WILL SERIOUS QUESTIONS

God
will i ever walk
will i ever run 
will i ever get marriage 
and have a daughter or son 
yeah 
before my life on earth 
is done 
yeah father 
before you come 
and your will
is still 
or done 
i wanna know 
so 
i can 
prepare
or
at least 
find some peace 
yeah 
before 
my dreams 
are released 
amen

A HONEST HANDICAP

DAMN

my insides 

wannabe

intimate 

so bad 

yeah 

it makes me 

so sad 

that not many

have had 

yeah 

ironically 

i long to see

humanity 

on top of me 

sexually 

ooowee

yes i do 

baby, 

my heart 

is 

so blue

yeah 

so much so 

i really don't know 

if 

I'm considered

beautiful

or

dead

yeah 

because 

no one 

has 

loving 

been 

in my bed 

in the last 

seven years

 

  

A STILL AMEN

Amen 

to God's

 plans

yeah 

as long as 

he keeps me

in his hands 

yeah 

no quicksand 

yeah

i wanna stand 

in 

i think i cam 

land

yeah

if  i jump 

in a swamp 

like a chump 

and fall 

on my romp 

BUT GOD

is 

my stomp 

yes, he is 

my tree trunk 

yeah,  he is

my heavenly hunk

to look at 

when so-called friends 

kick me in the back

yeah, 

which is so wack

but true 

yeah 

I am 

still 

searching for new 

un the hurtful blue 

skies 

yeah my tearful eyes

still yearn 

to surprise 

INTERACTION

MAN

i wish 

that someone wanted 

to be 

in a marriage 

or 

a romantic relationship 

yeah

take some trips 

or 

do some dance 

dips 

on the floor 

yeah 

i wish

 for more 

ships  

on the shore 

or 

kisses 

on my lips 

or 

hugs  

on my hips 

yeah man

is that 

to much

to ask 

before 

i 

pass 

I BATTLE WITH MY SHADOW

MAN

i battle 

with my shadow 

yeah 

i battle 

with the dark parts 

of my heart 

a lot 

yeah God

please make it 

stop

or 

rewind

my clock  

yes, please 

before i hit 

a rock pit 

and fall 

to my knees 

or 

before 

heaven 

opens up 

it's door

MAN

what a war 

what a war 

SOMEONE'S BOSS (BABY OR SIGNIFICANT SWEETHEART)

 MAN 

y'all don't understand 

how  much 

my flesh 

wants to flirt

yeah even though 

i might 

get hurt

or

dragged 

in the dirt 

like a jerk 

who works 

their butt 

yeah 

i yearn 

to have a turn 

at something 

soft 

yeah 

i yearn 

to be the

BOSS 

at love    

RIDING IN SILENCE

MAN

so many words 

wanna come out 

yeah 

my soul 

really wants to

scream and shout 

dreams unseen 

and dirt 

that has really 

hurt me 

to my core 

but on the inside 

there is 

an ongoing war 

between 

not wanting to come off 

sounding mean 

and pride 

so i guess 

I'll just ride 

in silence 

OVER THE RAINBOW AND THROUGH THE WOODS

God
i so want to 
get over it 
yeah 
i so want to 
\chance this 
strange pitch 
in my voice 
yeah 
because 
it's starting 
to sound like  
just a bunch 
of noise 
but father 
as your daughter 
i have 
the right 
to laugh 
at my pain 
or 
shine 
over the rain 
yeah so 
Daddy 
how do i gain?
from my grieve 
yeah Yeshua 
how do i find?
peace of mind 
in the middle of 
my disbelief 

CHRIST'S CURRENCY

MAN

life 

wasn't meant to be 

lived 

normally 

baby 

no, it's crazy 

  but 

guess what?

with no cuts 

we were born 

to be 

supernatural 

actual 

and 

factual 

yeah 

bring warm 

in a storm 

like a unicorn 

yeah 

we were meant 

to be spent 

differently 

WHY WE CELEBRIATE EASTER

 Christ

i love 

colorful eggs 

but hate 

the fact

that you bleed 

yeah because 

that's why 

we celebrate Easter

and i love 

bunnies 

but they are not 

funny

no, because 

that's why 

we celebrate 

Easter

yeah 

don't be 

delirious

both

life and death

 are very

serious

yeah 

that's why 

we celebrate 

Easter

GRAPEFRUIT JUICE (SQUEEZE PLAY)

you lie

i cry

on the inside

yes

i hide 

my pain 

yeah

please Lord 

no more rain 

drops

or 

heart stops 

of change 

yeah 

life is strange

and painful

yes 

even in 

the glow of God

GRAPEVINE JUICE

Girl,

why are you using? 

my lifeline 

as your grapevine 

yeah 

lying on me  all of the time 

who told you that it was fine?

yeah, 

even in the blind 

that's not even kind 

or 

okay 

so, please 

watch what you say

about me 

every single day 

yeah

because 

there may come a time 

when the sun does shine 

or 

the grapevine 

breaks in half

yeah 

no laughs 

just gasping 

for air 

yeah 

because 

you were not 

fair to me 

obviously 

A LIFE CLEANSE

MAN

the dirt 

of hurt

has helped me 

to grow 

yeah 

even though 

the dirt 

of  hurt

has hurt me 

so 

i am 

a daughter 

of a river dam

yeah 

pressed down 

shaking together 

build for 

some very tough 

wether 

obviously 

yeah

or 

else 

my breath 

wouldn't still be

standing

like tree 

 

A PART OF ME

MAN

a part of me 

is still 

angry 

at you 

but what's a girl?

to do

but sit and remain

true in my frame 

 yeah,

in Jesus name

i still 

feel real pain 

but what have i gained?

from the cries 

the lies 

and me asking 

all of the whys 

well,\

 a part of me 

that not many see