God
as i sit
here
watching
This Is Us
and my heart feels
like it's really gonna bust
yeah
and my wanna cry
why?
because I wonder
if will mourn me
when my body is still
yeah
when I'm die
what will be said?
and will their eyes be red?
and their heat sad?
because of
the love
they had
for me
or
will
they
be
glad
to see me
go
yeah
after
my
final
show
Yeah Father
I would really like to know
Man
my flesh is still weak
and i still can't really sleep deep
but God's will is still
present
yeah
in this here
adolescent of the faith
yeah
I still need
mercy
I still need
grace
in the place
of
my heart
yeah
I still
need
God"s
will
to feed
on
yeah
to make me
strong
and
to last long
Inspired by my life and Hebrew 12:1
Now
God spoke light
into sight
with his words
yeah
we saw
and we heard
at the same time
yeah
sunshine
to the blind
or
to the core
of
the dark
yeah
the real beat
to the streets
of
Earth's heart
yeah
the true start
to finish
without blemish
or
menance
yeah
that's his word
World
God didn't mean
any harm
when he let me
be born
a girl
or
a queen
or
so many things
still yet to be
unseen
or
unheard
yeah
I am
his word
or
his preferred
bird
walking around
on this ground
yeah
hoping to say
something profound
every day
yeah
no play
or
gray
yeah
just something
to stay
with you
after I'm through
here
Heavenly Father
sometimes your daughter
feels
so alone
but I
know
the more
I grow
that feeling
is
wrong
yeah
because
you are love
and your spirit
is
strong
yeah
even
in
my
longsuffering
it is clear
that you are
still here
like yeast
in beer
or
like oil
that makes things
steer
with no fear
ur
hesitation
yeah
some good
vibrations
yeah
man
some good
0
Son-Shine
my surface
has purpose
yeah
despite
my plight
my spite
has a light
that is alight
with God
yeah
my life
is
hasd\
and
my guard
is
burised
but Christ
still uses
me
for other
to see
humanity
in
it's realiest
yeah
a person
that is
hurting
but \
is
still able
to perform
even in
stormy winds
BOY
my heart
sure does
love
to talk\
and
my heart
sure does
yearn
to walk
yeah
down
a wedding
aisle
yeah
to a guy
who
is
waiting
for me
with a smile
on his face
yeah
mercy
and grace
that taste
happy ever
after
with
laughter
BOY
my heart
is
not coy
at all
yeah
it still
yearns
to take
a turn
at love
yeah
even
if
his heart
doesn't
shift
towards
me
yeah
my heart
still wants
to be
looked at
romantically
yeah
no take-backs
yeah
truth and facts
i dreamt
of
a love song
last night
yeah
I dreamt
of
my wrongs
and rights
and I
wrote them down
like "Tears of a Clown
or
the theme from Charlie Brown
yeah
melodies
and
lyrics
MAN
I hope y'all get to
hear it
one day
yeah
like
"Love Me in a Special Way"
or
like
"I Try"
from Macy Gray
"Hey, Monique, so what are you trying to say?"
"Oh nothing, except "
"last night I sept'"
"and didn't wept"
"Okay""
"and YAY
last night
my mind
was not fine
yeah
I desperately
needed God's light
to shine
bright
on me
yeah
but
all I could see
is
s sea full
of
tears
and
years
of \
fears
starting
me
squarely
in my face
yeah
I needed mercy
I needed grace
yeah
to fill my place
and to take
the bad taste
out of my mouth
yeah
I needed
to fly
south
but
I was
already
there
with
every
care
in the world
yeah
this woman
right here
was clearly
a little girl
last night
yeah
fright
fright
fright
fright
fright
fr
MAN
my head
needs to led
by
The Bread of Life
yeah
by
Christ
yeah
the sugar
and
spice
and
everything
nice
twice
yeah
no price
can
by
that
fact
yeah
no
turning
back
MAN
i wish
that guys
know i exist
yeah
and
that wanted
to give me
a romantic
kiss
yeah
I dream
of \
bliss
yeah
someone
loving me
sexually
and more
yeah
I see doors
and floors
galore
yeah
a house
and
a spouse
MAN
i wish
that i had
a house on a beach
or one near a creek
yeah
and a loved one
to hold me
'till I fall asleep
yeah
deep
into their arms
yeah
like a human charm
on a bracelet
made in the shade
yeah
while me
holding our child
WOW
my heart
has some class
my heart
has some style
okay
bay-bay
what you did
my kid
wasn't cool
but
I still
love you
for real
my fool
bur let me
take you to school
and teach you
the rules \
of
my plan
yeah
and not man's
quicksand
MAN
last night
my flesh gave me a test
and I failed
so oh well
am I?
going to Heaven
or Hell
when I
die
Hey Father
please reply
before I cry
yeah
because
I know
you love
and can not lie
yeah
the truth
is all
you know
and I so
need to grow
more spiritual
yeah
from head
to toe
yeah
with You
in the middle
yeah
no harp
no fiddle
yeah
just a little
more
Jesus
in this room
to change my time
MAN
y'all jus' don't understand
how much
my heart
wants to be touched
by some kisses
and yearn to be a Mrs.
yeah, these are some of my wishes
BUT
my head
knows better
to never go
there
again
yeah
especially
when
I can't even
trust
platonic friends
yeah
sadly
today
in some
strange
way
falling in love
feels real
painful
and shameful
and I jus'
ain't gonna
take
that heartbreak
risk
MAN\
i can't
seem
to get
love #2
out of my dreams
yeah
my insides
scream
from head
to toe
BUT
GUESS WHAT?
THEY DON'T WANT
ME THOUGH
yeah
I sleep alone
in my bed
and my status
is still
really
SINGLE
yeah
even
though
I
so
have
a tingle
to mingle
but
again
they
only
see me
as a friend
yeah
even
though
we
have
been
so much
more
