A DIFFERENT ROUTE

 God

i've been waiting 

for a name change

yeah, 

as you know

i have so 

cry 

many many tears 

but i am

still 

in this 

wheelchair 

and 

It doesn't seem fair

Or do you even care 

about my whereabouts 

Yeah, my ins and outs 

or my dreams 

and my doubts 

yes Lord, 

i shout 

for a different  route 

yeah, not for clout 

DENOUCING MY DESIRES

Father

please take 

or gimme 

a break

for goodness sakes 

from the desire

 of 

what others 

have already 

acquired 

or

obtain 

yeah 

before 

i go

insane 

i call 

on your name

so yeah 

With that being said 

acknoeledge 

the blood 

you shed 

from the top 

of your head 

to the soles 

of your feet

yeah Father 

Please help me 

to feel 

real

 complete 

yeah 

even if 

my body 

never shifts 

or 

i never reach

my personal ...

peaks

VERSES & VAPORS

 God

in the mist 

of us 

i mut 

trust 

in your surplus 

Yeah, even as i sit 

In this pit of 

palsy 

Yeah, i must be

bald and bally 

Yeah, even if 

i can't see 

the shift 

going on

strong 

around me 

LEFT OUT LEFTOVERS

 lawd 

i have no doubt 

that i get 

left out 

yeah and 

that makes me 

wanna pout 

and shout 

because 

no how much 

i love

and try 

to keep in touch

i cut 

so deep 

i can't sleep 

And it's all 

because 

i can't stand 

without 

a helping hand 

really Man?

or really God 

as i write this 

feeling pissed 

and like....

i don't even...

exist 

With my left hand 

LOL, go figure 

SITTIN' BEHIND A WALKER

 now maybe 

if my feet 

moved 

as sweet 

as yours 

i would be 

oooh wee 

so sad 

and mad 

In my core

Yeah, it is love

and war 

at the same 

and in 

the same rhyme 

but. 

even in this fame 

i guess 

I'm blessed 

Or God says, 

It's fine 

A DIFFERENT KIND OF OCEAN BLUE

 am i cursed?

am i blessed?

am i stressed?

The answer is...

yes 

I'm all of these 

so yeah, please 

help me 

get 

on my spiritual knees 

yeah. they need 

to get greased 

first 

yeah before 

heaven's door

close 

or things 

get worse 

yeah. this is not 

just a verse 

i rehearsed 

 No, i swear 

this is more like

a pray

Yeah. to help me

get out 

of 

this snare 

called 

Cerebral Palsy 

y'all

Yeah, so i start 

having a ball 

In the Fall

and in the other 

seasons too

Yeah, a different kind 

of ocean blue

GULLIBLE CLOWN

 DAMN

everyday 

you find a way 

to put me down 

lower than 

the ground 

Yeah, it's like 

you're hopin'

'that i won't 

get found

or see myself 

as nothing good 

left 

but sike 

I'm alright 

yeah. I'm just 

a lil briused 

you fool 

yeah, 

despite 

you bein' 

cruel 

I'm still 

cool 

so go 

catch 

your drool

or go 

clean

 up 

your tool 

  stook

DEEP DOWN IN THE GUTT-Y

MAN

 when i can't sleep 

i must go deep 

yeah, deep into 

my emotions 

yeah so far 

that no car 

or human hand 

can reach 

and stand

to pull me 

the ocean 

motion 

lotion 

yeah 

poetry 

has become 

my potion 

since i run 

into the sun 

to have fun 

but look

what God

has done 

books 

with more 

from the core 

to come   

16790 MORNINGS

  DANG

I'm still 

In this wheelchair 

and Father God

it doesn't seem 

like a dream 

or 

far 

are you aware ?

do you care?

where are you?

yeah Yeshua, 

come back

or come through 

and tell me 

what to do 

or how to

 be 

or

set me free 

from this cerebral palsy 

fame 

Yeah, no reindeer games 

being played 

over here

But the message 

is

very clear 

i need your help 

in-depth 

Jesus wept

JUST SITTING NOT QUITTING

 I'm writing this 

poetry letter 

'cause I'm pissed

and wanna feel better 

or  change 

My forever weather 

of being stronger 

for way too long 

 so please

 hear my moan 

I'm not a clone 

or made of stone 

Yeah, I'm human 

with a lot sh*t 

going on 

That is wrong 

i believe 

Yeah, and so i grief 

With thoughts on my sleeve 

and stitches 

with wishes 

on my heart 

that i so

need to part 

or drop

my guard  

about how 

really hard 

to live this life 

Yeah, even with Christ's 

spice 

NOW LOOK HERE, IS YOUR VISION CLEAR?

Now look here

We are all

fine 

yeah, 'cause 

We were all 

made 

by 

the divine 

sunshine 

and 

rain 

or 

the pure 

sugarcane 

to date

but wait 

We were all 

meant 

to be 

different 

and 

procreate 

all of 

the different 

flavors 

of

the savior of love 

inspired by my visual perception and biblical lessons 

A REAL E-MAIL (MY EMOTIONAL JAIL)

LISTEN 

living with 

cerebral palsy 

is like 

being in 

prison 

with no 

sight 

of 

the sunlight 

night after night 

and 

day after day 

but yet 

and still 

I'm supposed to

have will

to live 

this way  

with no

outside

play 

MAN

my guts 

are gray 

like 

old hard 

clay

with nothing 

positive 

to say 

SNAKES AND HEARTBREAKS

 MAN

ovraies and semon

contain 

sin 

for no reason 

yeah forget 

the teasin' 

and pleasin'

or 

places 

like...

THE FOUR SEASONS 

yeah 

because 

my love

There could be 

some HELL

in doin' well...

yeah,

sometimes 

actions

and satisfaction

Do not yell 

"What's that... smell?"

but only 

The Lonely, Adam and.Eve

 and Time

will tell 

If we believe

inspired by my life and Exodus 34

MAN, I WHEELIE NEED TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT

man
i need to lose 
some of this 
handicapped blues 
yeah 
the thing 
that i didn't 
choose 
to spread  
The good news 
of 
the earth 
or of 
my birth 
but 
the hate 
and the weight 
of it 
sh*t
is 
worse 
than 
the curse 
of sin 
so Father
please make 
your daughter 
light again 

^

JUST A SHELL OF A WOMAN

 Lord

i feel 

like a wheel 

turtle

just tryin'

to jump

through

hurdles 

and not 

to become 

someone's 

dyin' old 

Aunt Myrtle

yeah

gurgle gurgle

i just wish

to not only

exist 

but

also

to be 

happy

like a grand-

pappy

yeah

just 

smilin' 

and

sappy 

WHY DOES THIS BE? ( PEOPLE BE TRIPPIN')

Father

wait

Why must people 

always 

defecate 

on my dreams 

Can't they hear 

The internal screams 

for help 

or

My inner wepts

 in-depth

or

My lack of sleep 

With no deep 

yeah

why 

must i 

feel 

like a wheel creep 

or 

become 

wheel meek

in s blink 

yeah

i just

shink 

yeah

whenwver 

people 

care 

to share

What they think 

about me

but Father

Why does this

 be?

CEREBRAL AND ALL

God
my mental 
is 
your temple 
yeah
It's just that simple 
yeah 
i'm not
accidental 
by any means 
yeah 
God sees me 
as 
his queen 
tu be 
or 
His divine
 dream 
come true
out of the blue 
of 
his mind 
yeah
to Him
sink or swim 
 I'm superfine 
cerebral and all

MY ROYAL FLUSH JOURNEY

here i sit

In some internal 

sh*t

But no one

wants to help me 

wipe it off

yeah 

no one 

wants 

to be

 soft

yeah 

and 

i feel 

real

lost 

but 

i know

that God

is so

THE BOSS\

yeah

even 

when 

i seem

to have 

no friends

and my dreams 

just get

tossed 

to the 

side

i just 

swallow 

my sorrow 

and 

Just ride out

God plan 

yeah 

even though 

i so 

don't understand 

tomorrow

TAKING A STAND AND RUNNING WITH GOD'S PLAN

i'm trapped
in this crap 
but i will not
collapse
no ain't
because
 i can't   
and to be 
quite honest 
with you 
i want to 
stick around 
on this earthly 
ground 
to see 
oooh wee
if
certain people 
get found 
and God's promises 
come true 
out the blue

water 

yeah 

so help 

me Father  

NO ROTTEN COTTEN

now 
lately 
my life 
has been 
wheelie 
crazy
yeah 
i've been 
getting 
stressed  
out 
on a daily 
and maybe 
that's why 
my blood presure 
has been 
running 
high
but Father
your daughter
doesn't wanna die
 before my
time 
yeah this 
is not 
just a rhyme 
or 
a squeeze 
of
a lemon 
or 
a lime 
no Lord
please 
maake 
me 
fine 
and 
cut 
this smut 
off
at the root 
yeah
because 
MY LOVE 
it's not
producing 
any good 
fruit 

QUESTIONS FROM A QUAD....?

So Father
Let me get this 
straight 
i'm suppose to 
 wait 
in these wheels 
and also
express 
the mess
of how 
your child 
wow,
really wheelie 
feel 
but Brother
i'm not made 
of steel
so can i
please 
hsve amother 
deal?
or
another 
meal
ticket 
yeah
because 
this life 
of love
seems wicked 
or very scary
specific 
yeah 
and 
i'm not 
with it 
anymore 
yeah because 
MY LOVE
my core
is 
extremely
sore 
yeah
total 
war
but
why 
as i 
try 
and cry
 while people 
steady 
lie?

BUT SIN NOT

anger

i wish were

a stranger 

to me 

but here

u be 

keepin' me 

company 

but please 

Don't grow 

like a tree 

yeah die 

at the root 

and don't 

bear fruit 

or 

be 

in hot prusit 

to ruin 

what Christ 

is doin' 

in my life 

yeah 

because he 

is

the one 

who made 

the loin' 

bloody sacrifice 

yeah 

Slice by slice 

Yeah, no

rollin' 

of the dice 

so please 

leave 

or 

be nice

INSPIRED BY MY LIFE AND EPHESIANS 4

"MY HOUR HAS NOT YET COME"

My hour has not yet come

but i know 

that

 one day 

Yeah, 

 somehow  

someway 

that i will

still 

walk

or 

sun 

in the sun 

or 

in the dark 

yeah

this is 

what i feel 

for real

in my heart

yeah, 

one day 

i will 

just start

inspired by my life and John 2, 7, and 11

MY TRUE BLUE TESTIMONY

Lord. please 

Don't let me 

flatline 

yeah.

let me 

be fine 

and age

with time 

 yeah 

when people 

squeeze me 

lime

let me still

do your will 

and be kind 

with your mind 

and be sensitive 

to the mental blind 

and the cruel -fooled  hearted 

yeah please

help me 

finish 

with ease 

what you started

In Jesus name 

with no shame 

or blame

Amen

CEREBRAL PALSY SOUTH

                    NOW
in the first place 
i didn't ask for race 
or 
this bitter taste 
in my mouth 
Yeah, being born 
or 
not able to 
really physically 
perform 
or
a.k.a.
Cerebral Palsy south 
is hey 
what i am 
calling it today 
yay
i wish 
it would 
just go
away 
and stay 
yeah
no wordplsy
I'm not okay 
yeah 
this i can 
truly say
i don't understand 
God's Plan 
for my clay 
on this land 
or 
the cross 
that i have to 
bare 
yeah 
i swear 
it ain't 
fair 
how those 
who are 
suppose to 
love you 
and think 
positive things 
of you 
don't care
and think 
they are 
a star 
above you 
but man, 
 What's a girl 
to do 
yeah 
i feel 
so  lost
i feel
so blue 

WHY DID YOU ...GIVE ME... BREATH?

 God

why?

did u

make me 

this way 

yeah

not able to 

physically 

play 

or take care 

of myself 

yeah Father

why?

as i sigh

did you give me 

breath 

BUSTING AT THE SEAMS

 MAN

I'm busting at the seams

trying to get to my dreams 

Yeah, the cake and ice cream 

Do you know what i mean?

Yeah, i SCREAM 

"COME HERE."

"MY DEAR"

Yeah, up close 

and crystal clear

Yeah, like a whisper 

in the ear 

ring 

yeah bring 

me something

to sing 

about 

yeah Lord

help me 

to be 

free

and, oooh wee

just 

let

it

out

DEAD BEHIND THE EYES

GIRL
Don't you realize?
that you need 
to apologize 
for all of 
the ugly inner 
cries 
and constantly 
telling lies 
on me 
yeah, 
Don't you care?
Can't you see?
MAN
I'm already 
dealing with
cerebral palsy sh*t
so QUIT 
being 
so lit 
about 
dimming 
my light 
alright?

DEAD BETWEEN THE EARS

MAN
some people 
see me 
as in-between 
yeah but 
the maker 
of
 all things 
Yeah, the king 
calls me 
royalty   
yeah a princess 
ot 
a queen 
so go 
ahead 
and
 SCREAM 
mean
 message 
from 
the dead 
yeah because 
Jesus bleed
out of love 
for me 
too 
Boo
so screw
what you're
truing 
to do 
yeah because 
that weapon 
of hurt 
will never 
work 

against God's 

e-lec-tric fence

BLACK DOVES

MAN
being hanicap 
makes me
humble 
BUT
being called 
crippled
makes me
wanna 
crumble 
yeah 
which is 
way worse 
than stumble
over 
a verse 
unreharrased 
yeah which then 
brings on 
a sudden 
thirst 

to sin 

or to 

breakwind

or 

to begin 

again  
BUT
to be 
looked at 
as lame 

or 

whack
makes me 
really 
wanna act
silly 
and 
jump out 
of 
my physical 
frame
my love
but where
i swear 
is 
the fair 
yeah because 
all i hear 
crystal clear 
is 
black doves

TAKING NOTES

MAN

love songs 

really make 

me sick 

yeah 

the lyrics 

hit me 

like a tone 

of bricks 

yeah because 

i have 

no love 

or 

no d^^k

to make me 

sore 

or

have me 

beggin' 

for more 

but 

guess what 

my lonely 

butt 

keep on 

playing them 

yeah 

especially 

when 

the day 

goes dim 

yeah 

emotions 

Dive into music 

like the ocean 

yeah 

love songs 

right or wrong

are my 

pain, shame & potion 

PRETZEL LOVE

TALKING TO A FRIEND WHITHIN

Hey, Jesus, Bud
Please stop the flood 
from coming 
i don't feel
like running 
in these whrrls 
to the Pearly Gate 
yeah. i can wait 
to skate 
like Usher  
yeah Lord,
i trust  You
in this dark 
and blue 
yeah,
So tell me 
What to do 
new 
yeah 
to save 
Your \Crew
do i need
to read
Hebrews  

HEAL THE SKY

 Father, i 
command You to 
heal the sky
yes please. 
let this storm 
pass us by 
yeah, i don't want 
anyone 

to die

or
to be

 taken 

towards the sun 
or 
have to run 
to take cover 
yeah please. 
protect 
my brother
my mother 
my sister
my friends 
yeah please 
let this clouds 
come to an end 
yeah 
no more 

wind

INSPIRED BY MY CURRENT SIT-U-A-TION AND LUKE 8

DO U HEAR ME TALKING TO YOU?

storm 
don't cause 
any harm 
or better yet 
don't get 
anything wet 
or even 
perform 
in this season 
yeah because 
Jesus is
noting but love 
and the reason 
for our
 power, shower being. and hours
yeah 
so 
go on 
where you belong 
yeah 
which is 
Hell
yeah 
and just
wish 
us 
well

inspired by my current sit-u-a-tion and Matthew 8