The w h e e l definition of cerebral

 I was chosen by the most high so even if I Cry with every try my reason for being in this season will never die yeah this means that God dreams will always multiply yeah even if I'm not physically here anymore or I never get to walk through and Earthly door at my core I was made for More for sure

SHERM (NO LESSON LEARNED)

OOO

you

 & me 

was supposed 

to be 

like love 

& basketball 

was 

at the end 

or 

at least 

at peace 

with being 

best friend

with no 

sexual 

sin 

BUT NO\

you had to go 

and get on 

drugs 

and now 

WOW 

just thought of 

you

and things 

you are 

putting 

your earthly wings

through...

MAN

my eyes 

need plugs 

to  hold 

all of 

 the tears 

and wasted 

years 

of 

gifts 

and talents 

taken for 

granted 

that you 

could 

give 

and do 

good 

on this planet 

BUT MY HAND WORKS JUS' FINE? (SMH)

 a human 

have over

200 bones 

by why

do i 

still feel 

really alone 

yeah 

like i don't 

belong 

or 

have an earthly 

or

 a heavenly home 

to go to 

when i''m feelin' 

blue 

or goin' through 

the su' 

of  

depression 

yeah 

the ongoing 

life lesson 

that has me 

sittin' here stressin' 

while still waitin' 

on a blessin' 

as a child 

of God 

OOOWEE C.P.

God 

please help me 

turn the page 

off  this rage 

and 

stop letting 

this cerebral palsy 

situation 

take center stage 

yes Lord 

i so need 

a break 

from this heartache 

or 

this handicap crap 

or 

this slap 

in the face 

or 

this bitter taste 

in the mouth 

for this girl 

down south 

that feels 

like a real  louse 

sometimes 

but then 

here comes 

a friend 

or 

my electronic pen 

or 

my rhymes 

from the wind 

THE POWER of A CALL

 i got a call 

but i don't know all 

that it holds 

yeah 

there are some secrets 

that are still  

yet to be told 

yeah 

just hidden 

in God's heart gold 

yeah 

the one 

who made my mold 

from top to bottom 

and then 

 dropped me 

on Earth 

on a cold autumn day

but with the gift

to uplift 

with wordplay 

yeah 

come what may 

blue or grey 

i will be okay 

as long as 

stay 

by the phone  

OUTDOOR DOWNPOUR

father come here 

and whisper  

something

 so clear 

that the deers 

would mistake 

my intake 

as water

yeah 

please 

download 

to your 

daughter 

yeah 

help me 

drink

from your

 sink 

and 

tell me 

exactly 

what you think 

yeah without a blinl

in sight 

yeah please 

let me 

that it so 

gonna be 

alright 

BE KIND to ME and CEREBRAL PALSY

so i

 exist 

for

much more 

than 

to shi*t

and to pi$$

yes i am   

on God's list 

of z beautiful  mist 

in the air 

yeah 

and  I'm 

much more 

than your idea 

of 

an eyesore 

with long hair 

yeah 

my core 

is

love 

my core 

is 

care 

yeah 

this i 

swear 

but it's fine 

that you don't like 

wiping my behind 

but you could 

at least be kind 

until 

my wheels 

rest in peace 

i

VISAULIZING YOU NAKED

MAN

you look good 

in the skin 

that you are in 

how does the wind? 

feel for real

yeah 

in the still

 of the night 

i wish 

that you would 

gimme a kiss 

that sends me 

oooowee 

into 

total bliss 

baby 

but do you think?

i look good 

in the neck 

of the wood 

or 

naked in my frame 

in Jesus name 

CAN I BE FOUND?

God

why 

must i 

only have

laughs

 and thoughts

yeah 

no try 

no guy 

no actions   

yeah 

no sexual satisfaction 

yeah 

what happened 

to my chance 

at romance 

i mean 

don't i 

deserve

to 

scream 

for joy

about my dreams

and prance around

on this earthly ground 

yeah Lord

can i be found  

TO : CLIMAX WITH NO TAKE BACK

i'm listening to 

Maxwell 

on Spotify 

wishing u 

would 

stop by 

and do more 

than 

just walkthrough

 my door 

and say hi 

yeah 

i wish 

your body 

would kiss 

me 

real good 

and stay 

all the way 

'till the next day 

yeah 

just love

all of 

my nightmares    

away 

yeah 

make 

my bellyache 

go 

from darkness 

and hardness 

to a beautiful glow 

that only 

the lonely 

understands 

man

POSTER CHILD

WOW

i am 

a poster child 

for 

C.P.

but i don't wanna be 

but the almighty 

choice me 

yeah i was 

picked 

off of 

the heavenly family tree 

yeah 

to live earthly 

and honest 

yeah 

to be 

in his (will. wheel)

and be healed 

in his promised paradise 

yeah 

here  i stand 

in his plan 

for you 

not so nice 

people 

yeah 

yeah y'all 

in and out 

the steeple 

SOME HOT BUTTERED RUM

MAN

i can't 

really walk 

or run 

but that

 doesn't mean 

i don't wanna 

sexually scream 

or 

someone 

to eat my plum 

yeah 

to make me cum 

like 

some hot buttered rum 

THE CEREBRAL CHURCH AT WORK

we are eve

we are adam 

yeah i know 

we can't even 

phantom  

being apart 

of 

a heart 

and 

a rip 

yeah 

you and i 

without a try 

have first dibs 

on heaven and earthly 

cribs 

yeah 

all of our real estate 

is 

meant to be 

great

and 

our plates 

are

 meant to be

 full 

of 

meals 

for real 

45 NORTH of HEAVEN

i  wanna be 

more

like Jesus

yeah

holy 

solely 

not moldy 

or

scolding 

or

controlling 

yeah 

just lovey dovey 

in a covey 

still waiting 

on a hubby 

as a  human 

yeah 

while doing 

the works of ...

God's child 

yeah 

mile after mile 

and 

smile after smile 

STEEPLE PEOPLE

 MAN

people don't understand 

just how much 

God's hand 

is 

on me too

yeah and  

that's why 

i cry '

mist blue 

yeah because 

of 

you people

and your 

lack of love  

yeah 

the ones 

who claim 

to be 

from the steeple 

in Jesus name 

yeah are

the ones 

by far

who inflicted 

the most pain 

yeah 

what a shame 

A REAL SEXUAL EX-CHANGE

TRUST

i have many

 lustful  thoughts 

that make me wanna 

you know what?

bust a nut 

BUT

Christ says 

cut that out

but LORD

i so wanna 

SHOUT 

for joy 

with an adult boy 

yeah 

no need for toys 

just us 

and love 

and 

no need 

for gloves 

just my last name 

to change 

for a real ....

sexual excchange 

How embarrassing?

God 

i still wish 

for a romantic kiss 

 when will i stop?

wanting this 

to exist 

yeah 

lip to lip 

or 

some tougne tip slip 

dipped in love 

and passion 

yeah 

no need 

for speed 
or ration 

No,and

brcause i have 

been wating 

and intisapating 

with laughs 

while trying 

to grssp

why a guy?

won't reply 

and

 why do i?     Constantly cry         at age 45           I'm alive     but I feel so dead not being w e d or nobody in my bed

11181978

God 
why am i living 
in this prison 
yeah 
cerebral palsy county 
being hunted 
by bounty 
load of things 
but yet 
i still  have 
a laugh 
and 
a will 
to sing 
to you my King
yeah 
what does this mean?
is it all a dream?
and i just can't seem 
to wake my body up
or 
to break 
my body out 
yeah 
i 
internally  scream 
cry, 
and shout 

AIRBRUSHED

trust 

the hue 

on all of us 

is

airbrushed  

yeah 

i swear 

that even 

the color 

of 

our hair 

is 

supposed to be,,,

 there 

or 

that way 

yeah 

no wordplay 

so embrace 

the grey 

on your face 

that was...

placed 

by grace

and not for...

race  

NOTHING BUT THE BLUES AND THE CHOICES U CHOOSE

so 
what gives you 
the right 
to mess up my day 
and ruin my night 
yeah 
and take a bite 
of my soul 
and to lie 
on my life 
that Chtist 
has already 
written 
and told 
yeah 
how cold 
is that 
fact 
or 
wggda wiggda

 wack 
but saddy 
no take backs 
yeah 
the damage 
has already 
been done 
it just...
sucks 
that my feet 
can't run 
a maratthon 

Augh-Ugh

MAN

i have already  

been through 

hell 

with being 

handicapped  

so 

i don't need 

your added-on

crap 

yeah 

to make 

my heart 

break 

or 

my lungs 

to 

collapse 

THE NERVE OF THEM

MAN
some words 
really hurt
yeah
they make me feel 
lower than dirt 
yeah 
i want to go
berserk 
but 
guess what? 
the bible 
says 
no
yeah 
i must 
trust 
and 
flow
in God's glow 
yeah
which means 
that 
i must 
always  speaks 
like a queen 
even when 
i feel 
weak 
and 
cut really

 deep 
yeah
my will 
must be 
still 
or 
chill
or 
take 

a backseat 
to keep 
my peace 
and 
for 
righteousness 
to be 
released
 

FRIENDLESS?

Jesus Christ 

why 

do i 

keep seein' 

caskets 

yeah 

why 

does life 

have to be

so drastic 

yeah man 

i understand 

that people 

aren't made of...

plastic 

but yet and still 

why are we allowed 

to feel 

real...

 feelings 

and have...

laughs 

and dealings 

only 

to be 

left 

with 

no breath 

or 

just friendless 

yeah 

all by ourselves 

SEX-APPEAL

HEY

it is 

never okay 

to  sin 

or 

go against 

the wind 

yeah 

never matter

 how 

good 

the trill 

feels 

fo' real 

we still 

have to control 

our...

 sex-appeal 

WHAT IN THA WORLD GIRL? (SHEVY, WHAT'S THE 411?)

   

GIRL
you been
really showin' up 
in my daily conversations
yeah and 
it's been really 
massin' wit' 
my inner foundation 
SH*T
QUIT
or 
tell me why 
as i laugh 
and cry 
am i 'bout to die?
or 
are you comin'
back 
on Jesus's back 
now, i would love that 
or 
else 
leave me 
by myself 
again 
yeah 
really 
rest 
in the wind 
my kin 
and stop 
wit' the silly pretend 
until God wills
my casket to drop 

Christian humans

 Girl,
we're not sisters 
we're not friends 
no, we're just 
two clouds 
flowin' in
the wind
yeah, 
tryin' not to
sin 
yeah 
'cause 
we're 
Christian humans 
yeah 
half love 
have ruins 
so whatcha doin'?
puttin' me doin' 
yeah
makin' me feel
like i should've...
been born 
or
even around 
this part of town 
but yet 
you want me 
to let 
you get 
close 
to the ones 
i love the most 
after you don'
 roast  me 
and boast about it 
GIRL. 
Fuhgeddaboudit

HELP ( HOPING EVERYDAY LAMNESS PASSES )

MAN
now i understand 
that i am more 
than a withered hand 
but  i can't 
seem to
 escape 
God's Palsy plan   
for my dreams 
of walking 
i mean 
yeah 
like butter pecan 
to ice cream 
i wanna run 
from 
my body 
acting dumb 
and 
scream 
i am 
a queen 
of 
many things 
yeah 
despite 
my plight 
and injured wings