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BOY, DO I GRIEVE

 man, i just wanna scream

at my dreams 

for not come true 

yeah i'm so mad 

i'm so sad 

i'm so very blue 

but what's new?

pussycat 

yeah these last few days 

have been like a haze maze 

yeah my cerebral has been crazed 

yeah my mind feels so left behind 

and my heart feels like it doesn't wanna start

anymore 

yeah been in this wheelchair 

is really not fair 

yeah it is such a war 

to get to more 

yeah and acting silly 

is becoming a bore 

but i want friends 

so i pretend 

that i believe 

that i'm gonna win 

but boy, do i grieve 

i want my momma and daddy

 Christ 

i am so confused 

about the recent news

oh yes i have the blues 

because i did not get to choose 

to be this 

so yeah i'm super pissed 

 super sad

i want my momma 

i want my daddy 

AS THE SUN GOES DOWN

 man, as the sun goes down 

my face starts to frown 

yeah i get sad 

i get mad 

i get lonely 

yeah someone please 

hold me 

yeah console like a lover 

and not like brother 

or a mother 

yeah do i have go any further?

yeah the day is going way 

and i want it to day 

because i didn't get to go outside 

and play

 today  

and hey 

that is not okay 

as the sun goes down 

and you realizes...

that no friends....

have been around 

MY PERFECT PIE

 hey 

this girl 

is still waiting 

on her perfect world 

yeah a diamond on left hand 

given to her by her man 

yeah along with his last name

with no shame 

or no games 

but who or what do i blame?

for this single pain 

or this pouring rain 

that exist over my life

yeah so help me Christ 

find paradise 

yeah even if it's...

slice by slice 

HOW THIS WORLD WORKS?

 man being happy is so overrated 

and my feels real deflated 

or grated like a block of cheese 

yeah so Father help me please 

get off my spiritual knees 

and walk around 

yeah because this ground 

is not round 

yeah meaning fair 

yeah no one really seems to care 

about my screams 

or my dreams 

and man does that hurt 

yeah i don't like how this world work? 

ANOTHER ROUND OF BROWN PLEASE

 writing

is my alcohol

yeah whenever my feeling fall

i get drunk 

yeah my trunk slumps   

and i 

try 

to get by 

with a silent cry 

words 

but o how i so want to be 

heard 

through the grape 

vine 

yeah heart soul and mind 

man, people can be 

so blind

and unkind to me 

MIND OVER MATTER

boy, do i hurt 

yeah i feel lower than dirt 

yeah i'm about to go 

berserk 

yeah straight out of control 

yeah my soul 

is running hot 

and cold 

yeah man 

i feel so old 

in this moment 

and young 

at the same time 

yeah even 

my mind 

feels blind 

THIS IS ME: DESPERATELY SEEKING CLARITY

 Father God wet tears 

wet fears 

yeah i really need to hear from 

yeah please Heavenly Papa 

tell your daughter what to do 

yeah i only want to see your view 

yeah and did i mention that i am so lonely too

yeah this is me 

can't see 

what needs to be 

a reality 

in Jesus name

yeah Savior 

can't you see 

i am in pain 

and the blame 

and the shame 

is not a game 

I'M STILL BREATHING FOR NOW

 spend time with me please 

yeah before my time runs out

do I  have to shout 

 or die 

for you to realize why 

i am important to you 

damn 

yeah one day 

i will 

pass away 

yeah some will slam

my casket 

and then you will 

blow a gasket 

as my friend 

i hope 

that you would cry 

and try to cope

but when was the last time 

that i was on your mind 

or that we spent some time

together 

yeah i hate this lonely weather 

or this lonely season 

but at least i'm still breathing for now

MAN, I SO WANT THE BEST

 man, the hardest part of being single 

is that my heart still wants to mingle 

yeah even though no wants to give my body a tingle 

or my soul some sprinkles

yeah i wanna lose control 

and i want to feel whole 

yeah like a woman should 

yeah i so wanna feel real... 

good with someone 

yeah i wanna feel the sun 

on my face 

and taste love  in my mouth 

yeah i wanna go north, south, 

east and west 

with the best 

A MUCH HAPPIER VIEW

 girl, i can't write to u 

anymore 

and sadly u can't walk 

through my door

and so my heart is sore 

yeah there is a war 

going on strong 

in me 

yeah the fire 

is not friendly 

at all 

yeah i so wanna fall 

or go AWOL 

but God called 

me 

to be 

alive 

and not to take

a break

or a dive 

while i'm a child 

in this wild world 

and so your girl 

writes until she sees 

the dark in her heart 

finds the bright light 

in her mind 

from missing you

to a much happier view 

SLEEP WITH NO PEEPS

 God i realize 

that my temperature

is steady rising 

yeah i keep on

fantasizing 

about 

having sexual shout 

with people who 

don't want me 

in that way

but o how i wanna 

play 

and want someone 

who wants to stay

but Father i know that it's not okay

for me lust 

yeah i am only supposed to trust 

in You when i'm lonely 

and nothing more 

yeah behind close door 

i should just sleep 

with no peeps