GIRL,
i didn't stumble i
into humble
i was born this way
yeah, when Christ
allowed
his child
to stricken
with the lack of kickin'
and people happily
pickin'
at me
yeah makin' me
sappy
longing for
a pappy
yeah some protection
and affection
yeah,
in this wheely
life lesson
of stressin'
about if
\someone
that is sent
to give me a lift
will certainly
shift
and leave me
mystified
i remember
your life
and i remember
the day
and the way
you went to paradise
and it wasn't so nice
but no second chance
at rolling the dice
or tasting the sweet spice
which was
your spirit
and oh boy
how i wish
that i could give you a kiss
and i could hear it
exist
on Earth
yeah,
i hunger
and thirst
for another birth
yeah, another resurrection
of affection
MAN
sadly
Aunt Jessie
didn't get to see
me
become a TT
up close
and boy
how i would love
to share that joy
with her the most
but not to boast
but to share
and to care
for mine
and just to remember
all of the tender
times
when all was
fine
and the sun shined
own face
and in the sky
but Father,
why oh why?
did she have to die?
and make my heartbreak
and my eyes...
cry
yeah Lord,
can i get a reply?
does Heaven have a California 24/7?
man
so close
but just
so far
i wish
that i could
just drive away
in a car
until
my wills
make good
yeah until
my money
is no longer
acting funny
like a bunny
in cartoon
yeah banks
gimme rank
or make room
in your shark tank
store
yeah gimme more
gimme more
MAN
my heart
doesn't like
the dark
yeah it's always
searching for
that spark
of light
yeah especially
at night
yeah when
things
feel a little off
and not so soft
yeah when
i feel
a little lost
in the still
mill
of
my mind
yeah where i long
to sleep deep and well
and fine
yeah with
no breath
left behind
Lord
what's in a dream?
yeah, what's in the violent?
and the silent screams
night after night
yeah, it just doesn't seem right
to have so much fright
yeah, when i so believe
in THE LIGHT
and all of its might
so yeah, i be like
where did that...
vision come from
now, you know
i walk slow
and i can't ...
even run
and i feel real
dumb
that i can't
figure
these inner shouts
out
MAN
sometimes
i feel
really bound
like a clown
in the circus
but God says
i have purpose
yeah, I'm not
worthless
like the world ...
said
yeah, just because
i can't get myself
out of bed
yeah, i still have
breath left
yeah, I'm not
dead
yeah. my blood is....
still red
and still moves with will
like a flood
or grows
like a rose
i suppose
but only God
knows
man
i dream
so big
that my thought
often get caught
or break
like twigs
on a tree
yeah, can you see?
little oh me
just laying
on the ground
feeling lost
and hoping
to be found
fruitful
and multiplying
before her dying
MAN
in my head
i can
get myself
out of bed
yeah really move
my legs
open or close
i suppose
but only God
really knows
and that blows
because
i think
i too
deserve love
with you
boo
but you have
given your breath
to someone
yeah
why
i
sit here
almost in tears
by myself
tryin' to okay
with being
in this disabled clay
and
gettin' left behind
MAN
sadly
suicide
has been apart
of
this earthly ride
and
the human heart
almost since
the first offence
yeah Cain slaying Abel
was no accident
yeah and, never was
Eve
being
deceived
by a snake
yeah
the first mental break
in the lake
of the Lord
and sadly
we all had to come aboard
like a hoarder
or
did we?
oooh wee
nooo
don't let go
of your breath
yeah please
No self-death
TT NIQUE NIQUE
is the sweetest
title
i have
yeah,
it makes me
proud
yeah, it makes me
laugh
and grasp
my peace
in disbelief
yeah,
after having
many moments
of
grief
or
many years
of
tears
yeah
due to the blue
of
this lame frame
of
mostly emotional pain
yeah
of
people
making me feel
really ashamed
of
being born
with Cerebral Palsy
but then
the wind
shifts
and blesses
me
with gifts
yeah,
a. k.a.
let's play
today
nieces and nephews
Lord
all i want
is
what you do
yeah
to be honest
to be true
yeah
if you have to
do something new
that's cool
just don't
let me feel
like a real
or allow others
to just be
cruel
to me
or
my inner body
but if
i have to
make a shift
please don't make me
fall or drift
God loves women
how do i know so
because we are
living
in
thanksgiving
yeah from me
way back to Eve
we breathe
with a bloody sleeve
and womb
that is
so in tune
with a balloon
of
trumpets
yeah,
with God
just sitting back
feasting on
truth and fact
or tea and crumpets
so yeah,
Bottomline
we are all...
fine like wine
yeah,
because
we were all
lovingly made
by the///
Ace of Spades
or the ...
Great Divine
Father.
please
give me
another year
to stay here
with no tears
and no fears
yeah Pappy
please let me
be happy
for more than
just a day
yeah before
my breath is...
taken away
yes Lord,
this i pray
in your name
okay?
so what will i write
in the new year
will i still
fuss and fight
with my inner tears
over sleepless nights
or will i fly
a kite
and go to
higher heights
or to the mighty lights
yeah where streets
are sweet and gold
and the bible is
taught but
never sold
so I've been
45
for a year now
wow, i say
with a smirky wordplay smile
yeah, i have class
i have style
for another lap
or for...
another mile
or another year
but Jesus take the wheel
and steer
hey
did u know
that even dogs
get treat
better than me
yeah, this i see
or
have seen
yeah.
this is not
just rhyme time
or a dream
yeah, and so
I SCREAM
because I'm not...
just a thing
no,
I'm a human being
yeah
with skin
not fur
but BURRR
this world is so cold
to my cerebral palsy soul
Lord,
i didn't ask for this
yeah, I'm really pissed
that i still exist
in this body
yeah, because
no one loves
me
romantically
or
understands
why am I wheely on this land
limp
yeah
and
on top of that
they treat me...
whack
yeah, sad facts
like a simp
but I'm smart
and I have a heart
and sometimes
i fart
because i'm human
not ruin
but guess what?
my sit-u-a-tion
does suck
i'm 45
i'm still alive
but man
people still
don't understand
me
yeah
they think
i wanna be
sitting down
on earthly ground
yeah
instead of
walking dead
or
putting myself
in my bed
or
being able to
wipe my own ass
but this too
shall pass
yeah
like my hourglass
yeah
free at last
having a blast
on foot
yeah y'all
look
no chair
and...
I'm goin' somewhere
Daughter
what if
i don't shift
your situation
or stop the rain
or pause
the pain
that has fallen
on your calling
on this nation
yeah, minus
the temptation
will still?
serve Me
yeah
even if
you don't feel
real
worthy
of
my Word
yeah,
my little psalm bird
i'm seen as...
less than
so i don't have...
a man
and y'all just
don't understand
how much
obviously
God's plan
wheely hurts me
yeah.
it works...
my nerves
yeah,
what did i do?
to deserve this
yeah,
i feel as though...
i don't exist
but yet and still
i feel really wheely
pissed
sadly
many people see
me
as
crumbs
yeah but
it's
only because
of
my lame frame
yeah
what a damn shame
that i
no matter
how i try
or cry
i still
can't get
no romantic love
yeah
all because
of
my wheels
i hurt
i work
i feel
like real dirt
but that doesn't seem
enough for my dreams
to SCREAM
here i am
or
here i go
yeah
from head
to toe
NO
but
guess what?
i still,
wheel
flow
or
grow
like a water
lily
yeah
pretty
and
silly
source
power
for hours
upon hours
now
what was that call?
really about
yeah Lord
I'm trying
to figure
it out
yeah
what so much
pain, shame, and doubt
yeah, Father
your daughter
is feeling
like a trout fish
out of water
yeah feeling
pissed
and dismissed
yeah
where's the love?
where's the bliss
yeah
where's the answer?
for all of this
internal
MAN
i swear
i'm still
trying to
get my wheel-
chair
to just go
SOMEWHERE
yeah,
out of y'all's
View
yeah,
try something
new
yeah, like
just start
walking
by myself
out the blue
ooohoo
i hope
that
this dream
come true
America
i still love you
yeah, regardless
of
what you've
put me through
yeah, i still see
the beauty
in the bruise
and the fake news
yeah because
God still loves
to use
everything
yeah,
even the swings
yeah,
ba boom ba bings
yeah smile
kings and queens
God has
my vote
God has
my hope
yeah, God has
my heart
hanging
on a cross
with the other lost
and Him
yeah, so let's
swim
into the dim
of
the brim's bright light
yeah.
into the day
and
into the night
alright?
can you hear
my spirit
yelling
and wondering
if
I'm failing
in this
C.P.-Melan
skin
yeah when
i really can't
pretend
or
fake a grin
anymore
yeah
i wanna soar
through many doors
but on foot
yeah
i don't like
all of
these days
and nights
staying put
Father
am i
movin'
in the right direction
'cause all i see
in front of me
is
rejection
and
restriction
now listen
i am
payin' attention
but
you didn't
mention
all of
the twists and turns
and the...
burnin' rubber heartburn
MAN
death
and breath
are always
on my mind
yeah so I grief
'cause i don't wanna leave
nothing behind
for a thief
to find
anytime
so yeah,
i stay on my grind
until
my insides
are quiet
or still
i wanna be
bigger than life
but never
bigger than
Christ
yeah.
i wanna walk
on frozen ice
yeah,
down here
and in
paradise
yeah,
no palsy
would be nice
yeah,
like apple spice
on a cold day
yeah. i wanna run
yeah, i wanna
play
yeah, until
my body is still
and \grey
okay?
MAN
i didn't have a choice
in my disabled voice
but
here it is
or
hear it is
busy as a bee
on a computer key -
pad
trying not to sound
bad
or
sad
yeah even if
i can't shift
what i had
with my deceased dad
yeah
my moods can get real mad
and feelings
can be some real rude...
food
to me
but honesty
as y'all can clearly hear
and ser
my pain
and shame
produces poetry
our last name is...
God
our claim to fame
is..
God
yeah,
based on
what i have read
and what i have been
feed
about the blood
that Jesus shed
from feet
to head
we are not...
dead
and
we are all
Gods
instead
inspired by Mike Todd's sermon and my own personal life study
