God
i don't wanna die younger
no, i wanna die old
yeah, so please protect
my spirit
and save my soul
from the hot
and cold
of
Earth's fools gold
yeah
don't let it mold me
into something
i wasn't meant to be
yeah
don't let my clock...
stop
or me
to get knocked
off the...
family tree
Daddy
God
i wonder
if you never
lift
me
out of
this body
and make me
a walking hottie
will i still?
yearn to be
a normal naughty
woman
wanting to do
something
sweet
between
the sheets
with a king
of course
with me as
his queen
making him
sing and bring
with no
divorce
and
no remorse
God
i still
don't fully
understand
you will
but
i know
that it's not
run-of the- mill
trill
but i feel
like a fish
with no gills
yeah
just
drowning
in a sea of tears
while still
trying to smile
and face
my fears
grace
but
why?
does the water
have to taste
so freaky
bad
in this place
Heavenly Dad
yeah.
in Jesus Name
why?
must i
continuously
go through
pain
yeah God
what is?
the end-game
God
i wanna swim
in your hymns
and float
in your spiritual boat
and in your favor
Savior
now
and later
without coat
yeah i wanna be
remote
and filled
with
your will
and hope
yeah i wanna be
more
than just
a fixture
or
a picture
of
you
on the shore
yeah
i wanna
do
or
go through
the truth
as proof
that you are
no goof
or ruse
Lord
you see me
going through
the motions
bur i feel
like I'm really
drowning in the ocean
yeah Yeshua
i really need
a potion
or
some lotion
or
a notion
i
will
be
heavily compensated
for my try
before i die
yeah Father
please
reply
to
my spiritual knees
MAN
it's a shame
that people think...
that it's okay
to call me
out of name
shrink me down
to the ground
with their...
verbal pounds
yeah
when i already
in so much pain
about...
my physical frame
but
do they?
apologize
NO
even with...
tears in my eyes
as big as figs
or
mud pies
Man
today i learned
that your stomach
can really burn
and turn
like the world
yeah when i heard
those words
spoke
my heart broke
and my throat
chocked
because
i loved
the person
i thought of
like a dove
only to find
out
they are not
so kind
yeah
i was blind
and now wow
my mind
is
blown
yeah
i feel real
wrong
thinking they were...
a clone
of Christ
or
a picture of paradise
MAN
today is Sunday
but it feels like Monday
but what does that mean?
man
I'm so in-between
i wanna screen
but i still dream
of
any tomorrow
that comes my way
and
I'm very thankful
for today
yeah
the sunshine
the thoughts in my mind
and
the fine line
that is kind of...
blue and gray
what day is this?
it doesn't matter
i still exist
and the world
didn't shatter
so yeah
I'm in the latter
of the chatter
or
the noise
and i still
can hear
the will of God's voice
and choice
to have me be
so poetically free
yeah
key to key
pain to brain
yeah
when i write
i get excited
but
i feel wheel insane
behind the scenes
i
interally cry
and screem
because
i haven't
seen
many of dreams
come true
yeah like
layin'
next to
someone who
has made me
their boo
longterm
yeah
gimme that
heartburn
lesson learned
for a lifetime
with a glass of wine
and some sunshine
walking blind
with our cute
and kind
kids
yrah
i
can't die
until...
GOD'S WILL
replies
and
i can say
all the way
"LOOK WHAT GOD DID"
man, i think a lot
about my spot
in this world
yeah, i wish i was...
a diamond
but i need...
some more...
refining
yeah
some nickel and diming
just to be
a peal
or
a physically able
girl
with a...
sexy swirl
in my opinion
but God
gave me
dominion
so sadly
i have to write
to my dad
that i had
yeah the one
who really put me through
and made me mad
For many years
but yet and still
God's will
or
my dad's death
or
lack of breath
brings tears
to my eyes
but no surprise
yeah because
even with
his loveless sh*t
it is
very clear
that
it was
he
that brought me
here
with
my dear
momma
yeah
way before
all of
drama
