. I GUESS MY LIFE , GOT TO BE FUNKY?

Lord
people keep 
treating me 
like a turd
but 
you keep 
giving me 
words 
to write 
and say 
yeah 
every single 
day 
so okay 
Let's play  
yeah 
Let's go deep
if you 
are 
forcing me 
to be 
or 
to stay 
In the grey 
of the world 
yeah 
as a cerebral 
palsy girl 
yeah 
let's 
twist 
and twirl 
until i hurl 
all of my 
hurts 
out 
or 
throw up 
all of 
my doubt 
yeah 
watch 
my soul 
SHOUT 
or 
you 
Christ 
work out 
my life 
yeah 
with painful 
slice 
of 
This rolling of 
the dice 

CEREBRAL (the cartoon Ep:1 through 4

https://youtu.be/U43_-Qq9Jgw   https://youtu.be/gN2RZz8AeOA     https://youtu.be/gN2RZz8AeOA

https://youtu.be/u2_KfkUUiFU

CHARLIE HORSE

MAN

i've been tryin' 

to run away

from cerebral palsy 

for years

Or better yet

With my eyes wet 

I've been tryin'

to drown it

With my tears 

But no luck, Chuck 

It is still

here 

driving my fears 

or shifting my gears 

yeah 

this girl 

has been 

on a worldwind 

of sufferin' 

and 

bufferin' 

but 

no more 

pretend 

yeah 

because 

It feels like 

sin 

over and over 

again 

ouch

so Lord

Can I take

a break 

or another 

route

BE A LEADER LIKE PETER

yeah 

one day

i wanna

walk on water

yeah 

one day 

i wanna 

be 

that girl 

that daughter

yeah 

that 

goes farther  

than anyone 

With a cerebral 

ever have 

yeah 

i wanna 

make the world 

gasp

laugh

or even 

pass out 

yeah

or

Jump for joy 

and say 

oh boy 

With a shout 

be leader 

like Peter

10 DIG-ITS

 my fingertips 

slip 

into 

places 

and 

spaces 

that my 

feet 

cannot 

reach 

yeah 

the real 

peaks 

and the 

real valleys 

yeah 

The real deal 

sister sally 

or 

the real 

peppermint patty 

and 

on top of that fact

i realy miss 

my daddy 

yeah 

i not 

being 

caddy 

No, I'm 

telling the truth 

as proof 

yeah, 

that heaven 

 really does

have a roof

because 

it has to

contain 

so much 

love 

52,000 OPEN WOUNDS

    man
first there is 
breath
and then 
there is
death 
yeah 
just left 
in the air
somewhere 
yeah 
and that 
hurts 
like dirt 
yeah 
you can 
almost 
go beserk 
But you still 
have will 
and work 
to do
but ooooooh 
It's true
losing someone 
is 
never ever
fun 
and when 
your life 
take it's 
last spin 
You will

 still
be blue  
 

STILL, WILL, LAUGH, AND HOPE?

father 
why 
do i 
have to
cry
alone 
and 
why 
doesn't 
anyone 
romantically 
call
my 
phone
yeah
father 
what 
is 
really 
wrong 
with 
your 
daughter
is it 
really 
my sit-u-a-tion
 bur father
you created 
this daughter
and put me 
oooooh weee
In this soot

 sit-u-a-tion
but 
why 
must i 
still 
be here
and cry 
yeah 
no mater 
how hard 
i try 
to stay 
a float 
in this 
boat
yeah
why 
must  i 
still have will,
 laugh. 
and hope 

FATHER. WILL YOU PLEASE CHANGE THE STATIION OR MY SIT-U-A-TION?

Father

When will i

learn my lesson 

yeah Father

And when will i 

Receive my blessing 

from 

constantly 

dealing with 

this cerebral 

palsy 

sh*t 

yeah 

when 

will my

life

get lit 

sort of speak 

yeah 

when 

can i 

no longer

 weep 

In my soul

yeah 

Father God 

i'm  tryin' 

so hard

not to lose 

control 

but i '

Hate this mold 

that you 

gave me 

so Father 

please

save me 

from

thia 

lack 

of

walk 

and run

into the 

earthly sun 

disease  

yeah so 

please 

free me 

from 

this pounding 

drum 

of 

feeling 

like 

such 

a burden 

yeah 

because 

Father

my love 

Please send me 

a dove 

because 

I'm wheelie 

hurtin' 

emotionally 

Can't you see

This little branch 

on your

 family tree

HEALING DAY?

Father

why

do my 

neediness 

seem to 

come off 

as 

greediness 

to everyone else

yeah 

i 

didn't 

give myself 

breath 

to live

this way 

but yet

it seems 

that my hopes 

and dreams 

or just 

horseplay 

so then 

that when 

my heart 

falls apart 

and goes 

cold and grey 

but still

yeah despite 

how i really feel 

i pray 

for 

 healing day 

 

WHEELIE, MONDAY?

MAN

i wheelie hate

being 

single 

yeah 

and having 

this wheelie 

big

tingle

yeah especially  

when 

no one 

wants 

to wheelie 

mingle 

or sin 

with me 

ooowee 

Father

how can 

this be 

yeah 

what's 

the secret 

what's 

the key

to abstaining

and   not complain 

about 

this emotional 

cerebral palsy

pain 

or

This lack of love 

or 

No dating game 

GOD, man 

What a plan 

but i 

still 

don't 

understand