MY WATERED DOWN DREAMS

 damn, do i have to put a romantic kiss

on my bucket list  

just to get one 

and do i have to write 

i wanna be able to...

walk and run 

just for fun 

until God's will is done 

for me 

yeah in this earth society 

where i see a variety

of better or worse 

but i so thirst

for a burst 

of love 

and not war

yeah my heart is sore 

but i yearn for more

burn 

yeah more fire 

yeah this daughter 

wants to use her water 

to make things grow 

and flow 

peacefully

yeah like an amazon tree 

shielding me from the sun 

yeah kingdom come 

down 

to the ground 

and wash away...

my loneliness today  

    

A CHILD, HOW PROFOUND

 man, i so want to give birth 

to something with worth 

yeah lady first 

a queen i mean 

in the making 

that isn't taking...

anything sh*r 

yeah a woman...

who won't quit 

yeah even when things get stuff 

she will become rough 

if need be 

yeah that's the daughter...

i want to come out of me 

eventually 

yeah i want to see 

a female tree 

grow and know 

that i loved her so 

yeah now and before...

i go 

where there is a glow 

and a flow of faith 

that taste milk and honey 

yeah i'm not being funny 

i want produce 

more than money 

yeah i want a baby 

as crazy as that might...

sound 

i believe that i was put on...

 this ground 

to have a belly...

 that is round 

yeah a child 

how profound

STAY WOKE

 sleep makes me weak 

sleep makes me sad 

sleep makes me yearn 

for things that i once had 

yeah which is so bad 

as i toss and turn

man, will my heart ever learn?

or will it always burn?

MORE THAN READY

man, i can't seem to get my dreams 

off my mind 

yeah i been living 41 years 

but i still feel real...

left behind 

man, i don't understand...

why life is so unkind 

and love is so bind to me 

yeah oh how yearn...

to have a turn 

at a burning burn 

yes Father please give me a push 

or a change to dance...

on water like Fred Astaire 

yeah moving without a care in the world 

yeah a real dream-girl 

with pearls of wisdom 

in her head 

and finally my husband in our bed 

and our kid in my belly 

yeah i'm more than ready 

MY UNHAPPY HEART

 man, anger 

is no stranger 

to my daily life 

but so help me Christ 

i so want to stop...

being so mad and sad 

about what i have had 

and want back 

or the fact that...

i want more 

yeah such a tug a war

is going on inside of me 

but i want to let go

to be set free 

yeah i'm searching 

for the key 

of my unhappy heart 

yeah to start over 

                    

YOUR REAL SIDE-PIECE

man, i can't pursue you

no, that's not what a girl is supposed to do

so i guess...

i must not stress 

and be true 

to you 

finding me 

with your lock and key 

yeah your property

your wife 

your life 

yeah the spice 

on your rib 

that is sensitive

and tender 

and something to remember    

WORDS ARE MY BOSS

 man, when i write 

i feel real

normal 

human

able

and stable 

yeah like a maple tree 

just free 

to be 

me 

or more 

yeah i can soar 

through doors 

if i choose 

or sing the blues 

or spread the good news 

of God 

yeah his hard work 

has paid off 

yeah because...

my soul is not loss 

yeah because...

words are my boss 

BRAIN-FOG

 my desire to walk

is hovering over me like a hawk 

or a crow 

but only God know....

if it will be so 

yeah if i will... 

stay still 

or get up and go

fast or slow 

yeah like the flow of water 

God's knows his daughter 

 yeah because he created me 

like the sea 

yeah with complexity 

and flexibility

beyond my comprehension  

but Father if i can add an extension 

please make this hun...

  walk and run 

into the sun 

Quenched Thirst

 i have been in love twice 

but i have yet to see paradise 

yeah i have yet to become...

 someone's wife 

or someone's mother 

yeah cover to cover 

i yearn to be

 someone's lover 

yeah someone's ...

happily ever after chapter 

and verse 

yeah someone's...

quenched thirst 

R.E.M. P.M.

 man, i swear i have so many nightmares 

yeah my sleep don't play fair 

yeah no it doesn't care 

that my heart beats fast 

against an hourglass 

that i can't see 

yeah Father please help me

fully wake up 

and fill my morning cup 

with good luck 

yeah that will last 

before i pass 

away in my sleep 

yeah the dark 

and deep 

makes me weak 

so yes Lord, 

please keep

me 

in your reach  

TIMEZONE

all i have is time on my mind 

yeah time wasted 

and time worked 

yeah in the dirt 

of hurt 

and harvest 

yeah mud 

and floods 

until i see 

rose buds 

growing out of me 

continuously

yeah flowers are not free 

yeah says the powers the be 

the seed 

that all us need 

grow 

strong, tall, and beautiful   

The Flows of The Father and His Daughter

 man, my heart is heavy 

bu my spirit is ready

to soar into the war

of the unsure 

yeah because of God's love 

circling me like dove 

or catching me like a glove

when my soul rolls 

out of control 

yeah but only heaven really knows 

the flows of the father and his daughter 

yeah like rivers and waters 

banks and harbors 

together we can 

go farther than man's plan 

on this land 

of quicksand 

and quarantine

yeah this world 

is mean and clean 

at the same time 

yeah like moonshine and wine 

yeah blind and kind 

innocent and committing a crime    

behind bars 

yeah while looking up at the stars 

ON A RIDE TO RUNNING

man one day i will walk into a room 

yeah i don't know how soon 

but one day my feet will make a beautiful beat 

on some concrete or linoleum floor  

yeah for sure i will soar 

from my core 

like an eagle 

yeah i can

just picture me 

trying to be regale  

for people 

to see 

but on the inside 

my soul 

will be on a ride 

to running 

A SMOKIN' HOT GUN

i 

want

a

guy 

who doesn't care...

if i ever walk or run somewhere 

yeah and loves the feel of my lips 

and the taste of my tongue 

yeah someone who sees me

as a smokin' hot gun 

of a woman  

yeah that would be

 truly 

something good 

yeah to be understand 

under my hood 

and into my heart 

man, what a perfect start?

yeah to be able to...

let down my guard 

with a guy 

who makes me feel high 

and like i can fly...

if i just try

yeah it makes me wanna cry 

just thinkin' about it

yeah because...

i don't wanna die 

without ever experiencing...

 real romantic love  

A GROOM +ME

man, i want a groom 

who will make room 

for me

in heart 

start to finish 

yeah with blemishes 

and all 

but feels called to me 

by the heavenly's 

yes please 

get on your knees  

and propose 

yes please put a ring on hand 

and not in my nose 

and as my face glows

you know 

that i love you so much 

yeah your gentle touch 

give me such a rush

that i can trust 

yeah us 

is definitely a plus 

WILL YOU MARRY ME?(PART 2)

man, i want a guy 

who isn't ashamed to cry 

and who isn't afraid to ask God why?

do good or young die? 

and when God replies...

he doesn't run 

no, he will...

just sit still... 

and listen like a good little son 

yeah until the kingdom comes for him 

yeah  he will swim 

even in the dim

or walk on water 

towards the father 

and then to me 

yeah man will you be...

mine for a lifetime 

MY WEDDING WILL BE LIKE THIS ...

yeah so my wedding will be like this...

well it will end with a very passionate kiss 

yeah because of the love that we found in our dating bliss 

yeah and both him and i...

will start to cry 

because of our vows 

yeah some written as a child 

but now wow...

front and center 

as an adult 

yeah this is what i want 

and this what i deserve 

but does he have nerve?

to love me 

yeah despite my disability 

or will he flee?

yeah leaving no lock or key 

or forwarding address for me to be...

Mrs. Whoever 

no, he would never 

yeah because we go so

good together 

and after all...

it is Fall 

and this is our wedding day 

hooray!!! 

IN MY SLICE OF LIFE

Savior where did that storm come from?

You know i can't  run away from the hot sun 

so please cool my life off Boss

yes Lord please toss this turmoil in the oil 

and let it burn up 

yeah lesson learned 

yes Father, please turn the page of this chapter 

and write some laughter 

yeah some happy ever after 

or some heavenly scent in my air vent

yeah no accident 

i need You

yeah i need to see You in my earthly view 

yeah please no more burnt dinners

or charred lunches 

yeah please send my some continued blessings 

in bunches 

from now on 

yes Christ please help me to be strong 

in my slice of life 

MY KINGDOM VISION

good morning my king 

and everything that comes with you 

so what are we gonna do today?

yeah you lead the way 

yeah even in the play 

i will stay 

by your side 

yeah like a loving bride 

should 

so yeah again i say 

good morning  man 

take my hand 

and lead me to the promise land 

yeah which is a good marriage 

and a baby carriage 

one day  

HOUR 25

good morning new life 

yeah good morning paradise 

my breath is just a slice 

but i'll take it 

in 

yeah hello wind 

hello friend 

hello air

thanks not being fair 

and taking care of my share 

of oxygen 

yeah when you could've taken it away last night 

but instead 

my head

saw the light this morning