WANTS, NEEDS, AND DESIRES

MAN

my heart 

wants 

to be '

apart 

of 

the sun 

and 

my feet 

wants 

to sho'nuff 

walk 

and 

yeah 

no cap 

no con 

yeah

that's 

the kinda fun

my flesh 

wants 

to have 

yeah 

besides 

making love 

and 

laughs 

before 

i pass

AT THE DARKEST TIME

Man

the nighttime 

adds 

so much 

sadness 

to my rhyme 

but 

the post 

in me 

thinks 

that's fine 

yeah 

if 

the human 

in me 

feels 

very lonely 

and 

left behind 

my gift 

sho' do 

love to

 grind 

up 

my heart 

and 

mind 

at the darkest time 

STAY IN THE MOMENT

 WOMAN

stay in the moment 

tomorrow 

i know you 

want it 

but 

stay in the moment 

yeah 

do not borrow 

despite your sorrow 

yeah 

stay right here 

my dear 

yeah

despite  

your fears 

tears

and 

disable years 

let's be clear 

I AM 

STILL 

REAL 

AND 

NEAR 

SO 

JUST WAIT 

AND 

BE 

GRATEFUL 

IN 

THIS 

PRESENT  TIME 

OF

 RHYME 

A YEAR... FROM...NOW

 MAN

i can't wait to walk 

outside 

and to become

a bride 

ni i can't hide 

my feelings 

inside 

so crush 

on me 

yeah 

let me be 

your wife 

yeah 

take my hand 

as i stand 

and lead 

us 

into paradise 

Brutha Christ 

AM I TOO OLD?

 God

am i 

too old 

to date 

or 

to wait 

for something 

great 

to be 

put on 

my plate 

at this state 

yeah 

so help Christ

just give me 

a slice 

or 

some 

good  advice 

yeah 

that would be 

nice 

amen 

p.s. 

if i don't understand 

your best 

before i rest 

HI, WHAT COLOR IS THE SKY?

 MAN

i really don't like 

my height 

or 

my single 

lonely nights

but i don't have

 a kite  

to fly 

away 

today 

SO

my heart 

stay 

blue &gray

like clay 

yeah

good and hard 

until 

God's will

pull me 

apart 

and 

reshapes 

my state 

of 

mind

and 

then 

sends 

me out 

into the wind

BLIND  

THE PERFECT PULSE

MANE

my veins 

are 

insane 

but 

my blood 

is 

the flood 

of 

Jesus 

yeah

trust 

my heart 

is 

a plus 

on 

this planet 

yeah 

now 

granted 

i do grieve 

but please 

believe 

i still 

will 

to try 

yeah 

until 

the day 

i pass 

away 

and die 

A GIFT AND A CURSE

           MAN

being able to write 

day and night 

is 

a gift 

and a curse 

yeah 

verse by verse 

i hunger  

and thirst 

for feelings 

unrehearsed 

to just 

BURST 

right out of me 

yeah 

wild like a child 

or 

peaceful and free 

like the sea 

NIGHTWALKER 11,27,2023

MAN
last night 
i dreamed  
yeah,
let me set the scene 
i watched 
myself 
walk
down the street 
on my own to feet 
and yeah 
I'm hi-fiving 
and people 
are really vibing 
yeah 
as I'm arriving 
yeah people 
to the left 
people to the right 
yeah man 
such a beautiful sight 
to see 
and it 
was me 
in some capacity 

MY OWN PRIVATE VIEW

MAN
life can be so mean 
yeah, 
it will just have  
sit here watching 
others 
living out 
your dreams 
of 
getting the cream
and fitting 
through doors 
yeah Father 
your daughter 
too 
wants 
to soar
from 
her core 
to more

MY KEITH SWEAT...

 Father \

this is 

my last time 

whining about 

wanting a man 

to hold my hand 

or 

my body 

now 

I'm not 

trying to 

just get 

naughty 

just want to be 

in a romantic relationship 

turned into 

a spouse 

with a house 

turned into 

a home 

yeah father 

this is 

 my last time 

asking for 

a daughter

and not 

to be alone 

yeah this is 

the last time 

you will hear me 

get 

my Keith Sweat 

on 

with my eyes 

wet 

COMMON DENOMINATOR

 so i guess 

i am 

the reason 

for my 

single season 

yeah no teasing 

or 

pleasing 

or 

romantic company 

do i see 

so 

obviously 

i 

must be 

the key 

to lonely 

but 

i am 

not 

a phony 

but 

still 

want to be 

a tender Roni 

yeah

despite 

a man's 

dislike  

for 

my disability 

GROWN BUT NOT SEXY

DAMN

there's no one 

waiting in bed 

to give me head 

or  

to make sure 

my body gets feed 

and so 

my eyes are red 

but 

I'm not dead 

I'm single 

yeah 

with a big appetite 

to mingle at night 

without the lights   

on

I'm i  wrong?

no. 

I'm just grown 

but 

alone 

HUMAN & NOT HANDICAPPED part 2

God 
made me 
like this 
BUT
i still 
desire 
a kiss 
or 
a hug 
or 
a rub
or 
more 
yeah 
just 
make sure
lock the door 
before 
you enter 
the center 
of my core 
 

HUMAN & NOT HANDICAPPED

Man 
i wanna be 
sexual
and 
look at 
as 
delectable  
yeah 
go ahead 
and
 bite me 
yeah 
love 
or 
like me
yeah 
excite me 
in that way 
night or day 
yeah
let's play 
or 
get serious 
and 
delirious 
at the same
yeah 
let's grind 
until 
our wills 
are 
still 
or 
we 
lose 
our 
minds

MOTHER & CHILD

CHILD

i would love to 

see you smile 

back at me 

constantly 

and 

eventually 

take my hand 

when you stand 

and 

call me mommy 

yeah 

that would be 

so yummy 

to my heart;'s 

tummy

yeah 

like

origami 

make me fold 

and 

make me whole   

HUSBAND & WIFE

 husband & wife 

yeah, 

i still 

want that kinda  life 

yeah 

even if 

it's jus' a slice 

yeah 

doesn't last very long 

but our feelings 

and our time 

together 

was very strong 

yeah 

very right 

day and night 

but not perfect 

but always worth it 

in the end 

yeah some real deal 

friends 

HEY 44

 hey 44

i'm about to close the door on you 

yeah, i hope i find something great and new 

to pursue 

yeah 

let this next door 

have more

 to soar to

and not to 

run from 

yeah 

45 candles 

i don;t won't 

any scandals 

to handle 

yeah, no

i just so 

wanna blow 

and

 be happy 

overall 

yeah

until 

Jesus  wills 

me

to 

come

back 

to 

the truth 

and 

then fact 

of 

Heaven 

yeah 

24/7

COLD SINGLE-LIFE

MAN

i'm too old 

to be still 

sittin' in the cold 

single-life 

yeah

i should've 

already been 

a wife 

yeah 

my age 

cuts me 

like a knife 

yeah 

slice 

by slice 

i yearn 

to have

 a turn of butter 

yeah 

a forever lover 

under the cover 

or 

a spouse 

in our house 

but Father 

please  

douse

somethin' 

on this fire 

if 

i can't 

shift 

or 

acquire 

my dire 

desire

MAKING A WISH

God 

i wish i had 

a birthday date 

waiting on me 

yeah 

romantically 

but no

i don't see 

anyone 

that wants 

to have fun 

with me 

on that day 

in that way 

so Christ

 what can i:say

or what can i do?

to convince you

that 

a human cake 

would be great 

or 

some eye-candy 

would be...

 dandy 

 

Worst-Case Scenario

MAN

i wonder 

if when 

i go under 

yeah 

sleep deep 

r.e.m. 

do i talk?

yeah 

do i?

 verbal cry

when i lie 

down

 at night 

yeah 

scream 

i mean

in a fright 

in my very 

dark

 dreams 

  

MY LIVING TESTIMONY

 God 

i wanna live 

not just 

be alive 

365

no

i  so

wannabe 

a success 

before 

you 

open op 

heaven's door 

and 

put me 

to rest 

yes

Christ 

i must 

confess 

that my

life now

WOW

it's such...

a stress 

test 

and 

i don't 

feel 

totally blessed

BUT LORD

you said 

i can 

ask you 

for anything 

yeah 

for as long as 

a pendulum 

swings

or 

when 

an angel

gets its' 

wings  

MY RAGE AGANIST CEREBRAL PALSY

 oh Jes'

if i could just get on my knees 

and pray 

yeah. just maybe this cerebral palsy 

would just go away 

yeah 

my guts 

would no longer feel grey

and people would wanna stay 

around me 

and make sure 

that I'm secure 

or good 

and would be 

so glad 

they found  me 

and wouldn't 

clown me 

but 

instead 

my head 

longs 

to be fed 

bread 

or

love 

yeah 

like a 

turtledove 

on Christmas  Eve 

but heavenly father

your daughter 

still needs 

to believe 

in somethin' real 

yeah, 

even as 

she grieves 

somethin' 

she neva had 

so bad   

BLUE FLAMES

Christ

i see you 

using 

my confusion 

and 

I'm 

choosing 

to learn

from

  every turn 

yeah 

even 

if 

my

life shifts 

and 

my heart 

burns 

blue flames 

in Jesus name

S,M.H, 44

Man

i'm too old 

to be alone 

yeah 

it's such 

a sad sad song

yeah 

that my heart 

don't have a home 

or 

someone 

to belong to 

or 

to say 

i do

yeah 

where are you?

'cause here i am

damn 

DEAR?

God

why?

do i 

still have 

a burning fire 

to acquire 

a relationship 

yeah 

a honey dip 

that slips 

his hand 

into mine 

yeah man 

i wanna walk 

blind 

in the sand 

yeah, 

just because 

we're in love 

and we can

but Father 

what's your plan?

for 

this here 

daughter 

and please 

be 

clear

will i ever? 

have a dear 

I AM SO CURIOUS ABOUT THE CURTAIN

Hey 

more and more 

i wanna go 

behind 

the door 

of 

Heaven 

yeah 

almost 

24/7

i wonder 

what is under

the veil

of 

Well

yeah Jueus 

do tell 

what is that smell?

is it salt?

is it water?

or

is it just your sons 

and daughters?

 

"COME OUT OF THE MAN"

God

i so want to...

run to you 

yeah 

walk right through 

and admire 

your fire 

yes Lord 

please let me be 

part of 

your choir 

yes 

let me go higher 

or 

come closer 

to your desire 

yeah

i don't wanna be 

a lier 

or 

a luster 

yeah 

please don't call me

a buster 

yeah 

only 

call me 

a believer 

or 

someone 

who really 

needs ya

Inspired by my feelings and Mark 5