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Tuesday, September 17, 2024

X RATED@45

my flesh 

is not 

a mess 

just because 

i wanna flex

i wanna sex 

i wanna love 

no

it's a mess 

'cause i guess 

whenever i do 

get a boo

yeah 

my dream 

come true 

oooo

i care 

if he grabs 

my hair 

in sin 

yeah 

before 

our marriage 

begin 

Monday, September 16, 2024

SO WHEN DID I BECOME THE WHEELCHAIR FAIRY?

God 

you may have given me breath 

but i did this to myself 

yeah 

taught people 

how to treat me

and then 

to hurt me deeply 

without a try 

and without 

a decent alibi 

or 

a good lie 

and when 

my so-called 

friend 

make me cry 

why 

do i 

always seem 

to dismiss 

my dreams 

and quiet 

my screams 

and let them 

off the hook 

and i just go 

write another book 

 

Sunday, September 15, 2024

ANOTHER SINGLE TEAR

LORD

sometimes 

it seems 

that my dreams 

don't matter 

and so 

my heart beats 

and shatters 

while praying 

for the latter 

or 

my happily ever 

after

yeah 

with joy 

and laughter 

yeah 

before i die 

or 

cry 

another single tear 

on Earth 

yeah i want 

these words 

to be heard 

like bird 

worth the wait 

of

my fate 

or 

me 

standing 

in front of 

Heaven's gate 

inspired by my life Psalm 56:8. Luke 6:21

  

LADIES NIGHT OUT

MAN

my desires 

are on 

fire

yeah 

my dreams 

are 

screaming so loud 

that it is

 starting to 

cloud my judgment 

about what was 

and what wasn't 

BUT GOD

doesn't 

take it away 

yeah, 

no matter how much 

i pray 

my desire 

to perspire 

 stays 

like glaze 

on a cake 

but i 

can't even 

get a date 

let alone 

a mate 

Friday, September 13, 2024

AND I STILL CAN'T WALK...?

God 
why do u allow
your servant child's    

 feet 

not to smile 
and beat 
on the concrete 
for miles and miles 
yeah 
so many 
tests 
so many trails 
and i still 
have these 
wheels 
and this 
bumpy land 
with no man 
to hold my hand 
or 
my heart 
yeah so 
I'm beggin' 
for some 
new leggings 
or 
a fresh start 
yeah with all 
the breath 
that i have 
left
before my death 
yeah 
because 
master of love
i still can't walk?

A QUIET STORM PERFORMANCE ( DREADLOCKS 45)


 

RATED RX 45

i woke up alone

 again 

Lord, 

when will 

this pain

 end

 yeah, 

i don't wanna 

sin

but i can't 

pretend 

any longer 

yeah 

this desire 

is gettin' 

strong 

yeah 

wantin' 

to be

in a relationship 

is 

a total trip 

but boy oh boy 

how i  wanna slip 

and take 

yeah 

even if 

i die 

of heartbreak 

Thursday, September 12, 2024

UNDER MY FEELINGS

i wish 

i could 

be with you 

for good 

again 

yeah i wish 

that we 

could be 

more than 

friends 

oh, why?

did you & i end 

yeah, 

i wonder 

as i go under 

my feelings 

yeah,

dealing with 

what I'm...

 dealing with

but there seems 

to be 

no off-switch  

to my dreams 

and oh  

how i wish

that i didn't 

have to

 write this 

yeah 

that i could 

live-out 

the life

i see 

as paradise 

to me

yeah 

my Earth's Eternity     

Wednesday, September 11, 2024

MY HANDICAP SIGHT

okay maybe 

i wasn't meant 

to be 

somebody's

 lady 

or 

to have someone's 

baby 

but why?

yeah, as i cry

myself 

to sleep at night 

with no one 

to hold me  

tight 

yeah snd 

it's all because 

of 

my handicap sight 

that i 

can't even 

get a try 

at romantic love 

MAN

GOD'S PLAN 

HURTS 

LIKE A METAL

 GLOVE 


HEY, WHAT'S UP WITH ALL THESE ROAD BLOCKS?

 God 

are you waiting?

for my body 

to die 

to still me 

why

i was 

or am 

single 

DAMN

yeah feelin' 

closed off 

like a  clam 

in the sea 

yeah with 

no one 

to mate 

with me 

or 

choose 

to uses 

me 

as 

a thing of  beauty 

around their neck 

yeah 

neglect  neglect 

that's 

how i feel 

for real 

being still 

single 

with tingle 

and strong desire 

to not be 

alone 

and to mingle 

yeah 

at age 45 

I'm still 

alive 

but

no one 

seems 

to wanna drive 

The Psalm of My Life ( The Sum of My Life)

man

God made me 

to be 

in this body 

yeah 

for good 

and not for naughty 

but 

i still yearn 

to be somebody's

 heartburn

yeah 

a hottie 

with 

a Tottie

or 

some tongue 

with 

rum 

yeah 

who wants 

to 

feel 

on my

 bum 

for real 

and 

wants to 

stay 

for the sunny 

and the grey 

inspired by my life and psalm 23

Monday, September 9, 2024

EVERY 11 MINUTES (988)

your spirit wants to live 
so give your breath a chance 
to do a life dance 
yeah 
have a romance 
or 
a loving glance 
for a lifetime 
yeah
because 
suicide 
is something 
that you cannot 
hide 
or 
rewind 
so be kind 
to sunshine 
in the sky 
and honor 
The Most High's 
plan 
by 
staying here 
on Earth
my dear

Sunday, September 8, 2024

THE WEEK of THE WEAK

sins 
love to come
 in  
on a Sunday 
and
 man  
repentance 
loves to show up 
on a Monday
morning 
yeah 
before 
you're
 yawning 
and 
the sky 
is storming 
yeah 
the real 
global warming 
performing 
on the inside 
and 
the out 
yeah ooh 
it makes me wanna 
shout 
like a trout 
on a hook
but instead 
my spiritual 
writes books 
that looks 
like 
my life 
yeah 
the sugar 
and 
the spice 


Saturday, September 7, 2024

BEGGING for OR....

please 

come in 

my skin 

or 

touch 

my flesh 

with

your best 

yeah 

put my body 

into

some 

 naughty rest

yeah 

make me feel

real

blessed 

yes 

i must confess 

that 

my insides 

can

 no longer 

hide 

destess 

Friday, September 6, 2024

STILL?... NO WHEEL ...FIREWORKS TONIGHT?

god 

fridays are 

so freakin' hard

for me 

yeah 

'cause i so 

wannabe 

romantically 

involve  

yeah 

i wanna 

do it all 

yeah

 get the calls

get the dates 

and 

the sex 

on the plate 

yeah 

i can't wait 

but boy, 

how i hate 

this single state  

A CAUSE for REFLECTION

now could this be 

the last of me

on Earth 

 now only 

God knows first 

yeah if this is 

my last verse 

unrehearsed 

yeah my last wonder 

of thunder 

under 

the surface 

of 

my purpose 

or 

my palsy 

yeah should 

my last statement 

be real good 

and 

ballsy 

Wednesday, September 4, 2024

ON MY CEREBRAL PALSY FRAME

I've been in love 

a time or two 

yeah

but only GOD 

really knows 

with who 

yeah 

it's true 

and 

my heart is 

still blue 

because 

they love 

wasn't the same

and 

my last name 

has never changed 

and dang 

i blame 

this singleness 

and 

the reason 

for me 

feeling pissed 

on 

my cerebral palsy frame  

mane

A BEAUTIFUL PLANT

every time  

i rhyme 

the sun shines

yeah

with every verse 

i break 

every curse  

that's been rehearsed 

over my shoulder 

yeah 

in the eyes of 

the boulder 

my pouts 

are welcome

to come out 

yeah even  

in a shout 

or 

a rant 

my thoughts 

turn into 

a beautiful plant 

with a slant 

Have you considered my servant Monique?

mmm

something to consider 

i am no quitter 

 or 

just a random pick 

of 

the litter 

and man 

I'm sick of 

the lack of 

romantic love 

yeah 

where's my 

turtle doves 

or 

my crown 

down 

here 

yeah 

to make up for 

all of 

the tears

 i have endured 

over the years 

and through 

the woods 

and oftentimes

not feelings 

so good 

with what
 i'm dealing 

with 

in my heart 

in my mind 

or

in my rhymes

  inspired by my life and The Book of Job

Saturday, August 31, 2024

The w h e e l definition of cerebral

 I was chosen by the most high so even if I Cry with every try my reason for being in this season will never die yeah this means that God dreams will always multiply yeah even if I'm not physically here anymore or I never get to walk through and Earthly door at my core I was made for More for sure

Friday, August 30, 2024

SHERM (NO LESSON LEARNED)

OOO

you

 & me 

was supposed 

to be 

like love 

& basketball 

was 

at the end 

or 

at least 

at peace 

with being 

best friend

with no 

sexual 

sin 

BUT NO\

you had to go 

and get on 

drugs 

and now 

WOW 

just thought of 

you

and things 

you are 

putting 

your earthly wings

through...

MAN

my eyes 

need plugs 

to  hold 

all of 

 the tears 

and wasted 

years 

of 

gifts 

and talents 

taken for 

granted 

that you 

could 

give 

and do 

good 

on this planet 

Thursday, August 29, 2024

BUT MY HAND WORKS JUS' FINE? (SMH)

 a human 

have over

200 bones 

by why

do i 

still feel 

really alone 

yeah 

like i don't 

belong 

or 

have an earthly 

or

 a heavenly home 

to go to 

when i''m feelin' 

blue 

or goin' through 

the su' 

of  

depression 

yeah 

the ongoing 

life lesson 

that has me 

sittin' here stressin' 

while still waitin' 

on a blessin' 

as a child 

of God 


OOOWEE C.P.

God 

please help me 

turn the page 

off  this rage 

and 

stop letting 

this cerebral palsy 

situation 

take center stage 

yes Lord 

i so need 

a break 

from this heartache 

or 

this handicap crap 

or 

this slap 

in the face 

or 

this bitter taste 

in the mouth 

for this girl 

down south 

that feels 

like a real  louse 

sometimes 

but then 

here comes 

a friend 

or 

my electronic pen 

or 

my rhymes 

from the wind 

Wednesday, August 28, 2024

THE POWER of A CALL

 i got a call 

but i don't know all 

that it holds 

yeah 

there are some secrets 

that are still  

yet to be told 

yeah 

just hidden 

in God's heart gold 

yeah 

the one 

who made my mold 

from top to bottom 

and then 

 dropped me 

on Earth 

on a cold autumn day

but with the gift

to uplift 

with wordplay 

yeah 

come what may 

blue or grey 

i will be okay 

as long as 

stay 

by the phone  

Tuesday, August 27, 2024

OUTDOOR DOWNPOUR

father come here 

and whisper  

something

 so clear 

that the deers 

would mistake 

my intake 

as water

yeah 

please 

download 

to your 

daughter 

yeah 

help me 

drink

from your

 sink 

and 

tell me 

exactly 

what you think 

yeah without a blinl

in sight 

yeah please 

let me 

that it so 

gonna be 

alright 

Sunday, August 25, 2024

BE KIND to ME and CEREBRAL PALSY

so i

 exist 

for

much more 

than 

to shi*t

and to pi$$

yes i am   

on God's list 

of z beautiful  mist 

in the air 

yeah 

and  I'm 

much more 

than your idea 

of 

an eyesore 

with long hair 

yeah 

my core 

is

love 

my core 

is 

care 

yeah 

this i 

swear 

but it's fine 

that you don't like 

wiping my behind 

but you could 

at least be kind 

until 

my wheels 

rest in peace 


i

VISAULIZING YOU NAKED

MAN

you look good 

in the skin 

that you are in 

how does the wind? 

feel for real

yeah 

in the still

 of the night 

i wish 

that you would 

gimme a kiss 

that sends me 

oooowee 

into 

total bliss 

baby 

but do you think?

i look good 

in the neck 

of the wood 

or 

naked in my frame 

in Jesus name 

Friday, August 23, 2024

CAN I BE FOUND?

God

why 

must i 

only have

laughs

 and thoughts

yeah 

no try 

no guy 

no actions   

yeah 

no sexual satisfaction 

yeah 

what happened 

to my chance 

at romance 

i mean 

don't i 

deserve

to 

scream 

for joy

about my dreams

and prance around

on this earthly ground 

yeah Lord

can i be found  

TO : CLIMAX WITH NO TAKE BACK

i'm listening to 

Maxwell 

on Spotify 

wishing u 

would 

stop by 

and do more 

than 

just walkthrough

 my door 

and say hi 

yeah 

i wish 

your body 

would kiss 

me 

real good 

and stay 

all the way 

'till the next day 

yeah 

just love

all of 

my nightmares    

away 

yeah 

make 

my bellyache 

go 

from darkness 

and hardness 

to a beautiful glow 

that only 

the lonely 

understands 

man

Thursday, August 22, 2024

POSTER CHILD

WOW

i am 

a poster child 

for 

C.P.

but i don't wanna be 

but the almighty 

choice me 

yeah i was 

picked 

off of 

the heavenly family tree 

yeah 

to live earthly 

and honest 

yeah 

to be 

in his (will. wheel)

and be healed 

in his promised paradise 

yeah 

here  i stand 

in his plan 

for you 

not so nice 

people 

yeah 

yeah y'all 

in and out 

the steeple 

Wednesday, August 21, 2024

SOME HOT BUTTERED RUM

MAN

i can't 

really walk 

or run 

but that

 doesn't mean 

i don't wanna 

sexually scream 

or 

someone 

to eat my plum 

yeah 

to make me cum 

like 

some hot buttered rum 

THE CEREBRAL CHURCH AT WORK

we are eve

we are adam 

yeah i know 

we can't even 

phantom  

being apart 

of 

a heart 

and 

a rip 

yeah 

you and i 

without a try 

have first dibs 

on heaven and earthly 

cribs 

yeah 

all of our real estate 

is 

meant to be 

great

and 

our plates 

are

 meant to be

 full 

of 

meals 

for real 


Monday, August 19, 2024

45 NORTH of HEAVEN

i  wanna be 

more

like Jesus

yeah

holy 

solely 

not moldy 

or

scolding 

or

controlling 

yeah 

just lovey dovey 

in a covey 

still waiting 

on a hubby 

as a  human 

yeah 

while doing 

the works of ...

God's child 

yeah 

mile after mile 

and 

smile after smile 

STEEPLE PEOPLE

 MAN

people don't understand 

just how much 

God's hand 

is 

on me too

yeah and  

that's why 

i cry '

mist blue 

yeah because 

of 

you people

and your 

lack of love  

yeah 

the ones 

who claim 

to be 

from the steeple 

in Jesus name 

yeah are

the ones 

by far

who inflicted 

the most pain 

yeah 

what a shame 

Thursday, August 15, 2024

A REAL SEXUAL EX-CHANGE

TRUST

i have many

 lustful  thoughts 

that make me wanna 

you know what?

bust a nut 

BUT

Christ says 

cut that out

but LORD

i so wanna 

SHOUT 

for joy 

with an adult boy 

yeah 

no need for toys 

just us 

and love 

and 

no need 

for gloves 

just my last name 

to change 

for a real ....

sexual excchange 

How embarrassing?

God 

i still wish 

for a romantic kiss 

 when will i stop?

wanting this 

to exist 

yeah 

lip to lip 

or 

some tougne tip slip 

dipped in love 

and passion 

yeah 

no need 

for speed 
or ration 

No,and

brcause i have 

been wating 

and intisapating 

with laughs 

while trying 

to grssp

why a guy?

won't reply 

and

 why do i?     Constantly cry         at age 45           I'm alive     but I feel so dead not being w e d or nobody in my bed

Tuesday, August 13, 2024

11181978

God 
why am i living 
in this prison 
yeah 
cerebral palsy county 
being hunted 
by bounty 
load of things 
but yet 
i still  have 
a laugh 
and 
a will 
to sing 
to you my King
yeah 
what does this mean?
is it all a dream?
and i just can't seem 
to wake my body up
or 
to break 
my body out 
yeah 

internally  scream 
cry, 
and shout 


Sunday, August 11, 2024

AIRBRUSHED

trust 

the hue 

on all of us 

is

airbrushed  

yeah 

i swear 

that even 

the color 

of 

our hair 

is 

supposed to be,,,

 there 

or 

that way 

yeah 

no wordplay 

so embrace 

the grey 

on your face 

that was...

placed 

by grace

and not for...

race  



Friday, August 9, 2024

NOTHING BUT THE BLUES AND THE CHOICES U CHOOSE

so 
what gives you 
the right 
to mess up my day 
and ruin my night 
yeah 
and take a bite 
of my soul 
and to lie 
on my life 
that Chtist 
has already 
written 
and told 
yeah 
how cold 
is that 
fact 
or 
wggda wiggda

 wack 
but saddy 
no take backs 
yeah 
the damage 
has already 
been done 
it just...
sucks 
that my feet 
can't run 
a maratthon 

Wednesday, August 7, 2024

Augh-Ugh

MAN

i have already  

been through 

hell 

with being 

handicapped  

so 

i don't need 

your added-on

crap 

yeah 

to make 

my heart 

break 

or 

my lungs 

to 

collapse 

Tuesday, August 6, 2024

THE NERVE OF THEM

MAN
some words 
really hurt
yeah
they make me feel 
lower than dirt 
yeah 
i want to go
berserk 
but 
guess what? 
the bible 
says 
no
yeah 
i must 
trust 
and 
flow
in God's glow 
yeah
which means 
that 
i must 
always  speaks 
like a queen 
even when 
i feel 
weak 
and 
cut really

 deep 
yeah
my will 
must be 
still 
or 
chill
or 
take 

a backseat 
to keep 
my peace 
and 
for 
righteousness 
to be 
released
 

Saturday, August 3, 2024

FRIENDLESS?

Jesus Christ 

why 

do i 

keep seein' 

caskets 

yeah 

why 

does life 

have to be

so drastic 

yeah man 

i understand 

that people 

aren't made of...

plastic 

but yet and still 

why are we allowed 

to feel 

real...

 feelings 

and have...

laughs 

and dealings 

only 

to be 

left 

with 

no breath 

or 

just friendless 

yeah 

all by ourselves 

SEX-APPEAL

HEY

it is 

never okay 

to  sin 

or 

go against 

the wind 

yeah 

never matter

 how 

good 

the trill 

feels 

fo' real 

we still 

have to control 

our...

 sex-appeal 

Thursday, August 1, 2024

WHAT IN THA WORLD GIRL? (SHEVY, WHAT'S THE 411?)

   

GIRL
you been
really showin' up 
in my daily conversations
yeah and 
it's been really 
massin' wit' 
my inner foundation 
SH*T
QUIT
or 
tell me why 
as i laugh 
and cry 
am i 'bout to die?
or 
are you comin'
back 
on Jesus's back 
now, i would love that 
or 
else 
leave me 
by myself 
again 
yeah 
really 
rest 
in the wind 
my kin 
and stop 
wit' the silly pretend 
until God wills
my casket to drop 

Christian humans

 Girl,
we're not sisters 
we're not friends 
no, we're just 
two clouds 
flowin' in
the wind
yeah, 
tryin' not to
sin 
yeah 
'cause 
we're 
Christian humans 
yeah 
half love 
have ruins 
so whatcha doin'?
puttin' me doin' 
yeah
makin' me feel
like i should've...
been born 
or
even around 
this part of town 
but yet 
you want me 
to let 
you get 
close 
to the ones 
i love the most 
after you don'
 roast  me 
and boast about it 
GIRL. 
Fuhgeddaboudit

HELP ( HOPING EVERYDAY LAMNESS PASSES )

MAN
now i understand 
that i am more 
than a withered hand 
but  i can't 
seem to
 escape 
God's Palsy plan   
for my dreams 
of walking 
i mean 
yeah 
like butter pecan 
to ice cream 
i wanna run 
from 
my body 
acting dumb 
and 
scream 
i am 
a queen 
of 
many things 
yeah 
despite 
my plight 
and injured wings 

Tuesday, July 30, 2024

FOREVER YOUR LITTLLE GIRL

God  

i don't wanna die younger 

no, i wanna die old 

yeah, so please protect 

my spirit

and save my soul 

from the hot 

and cold 

of 

Earth's fools gold 

yeah 

don't let it mold me 

into something 

i wasn't meant to be 

yeah 

don't let my clock...

stop

or me 

to get knocked 

off the...

family tree 

Daddy 


 

Sunday, July 28, 2024

THE DEATH of MY BIRTH ( AT LEAST 2 OUT OF 7)

DAMN
sin
is
all in 
my fleshly 
sin
yeah 
like sky 
and wind 
i can't 
pretend 
again and again 
that
I'm not human 
yeah 
so what
I'm doin' 
pursuing 
the ruins 
of 
the earth
yeah 
slowly 
causin' 
the death of my birth  

Saturday, July 27, 2024

MOANS FOR MORE REASONS THAN 1

God

i wonder

if you never 

lift 

me 

out of 

this body 

and make me 

a walking hottie 

will i still?

yearn to be 

a normal naughty 

woman 

wanting to do 

something 

sweet 

between 

the sheets

with a king 

of course 

with me as 

his queen 

making him 

sing and bring 

with no 

divorce 

and 

no remorse 



Tuesday, July 23, 2024

A THOUSAND SORRIES

flesh 
i messed 
up 
with you 
again 
 yeah 
my fair-weather-friend 
but when?
will this 
cycle
end
yeah 
no, pretend 
or 
sin 
just end 
 like a kin's 
breath 
left 
on the shelf 
of heaven 
yeah
24/7
365
yeah
just death 
but 
feeling 
so alive 

Thursday, July 18, 2024

FLOODED & GUTTED

God

i still 

don't fully 

understand 

you will 

but 

i know 

that it's not 

run-of the- mill

trill 

but i feel 

like a fish 

with no gills 

yeah 

just 

drowning 

in a sea of tears 

while still 

trying to smile 

and face 

my fears 

grace 

but 

why?

does the water 

have to taste 

so freaky 

bad 

in this place

Heavenly Dad 

yeah. 

in Jesus Name 

why?

must i 

continuously 

go through 

pain 

yeah God 

what is?

the end-game

Wednesday, July 17, 2024

H*M=ENTERGY 74

Daddy
my insides 
are different 
since
 your breath 
left 
my dreams 
of 
hearing us 
scream 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
74 times 
but 
guess what 
Dad 
you are 
still celebrating 
in heavenly sunshine 
yeah 
even though 
I'm sad 
because 
of 
my love 
and 
you left us
Behind

Tuesday, July 16, 2024

FICKLE

i keep waking up last night 
yeah, something something, 
just ain't right 
but i'm still...

 a lady 
on a daily 
yeah 
even though 
this cerebral...

 PALSY LIFE 
is so...
crazy 
to my brain 
yeah, almost 
insane 
like a candy cane 
and a pickle 
DANG,
my pain 
is so...
fickle 

Sunday, July 14, 2024

BLUE SUNDAY

 God 

i wanna swim 

in your hymns 

and float 

in your spiritual boat 

and in your favor 

Savior 

now 

and later 

without coat 

yeah i wanna be 

remote 

and filled 

with

 your will 

and hope 

yeah i wanna be 

more 

than just 

a fixture 

or 

a picture 

of 

you 

on the shore

yeah 

i wanna 

do 

or 

go through 

the truth 

as proof 

that you are 

no goof 

or ruse 


Thursday, July 11, 2024

HEAVILY COMPENSATED

Lord

you see me 

going through 

the motions 

bur i feel 

like I'm really 

drowning in the ocean 

yeah Yeshua 

i really need 

a potion 

or 

some lotion 

or 

a notion 

will 

be 

heavily compensated 

for my try 

before i die 

yeah Father 

please 

reply 

to

my spiritual knees 

Wednesday, July 10, 2024

IT'S NOT

MAN

it's a shame 

that people think...

that it's okay

to call me 

out of name 

shrink me down

to the ground 

with their...

verbal pounds 

yeah

when i already 

in so much pain 

about...

 my physical frame 

but 

do they?

apologize

NO 

even with...

tears in  my eyes 

as big as figs 

or 

mud pies 

Monday, July 8, 2024

D.A.M.N. (DON'T ASK MY NEIGHBOR

Man

today i learned 

that your stomach

can really burn 

and turn 

like the world 

yeah when i heard 

those words 

spoke 

my heart broke 

and my throat 

chocked 

because 

i loved 

the person 

i thought of 

like a dove 

only to find 

out 

they are not 

so kind 

yeah 

i was blind 

and now wow 

my mind 

is 

blown 

yeah 

i feel real 

wrong 

thinking they were...

a clone 

of Christ 

or 

a picture of paradise 

MOR-TAL-I-TY

so God, give me a breath
to be myself 
yeah 
until 
all is still  
and there's...
no more will
yeah  my body 
is cold 
but my soul 
is warm 
yeah 
away from harm 
and from all of...
these sit-u-a-tion storms 
that i have 
had to perform 
like it was
 the norm  
and i wasn't sad 
at all 
but my Heavenly Dad 
said 
"Duty Calls"

in me 

Sunday, July 7, 2024

BUT WHAT IS TODAY ... REALLY TRYINA SAY ?

MAN

today is Sunday

but it feels like Monday 

but what does that mean?

man

I'm so in-between 

i wanna screen 

but i still dream 

of 

any tomorrow 

that comes  my way 

and 

I'm very thankful 

for today 

yeah 

the sunshine 

the thoughts in my mind 

and 

the fine line 

that is kind of...

blue and gray   

NO CALENDAR IN SIGHT

 what day is this?

it doesn't matter 

i still exist 

and the world 

didn't shatter 

so yeah 

I'm in the latter 

of the chatter 

or 

the noise 

and i still 

can hear 

the will of God's voice 

and choice 

to have me be 

so poetically free 

yeah 

key to key 

pain to brain 

yeah 

when i write

i get excited 

but 

i feel wheel insane 

Saturday, July 6, 2024

BEHIND THE SCENES

behind the scenes 

i

 interally cry

 and screem 

because 

i haven't 

seen 

many of dreams 

come true 

yeah  like 

layin' 

next to 

someone who 

has made me 

their boo 

longterm 

yeah 

gimme that 

heartburn 

lesson learned 

for a lifetime 

with a glass of wine 

and some sunshine 

walking blind 

with our cute 

and kind 

kids 

yrah 

can't die 

until...

GOD'S WILL

replies 

and 

i can say 

all the way 

"LOOK WHAT GOD DID"