God.
it's not fair
that i have so many ...
nightmares
yeah, Lord, I swear
that I scare
several times
a night
This can't be, right?
to have so much...
fright
yeah, so much fear
so Father, please, get me out of here
or make the visions
i see...
very clear
yeah, please, tell me what they mean
before I scream
or end up dead
in head
or in my bed
man, yesterday was rough
yeah, yesterday was tough
wow, yesterday I really felt
like I have had enough
but that was yesterday
yeah when my life
looked really gray
and navy
yeah, I felt really crazy
and wanted someone to save me
from myself
yeah, from my breath
or from my death
of depression
yeah life is a hard lesson
to learn
yeah, that's why
my
heart
still
burns
from yesterday
MAN,
my breath
is gettin' so tired
of breathin'
and my heart
is gettin' so tired
of believin'
yeah, my patience
is fleedin'
and the tears are fallin'
because I hate my callin'
of bein' disable
but I'm still here
yeah fears and all
but my soul
wants to
do somthin' new
yeah, change this strange
color blue
into a bright light
mellow yellow
heaven on earth
people
are watching
me
and sadly
they don't like
what they see
and that makes me mad
and it makes me cry
yeah, because I didn't really lie
but oh Lord, how I try
to act like people have my back
and that I am disable
when in fact...
i am
damn
pressed-ham
but why?
and maybe
this is crazy
but if I was a guy
I could easily fly
under the radar
if I was a millionaire
would life finally be fair
to me
yeah, probably
yeah everything would be
turn-key
like The West Wing
yeah, and everyone would sing to my tune
and bring me balloons
just because
they love me
but sadly
I have cerebral palsy
so I feel really poor
and that means,,,,
as I scream ...
at my dreams...
still,
will
you
open
the
door?
BOY
it makes me really mad
and really sad
that...
I can't walk away,
from cerebral palsy,
but everybody. can walk away
from me
so easily
yeah, like I'm nobody
but God, I'm somebody, right?
MAN
y'all jus'' don't understand
how much I wanna take a flight
on a cloud
/and live out loud
oh crap
it looks like i wasn't born to be happy
but I was born to be handicap
and man, that makes me really
wanna snap
because I didn't ask
for a palsy pass
or a palsy future
so I'm frustrated as hell
can't you tell?
I'm not doin' well
yeah, I so wanna walk
or fly like a hawk
or a dove
yeah, I yearn for love
and respect
yeah, not for eyes
that are wet
and a heart that is hurt
yeah, u feel like dirt
but I'm still willing to work
for the perks of...
the ability
I am counting the days
until I walk
yeah, because
my current physical ways
is just a phase
that I have been going through
for others
educational view
but
it is time
for my body
to be brand new
yeah like God used
Gorilla Glue
to
make me
and never break me
again
yeah because being able to
walk on my own
is not wrong
it just has happened
yet
but
guess what?
i am so tired
of my eyes
being wet
form \
not being able to
run
for fun
or walk
like man
yeah, just because
I can
we were meant to be servants
not slaves
we were meant to be alive
not in a grave
so please don't cave
or fall to your knees
unless you are praying
to the best
for the rest
of your life
yeah, Christ
who sacrificed
so much
for human touch
and then some
so run
and have fun
but come back
and know that
to serve is
to fly high
in the eyes of God
talk to me God
like a friend
yeah like the wind talks to the sky
yeah make me feel real high
yeah like i can at least try
to reach what you preach about
yes Lord, please help me out of doubts
and depression
yeah please teach me all your lessons
of blessings
here and there
and wherever you are
yeah I feel like I am behind bars
but you say...
everyday ...
i am amongst the stars
so flow, Father,
if you don't bother
helping your daughter
understand
your plans
for man
and me
oh crap
it looks like i was born...
to be,...
handicapped
permanently
or for unseen...
future
but Heavenly Daddy
I don't want to be...
this way
on daily
anymore
yeah, because...
it's like being in a war
and I no longer have the strength to fight
day and night
to just be alright
God give me strength
and.
remember you sent
me here
so, please make things clear
while I'm going through the fear
of the future
yeah, Father. please help me see
where I'm really supposed to be
in this society
of partial love
and hate
yeah, the fake
and the great
yeah, Lord, I don't wanna make a mistake
so please gimme a break
and take this weakness...
off my plate
God I just wanna do your will
while I'm still on Earth
yeah, first and foremost
but no I so can't boast
on myself
yeah because it's you that gives breaths
and brains
yeah in the midst of my pain
snd palsy
yes, Lord, you make me ballsy
when I don't see much cause...
to stay here
yeah, Father, sometimes my fear...
is so unclear
yeah, like dark beer
but your dear daughter is here
and ready work
yeah even if it hurts
daddy,
i don't know why you died
and why I haven't really cried
but you are very much still by my side
so let's ride
into the sunset
yeah, into the new view
of you
and me
yeah, peaceful and free
finally
but we
should still be
together
yeah, dancing in this...
raining weather
called "The World"
yeah, I should still be.
your second-born
Lil girl
yeah, oh daddy how I wanna
twirl in the trinity
man,
i just wanna try
so many things
without broken wings
yeah, no cerebral palsy insight
I could just take flight
and do whatever I like
but I rather just stay on the ground
and walk around
from town to town
or city to city
yeah, to stand like a man
would be so pretty to me
yeah, from sea to shining sea
with the master key
of mobility
life,
in real-time
are breaths
and grinds
clouds
and shines
yeah, in the hearts
and minds
of the emotional blind
yeah, sight comes in all kinds
of colors
yeah, in so many sisters
and brothers
undercover
yeah, we need a lover
to guide us
and that we can trust
to be by our side
like a man
but who understand
there's a bigger plan
at hand
Man,
if life was fair
i would be walking on air
and be able to twist my own hair
without a care in the world
and I would be someone's girl
or someone's wife
yeah, i would be in paradise
living a great life
yeah, no emotional knife
cutting me up
slice by slice
MAN,
that would be so nice
yeah, walking on ice
has no price
or no palsy
yeah, how ballsy is that?
with no turning back
MAN,
to walk like you
would be a dream come true
yeah, my heart would no longer be blue
and my legs would no longer be like pegs
no, instead, they would be stronger
yeah, needing no one else
to move them
yeah, myself
and God's breath
will
yeah, no longer will I...
have to lie still
and wait
for a gatekeeper
yeah, no aides
downgrading
my...
willingness
to try
and do
yeah, yearn...
for a turn
at a brand new...
body
yeah, while still on this land
of quicksand
yeah, i wanna move...
like others can
MAN,
I am always surprised
yeah, whenever my eyes
open on Earth
yeah, because most of my yesterdays
I felt like I had no worth
yeah, like my balloon got burst
and I lost my thirst for life
yeah, where is Christ?
in Paradise
yeah, while I'm searing for a slice
of Heaven
down here
yeah, me having Cerebral Palsy
is very clear
and direct
yeah, I know the real deal feeling...
of the word neglect
and so...
the fact...
that...
God won't let me go,,,
into a deep sleep
is beyond my reach
God, why can't i walk yet?
yes Lord, please let my feet
make a beat
on the ground
yes, I yearn to move around
like a man
with a plan
or a purpose
but do I deserve this?
disability torching me constantly
yeah, Father,
Your daughter is ready to climb a tree
but as You can see
I'm still on wheels
and that doesn't feel good at all
yeah, Daddy, I'm so ready to fall apart
yeah, my heart is so broken
and I'm no longer hoping
I'm just coping
MAN,
i am
so confused
by Christ
and the things
that has gone on
in my life
or have gone wrong
in my life
yeah i'm waiting for paradise
while my heart is constantly
giving sliced by an invisible knife
but why i wonder
yeah, why am i going under?
ground
yeah, why
do i
feel so lost
with no hope of ever being found
or happy
ever again
