YELLOW & BLACK TAPE

 MAN
whenever i see 
yellow & black tape 
on tv 
it really makes
my insides 
ache
yeah
For God's Sake  
what is it gonna take? 
for all of the killing 
to stop 
around
 Earth's Clock
yeah 
please Lord 
no more 
wars
or 
Glocks
on any 
blocks 
or 
in any 
knocks 
on the door 
yeah 
Yeshua
no more bodies

hitting the floor

CHILL BUMPS

Dear Father

i'm stomped 

yeah i can't seem

to reach 

my dream 

or 

to get over

this shore's 

hump 

yeah 

i feel like 

a real 

chump 

yeah 

instead 

of 

a child  

who's Father

has conquered 

the wild 

blue yonder 

and 

down under 

with his bare

 hands

yeah 

while 

still on 

earthly land 

Man oh man oh man 

NO KNOTTING HILLS

Lord

my body is in knots 

and i can't tie...

 the knot

 God stop 

making me laugh

or 

making me grasp 

why

should i 

still, try 

or 

wheel by 

on this earthly sky 

without a guy

to ride 

by my side

or me 

as his bride 

JESUS;"S JUKEBOX

 MAN

i hear 

tick-tock 

of Christ's clock 

and the rock and roll 

Of Lazarus's tombless soul 

yeah,

 he is 

New-aged

 old school 

yeah

which is 

cool 

like Tupac 

yeah 

real hip hop 

to Jacob's leg 

which now 

moves and groves 

like a peg 

to the blues 

or 

a bop 

to the head 

yeah 

real food 

and bread 

on wax 

yeah 

just

kick-back 

and listen 

to all 

the different 

extensions 

of 

God's love

or 

The Gospel 

A KISS FROM MY BUCKET LIST

so i'm sittin' here 

almost in tears 

thinkin' about 

my 45 years 

on Earth 

and how 

i still hunger 

and thirst 

WOW

like a child 

to walk 

into a room 

and see

some wedding 

balloons 

meant 

for me 

yeah 

a lock 

snd key 

blowin'

 like tree 

and 

surrounded

and 

grounded 

by 

my 

friends 

and 

family 

DISPLAY WORDPLAY

 God, please confirm 

that my heartburn 

is 

not in-vain 

nor is 

my shame 

in 

my sit-u-a-tion 

yeah 

for always 

needing physical help 

from the entire 

nation 

or so 

it seems 

but father 

where are my dreams?\

i scream 

\yeah, 

wondering 

what does my life 

really mean,

 Jesus Christ 

yeah 

eventually 

with me 

dealing with

 Cerebral Palsy 

lead to you 

and Paradise 

Inspired by my life and John 9

NECK PILLOW

i forgive you 

yeah

for all of the stuff 

you have 

put me through 

yeah 

making me feel 

real dark blue 

or 

like a screw 

caught in a hole 

or 

some bread 

with some mold 

yeah 

I'm lettin' go

so 

i can 

live 

a beautiful life 

with Christ

MY 11:22 BOO HOO

there's a pain in my neck 

filled with...

so many regrets 

but i won't let 

that 

get me down 

to ground 

yeah 

have me lost 

and never found 

but i will 

still 

cry 

tears of clown 

if i don't drown

first 

of 

thirst   

THE POWER of THE WRITTEN LETTER

so where do i 

begin friends 

my pen 

is not 

perfect 

but God's 

Word

either reed 

or  

heard 

is always 

worth it 

or

healing 

to every 

hurt 

feeling 

or

to every

demon 

we are

dealing with 

yeah so 

flip 

the light switch 

or 

change 

or

strange 

pitch 

in the ditch 

inspired by my life and THE BOOK of 1 Thessalonians & 2

WRESTLING IN PRAYER

 hey angels 

you see 

my body 

down here 

is 

your hurting 

like

it has been 

strangled 

or

mangled

by something 

stronger

than myself

yeah 

so, please

help

as i wept 

yeah 

because 

my love

i feel 

for real

that 

i am 

losing 

my breath 

DAMN 

AMEN

Inspired by my life and The Book of Colossians 

SCRATCHIN' MY HEAD

 look at me 
i'm constantly 
scratchin' my head
why 
because 
I'm 
not dead 
or 
still 
can't get 
myself 
out of bed 
yeah 
my blood 
is red 
and 
my body 
is flesh 
but 
I'm a wheel-mess 
so yeah 
i feel stressed 
yeah 
even when 
Heaven says 
I'm blessed 
to be 
me 
and 
human, baby 
yeah 
which is...
so crazy

FREE PRODUCE

GOD 

i'm not tryna 

speak 

weak 

or

subliminal  

but 

having 

cerebral palsy 

seems 

so criminal 

to my dreams

or 

cream 

yeah 

it's like  

no crops 

will ever 

grow 

top the top 

yeah 

so, please 

make it stop 

but not 

talkin' 

about 

my clock 

DEAR DIVINE

LORD

you know

 that i 

think about 

death 

all of the time

yeah, especially 

mine

yeah 

when 

is the sun 

not gonna shine 

for me 

but 

you also know 

i don't wanna be 

thinking about 

that 

fact 

no sir 

i wanna 

stay 

in the living 

way 

for as long 

as i can 

or 

for 

as long as 

your plan

allows 

yeah 

sincerely 

your child 

who has 

never ran 

a mile 

WOW 

I'M FEELING LIKE THE VICTIM OF A HATE CRIME pt 3

MAN
does Christ 
hate 
my life
because 
all i see
pertaining to me 
is 
Cerebral Palsy 
pain and shame 
and no 
paradise 
on it
but 
i 
before 
i die 
so 
want it 

I'M FEEING LIKE THE VICTIM OF A HATE CRIME pt 2

 MAN

my heart

wants 

to be a part 

of 

so many things 

yeah

i so 

wanna flap

my wings 

but 

most times 

when i do 

crap happens 

and 

i end up 

feeling blue 

and questioning 

rather out not 

God is

true 

I'M FELLING LIKE THE VICTIM OF A HATE CRIME pt 1

God
you don't give out 
spirits of fear
so please tell me 
why 
is 
fear 
yeah 
in my home 
yeah 
something is 
wrong 
and 
doesn't belong 
yeah 
and it's 
coming on strong 
and 
man 
i don't like 
it's tone 
or 
it's 
plan 
yeah 
i feel like 
I'm getting buried 
in the sand

by 

The Ku Klux Klan

NOAH'S ARKABSAS DROPPED JAW

Lord 
you know 
sometimes 
i feel 
for real 
that 
i am 
the only one 
disabled 
on
the Arkansas River Dam
 yeah 
gettin' slammed 
for 45 years 
on a bloat 
that really 
doesn't float 
but nope 
there is...
hope 
on a much 
bigger scope 
i just 
have to cope 
and wheel 
until 
i find 
another 
sufficient other 
left behind 
walking blind 
on Earth's sunshine 

THE 18Tth of NOVEMBER 1978

i was made 

by 

The Ace of Spades 

yeah 

which means 

i am a queen 

yeah 

i am  top-grade  

yeah 

i was 

laid out 

which means 

i am do 

for a shout or two 

or 

for something 

new 

yeah 

even when 

I'm feelin' blue 

i must trust 

and 

always 

remember 

the 18th of November 1978

MORE THAN A CIRCUS ACT

 MANE

my heart 

&

my brain 

are smart 

like an 

elephant 

yeah 

a lot 

of 

my body parts 

are 

heaven-sent 

yeah 

so 

please 

disregard 

my disable plight 

yeah 

because 

i just might 

still 

be able to 

heal 

or 

trill 

you 

ALL SAD EMOJI'S

God 

i can't 

take care 

of 

myself 

100%

but yet 

you say 

I'm Heaven-sent 

yeah, meaning 

no accident 

and 

angels singing 

but Lord 

down here 

i fear 

and 

tear up 

so where 

is 

my blessing 

or 

my good luck

 😩😫😱😭

Violins (WHERE IS THE LOVE)

MAN

i'm so tired 

of 

God's Plan

yeah

being 

disable 

i will never

 understand  

yeah 

no matter

how much 

my left-hand writes

i probably 

will never see 

His insight 

or 

His String 

on my kite 

to take flight 

of 

this bumblebee 

THE NOISE

i can't walk by myself 

but i still have 

breath

left 

in me 

to be 

sexually friendly 

but no one 

wants to fun 

because 

dammit 

i can't run 

AND MAN

what a bomber 

to have a hammer 

and not 

be able 

to stop

the noise 

??? pt3

 God 

i 

put in the work 

 but 

i still get hurt 

and dragged 

in the dirt 

yeah

how awful 

how sad 

yeah 

my heavenly dad 

but why

my apple pie

yeah 

the guy 

that cannot lie

??? pt 2

God 

why

do i 

have to 

be 

such 

and early

bird 

and 

why 

do i 

have to  

play 

with so many 

words 

every single 

today 

and 

if i may 

say

 why 

do i 

have to 

be 

single 

yeah

with 

such a big 

tingle 

to mingle 

Father

don't i

deserve 

to try 

wheel  romantic 

love 

before 

i die 

or

will i 

always 

have to 

 sit 

in this 

Cerebral pit

cryin' and sh?t

???

 God 

why do i 

have wake up 

so dang early 

and 

why do i 

have to be 

so freakin' girly

yeah Lord,

i'm already 

sweet 

but 

my body 

is 

still weak 

and 

my heart 

has been 

meek 

yeah 

even though 

my life 

yeah 

even with You 

Christ 

and 

Your sacrifice 

has been 

bleak  

so Father 

as Your daughter 

let's get deep

yeah, listen

when wheel

 my mission 

be 

through

with me 

or 

complete  

THE VENGEANCE (THE NERVE OF YOU)

no more 

murder music 

no more 

worshiping war

or 

evening up 

the score 

of life 

yeah 

those things 

should only be

handle by 

God's wings 

yeah 

if you bring 

a scandal

and he 

will 

make you 

be still 

or 

burn you

with 

his candle   

Inspired by my life and Romans 12

$1.29

 so i had

a $1.29

to spend 

but God 

took that 

multiplied 

it back 

into the wind 

yeah 

let's begin 

with 

being kin 

or 

lovers and friends 

or 

seeds and fruits 

made 

from  The Root

of God

yeah life 

doesn't have to be

so hard

if you ask me 

or 

just wait

on 

The Great 

and see 

yeah 

bounty 

or 

overflow 

from  Head 

to toe

Inspired Tranformation Church song OVERFLOW cost and Genesis 1:29

MAN. CANCER IS NEVER THE ANSWER

Lord

i wish 

i had 

a cigarette  

to smoke 

yeah 

because 

having 

Cerebral Palsy joints 

ain't joke 

yeah and 

people

 always poking fun 

about 

how i can

 barely walk 

or

run

just makes me 

wanna shout 

I'M OUT 

I'M DONE 

FEELING LIKE A SLOPPY JOE ON A SUNDAY

So Father 

here i sit 

in this pit

called 

my body 

 and wishing 

i was

with someone 

who wanted 

to have some laughs 

yeah some fun 

and wanted 

to hold me too 

yeah 

when 

i just need a friend 

or 

feeling blue 

or 

red 

yeah 

wondering if...

i would be 

better of 

dead 

Based on my life and Genesis 37

JUST TO WALK AROUND

MAN

being handicapped 

is

hell

can't you tell?

yeah

even with...

God's water well 

i'm still

really

 thirsty 

to walk 

or 

fly by 

like 

a hawk 

in the sky 

but 

on ground 

yeah 

my flesh 

still wishes 

for 

the best 

yes 

which is 

just to walk around 

I PASS

  NOW

i don't know 

why 

God allows 

 his child 

not to 

smile 

for a little 

while 

or 

for 

miles and miles 

yeah 

big wheely

 style

yeah 

death 

is a pain

within  

itself 

yeah 

where 

not just 

that breath 

is 

gone 

but also

those 

hearts 

that are 

still 

beating 

strong 

yeah 

and 

with that being said 

that thought 

seems so wrong 

in my head

HOT PAD

 hey, 

Heavenly Dad

my personal oven 

needs 

some lovin' 

yeah 

my stomach 

is 

about plummet 

or 

vomit 

yeah 

one of 

the two

yeah 

Dad 

my insides 

are sad 

and blue 

THE HORN SECTION

 MAN

There's a warmth 

in my 

pants 

that just wants 

a chance 

to dance 

or 

to play 

for someone 

today 

yeah 

and maybe 

then 

yeah 

after some sin 

i will be okay 

EARTH'S EGYPT

 good morning,

 Gravity

please 

don't let be

in 

the cavity 

of 

this culture 

yeah 

gobbled up 

by vultures 

yeah 

please 

don't let me become

prey 

today 

yeah 

let me slay 

Goliah

BLOODY BLESSED

 DAMN

Abraham 

i wanna be 

just 

like 

you 

yeah 

pushing 

nations 

through 

my body 

yeah 

the result

of 

naughty 

or 

loved 

by 

the dove 

with 

no glove 

on 

yeah 

just 

a human song  

that lives 

to play on 

as a child 

WOW

just the thought 

of 

this 

makes me smile 

PAUSE X PALSY

 damn 

society 

loves to 

slam 

me down 

to the ground 

yeah 

because 

i can't 

move around 

like 

they do 

yeah 

which 

makes me 

feel real

gray and blue 

yeah 

this much 

is true

to form 

and causes 

me 

so much 

harm 

in my already 

storm 

Ezer

 God

i so

wanna know 

where to go 

from here

yeah 

as I'm drowning 

in my sorrows 

and hoping for tomorrow 

on borrowed time 

yeah 

while wishing i could...

walk a mile 

crack a smile 

have a child 

or 

just rewind 

to a day 

where  life 

was better 

than okay 

or 

fine

yeah 

where people 

were kind 

to me 

and 

i 

felt 

able & free 

WOW, WHERE IS THE LIFEGUARD?

 Lord

i'm dying 

inside

yeah 

the longer 

i ride 

with 

this 

Cerebral Palsy 

Sh*t 

i wanna quit 

but 

The Quantum Leap 

Who Doesn't Sleep 

says 

"No"

i can't go 

so 

i must 

trust 

and 

flow 

like 

water 

yeah 

just be 

a daughter 

that floats 

and 

copes 

and 

just searches 

for hope 

or 

a rope 

to dock 

or 

to make 

the pain 

 stop 

by 

the shore 

or 

in my core 

THA KINDA HUMAN I AM

 tha kinda human i am 

damn 

i hate it 

yeah 

i wake up 

most days 

feeling 

very frustrated 

at 

The Father 

for letting 

this here daughter 

feeling like such 

a bother 

all the way around 

yeah 

being constantly 

put down 

lower than the ground 

but God says

I'm found 

yeah 

when 

i feel 

as though 

i have 

no glow

(God's love over wheels)

I HATE BEIN' H.U.M.A.N.

NOW

what was God 

really doin' 

when he made me 

great and human 

handicap  

unable to move 

and 

navigate 

my physical state 

of 

body 

now 

I'm not bein' 

naughty

I'm just sayin' 

and prayin' 

that one day 

when i lay 

down 

i will wake up 

with a healed 

cerebral crown 

walking around 

in the field of gold 

Yes Lord, 

have mercy 

on my soul

BEEP BEEP

MAN

my flash is on fire 

yeah i have 

so many sexual desires 

and i wanna go higher 

but 

I'm single 

with a tingle 

in my pants 

that really wants to dance

but sadly

because 

i can't run  

no one  

wants to give me 

a  chance 

or have some 

fun 

with 

naked romantic 

FLARE

MAN 

i've been in love 

twice 

but 

I'm still

alone 

so i must've 

done somthin' 

wrong 

because 

no pardise slice 

yeah 

no reason to

coo 

or laugh 

at a boo

i don't have

in this season   

and 

God why?

is that 

yeah 

as i cry 

lookin' back 

at 

that fact 

MAN 

y'all don't understand 

weepon' and writin' 

is 

WACK

HELLO CROSS

 hello Cross

i'm really lustful 

and lost 

so toss 

the thoughts 

that get caught 

in my mental vault 

on the wood 

yeah 

please God

make me feel good 

and understand 

in the upper room 

yeah please pop 

my fleshly balloons

soon 

Love Always 

Monique Antoinette 

soaking wet