EGGSHELLS

 Father, am i doing well?

walking on eggshells 

'cause i can't tell 

down here 

yeah, 

i realize 

that my Earthly eyes 

are not 

very clear 

yeah 

so Savior 

please do me 

a favor 

and steer 

or 

stir 

things 

as they were

or was 

yeah, like 

the doves 

in Eden 

yeah before

there were 

any 

close doors

or

 slippery floors 

 or 

love loss 

on the cross...

beatings 

MR.AND MRS.BLACK HISTORY AMERICA

there's nothing wrong 

with my skin 

or

 what's in 

me 

yeah 

i was born 

to be

black. beautiful,   

intelligent and free

yeah so 

take a 

look see 

at this 

glow 

or sit down 

and listen 

to this 

flow 

that exist 

like a kiss 

from 

the kingdom

GOD'S CHOCOLATE RAINBOW

 hey 

my history 

is no

mystery 

i'm black 

yeah 

that's a fact 

yeah 

Christ airbrushed 

my life 

like that 

or He 

put the wind 

to my skin 

and then 

put me 

right in 

place 

yeah 

my style 

my grace 

yeah much more 

than 

the color of my face 

yeah so 

always remember 

from January 

to December 

i have 

a taste 

not a race

SO CLEARLY, NO REST... FOR THE WEARY

 i lay 

on a pillow 

but you know me 

i would rather be 

laying on 

a masculine chest 

yeah 

with somebody 

holing me 

obviously 

saying 

that 'i'm the best

that he's ever had 

bur boy 

it's makes 

me

a very sad 

lad 

yeah

that's why 

i 

got this 

notepad 

out 

yeah 

to help me

combat 

my lonely 

and 

doubt  

AN UNDER WATER DAUGHTER

 MAN

i have so much 

time on my hands 

yeah 

i have so much 

poetry in my plans 

that i don't understand 

but God

says 

i can 

write 

everything 

down 

just don't 

drown 

yeah 

float 

on a boat 

as you cope 

with hope 

and don't 

let the rope 

choke 

the life 

out of you 

and 

Christ 

I WISH LIFE WAS ...THE WAY IT WAS (thinking about TY)

hey cos 

i still

have a real 

sore spot 

yeah man 

my blood 

is 

still boiling 

hot 

that your heart stopped 

like a broken 

clock

and i'm 

sitting here 

writing this...

doc. 

with so many 

inner tears 

yeah, 

just thinking 

about 

your years 

on Earth 

yeah man 

starting with 

your birth 

and then 

your hunger 

your wonder

and 

thirst 

on this land 

yeah

God had a plan 

i didn't understand 

i don't know if 

i can 

but boy, 

how i miss 

your eyes 

of surprise

and love 

that never 

lied 

and cos 

i just wish 

that life 

was 

the way

it was 

THE WHEEL MEANING of GOOD GRIEF?

  MAN

i try to run away 

from 

cerebral palsy 

every single day 

but man 

cerebral palsy 

always wants 

to stay 

by my side 

yeah

cerebral palsy 

is 

always 

down to ride 

so yeah 

i swallow 

my pride of sorrow

and hope for tomorrow

or i...

 pause for the cause

and try to obey 

The Laws 

of The Lord

i guess

but man oh man 

this sit-u-a-tion plan 

is 

so stressful 

to say 

the less

so Father 

is this

 the wheel meaning

 of

 good grief 

HIGH ALTITUDE

MANE

i still 

wanna 

dich 

these wheels  

and fly 

high 

in the sly 

yeah ith people 

looking by 

like an airplane 

yeah

even in the rain 

because 

my love 

this frame 

causes pain 

that i can't 

explain 

but i am 

constantly 

calling 

on Jesus Name 

I DREAMT OF GENESIS (....MORSE CODE)

girl 
i dreamt of 
this day 
yeah before 
your 
first verse 
of 
wordplay 
your cerebral 
was 
my clay 
yeah 
so write away 
i say 
yeah 
don't you dare 
pause 
'cause 
i care 
to 
put you 
here 
yeah 
message received
yeah 
even when 
you grieve 
please believe 
the message 
is 
clear  
 

"SEE YOU SOON" (THE STATEMENT)

MAN

the statement 

"See you soon" 

leaves a lot of

 breathing room 

for most people 

i assume 

but for me 

ooohwe

it's like 

pokin'  a hole 

in 

my soul 

or 

a balloon 

that now 

POW

makes

a different tune 

or 

a slow seeping 

sound 

yeah 

even when 

no one is 

around 

this circus 

clown 

or

that's how 

 i really feel 

fo' real 

when i share 

my dreams 

but God 

what does this mean?

THE MILLION $?

depression 

when will

you learn 

you lesson 

and shut 

the hell

up 

or 

when will

i 

stop giving 

a ----

you know what 

when i die 

or 

have 

no more 

try 

left 

in me 

yeah Lord

this world 

is so

 windy cold 

to your girl's 

soul  

but 

i do 

 wanna make it

to see 

my mommy 

turn

100 years old 

46,000 STEPS

MAN

i wanna 

go 

take a walk 

so bad 

yeah 

because 

sitting on my butt 

or

you know what 

makes me

so sad 

and wish 

i had 

an Earthpad 

worth 

more than turf 

yeah 

my soles 

wannabe 

in control 

yeah 

they wannabe 

human whole 

yeah 

they wanna 

surf 

yeah 

a real new-birth 

25 LONELY CRIES

okay
listen here 
here i sit 
another year 
with a single 
message 
still not 
real
 clear 
yeah 
i need a beer 
but i only 
drink 
wine 
when I'm craving 
someone fine 
to my 
Valentine 
date
but wait 
it's too late 
yeah and  
my heart 
hates this 
yeah 
in fact 
it's pissed 
to not have 
someone to 
share a laugh 
or 
to kiss
yeah man
i so feel
dissed 
in this land 
of 
love and candy 

MAN, BECAME A DIAMOND IS SOME PRETTY ROUGH STUFF

now listen 

there is 

so much 

friction 

and 

contradiction 

in my life 

yeah, 

so, please  

help me 

Christ 

in all degrees 

yeah Father

don't let 

your daughter's eyes 

get wet,

burned 

or 

freeze 

but i do 

wanna learn 

something new 

but why 

must i 

be 

so blue 

to be 

more 

like You

WHEN MY FEET MEETS THE CONCRETE, FLOOR, OR THE ROAD

now

the only way 

i will 

feel 

okay 

is if 

i walk

this way 

and which way 

you say 

physical 

yeah 

by myself 

with no help 

yelp, 

and no more 

quiet as kept 

about how much 

i have wept 

or 

hurt in depth 

NOT SO 7th HEAVEN

Lord

as i travel 

in this gravel 

yeah 

trying to not 

to unravel  

your behalf

yeah 

i try 

so hard 

to drop 

my guard 

and laugh 

at the staff 

you gave 

me 

but 

Father God

please save 

like gravy 

on a biscuit 

yeah 

because 

I'm not 

with it 

in that sense 

yeah 

even though 

i know 

i was meant 

and sent 

yeah 

I'm no 

accident 

yeah 

I'm a part of 

your light 

and

your love 

to write 

your insight 

even though 

I'm seen

as dream 

or 

a clown 

inspired by my life and Exdous 7

FROM A BROKEN HEART

God

i don't wanna 

die 

from a broken heart

so please Father, please 

stop letting 

people's 

cruel words 

rip me 

apart 

or 

start 

me crying 

yeah because 

i told you 

my love 

i feel 

like I am 

really close 

to dying 

or 

frying 

in Earth's Hell

yeah sadly 

and madly 

I'm already 

choking 

from the smoking 

SHEVY'S 10,000 EMOTIONS

i wanna cry 

but i 

can't 

i wanna scream 

but i 

can't 

i feel small 

like an ant 

since u been

 gone  

yeah 

i feel 

all kinds 

of wrong 

yeah 

like i don't 

belong 

here 

yeah

THE MESSAGE 

is 

so unclear 

yeah 

did God?

really steer

u 

my dear

cousin

HUMAN WE ALL ARE.

Wait

not everybody is gay 

not everybody is straight

yeah

not everybody is good 

not everybody is great 

yeah 

some people are 

pure love

some people are 

pure hate 

in their inner-state 

but we

can navigate 

what we be 

in this 

society 

of

variety 

yeah 

we can 

be kind 

in hearts 

and mind 

it's fine

to walk blind   

in the sunshine 

or 

in the rain

of 

someone else's

pain

yeah 

no game 

no shame 

in Jesus name

 

JESUS CHRIST LIVING WITH CEREBRAL PALSY IS SUCH A SACRIFICE

MAN

i really hate 

romantic music 

but i still 

listen to it 

yeah 

i guess you say 

i stress

myself out 

everyday 

when i play 

yeah 

making my guts 

grey 

yeah 

; 'cause no one 

wants to lay 

with me 

or stay 

with me 

seriously 

and oooh wee

it's all

because of 

cerebral palsy 

i can't 

get 

no love

MY RAINFOREST COURSE

CHILD

God will allow 

all of the pain

and the shame 

to rain 

down 

on me 

obviously 

for humility 

and not 

for humiliation

BUT BOY 

being in 

this cerebral 

palsy community

is no 

toy 

or joy 

ao no

i can't be 

coy 

in a sea 

that is

constantly 

trying to

drown me 

yeah while 

God is 

growing me 

and 

showing me 

the climate 

and 

the realignment 

THIS DAY 16801.5

God, you this day 

would come 

yeah, the day 

i would need help 

to walk. talk 

and run 

yeah  until 

your will 

is still 

in me 

or done 

and 

your plan 

has not 

been fun

yeah 

i been called 

a liar 

while being 

on fire 

and trying 

to go 

higher 

before 

my body 

expires 

but 

guess what?

you knew 

all that i 

would every 

cry 

or 

go through 

yeah 

yellow, red and blue 

CEREBRAL PALSY HUMAN STEEPLE

MAN 

the violence 

of 

silence 

and the wounds 

of 

a woman 

are really something 

but i wasn't build 

for nothing 

but i go through everything 

with a swing 

Botta bing

like a king 

or a queen 

waiting to sing 

praises 

to all 

of 

the phases 

of 

pain 

i went through 

but 

guess what?

it is 

so true 

that 

Jesus do 

reign 

Y'ALL WISH ME LUCK 'CAUSE I'M STUCK... IN THIS BALLPIT SH^T

 MAN

    i'm going through 

hard season 

for some reason 

yeah 

no teasing 

but boy 

i hope 

that 

the way 

that i cope 

is 

pleasing 

to God 

yeah God 

please  get 

the highest degree 

of 

glory 

through 

my story 

I WOKE UP ON MONDAY

i woke up 

on Monday 

yeah
even though 
i so 
wanted to go 
dead 
on Sunday
but God said
no 
live instead 
yeah
just let 
your eyes 
stay red 
and wet 
yeah 
get up 
buttercup 
yeah 
even though 
someone hurt you so 
yeah 
made you feel 
real low 
yeah 
no mo'
 glow 
but 
it's  alright 
just write 
until 
you see 
ME
THE LIGHT 
in the night 

ADDING INSULT to INJURY

MAN
i'm already 
disable 
yeah 
i'm already 
negatively 
labeled 
but people 
still 
find the will 
to hurt me 
or to
verbal 
desert 
or 
leave me 
for dead 
with the things 
they have sad 
yeah 
leaving my insides 
blue and red 
yeah 
and wishing 
that i was 
kissing a keg 
'cause my legs 
don't work 
and now 
i feel 
like dirt 
yeah 'cause 
someone 
was a jerk 
Jesus 
but why?
when i always 
try 
to hear 
others' reply 

 

FOR THE UMPTEEN SATURDAY

sad tears
go away 
and 
happy tears 
come and stay 
i pray 
on this Saturday
in the park 
 of my heart 
yeah where
everything 
is 
as it seems 
yeah
half sunny 
half dark 
like a lark 
sitting on a bark 
waiting on 
a spark 
of food 
or 
a change 
of mood 
yeah 
because 
right now 
wow 
I'm searching 
for a smiling 
and 
motivation 
to go on 
another mile