CEREBRAL REGRETS

man
my eyes 
are wet 
because 
no one 
will let 
me 
love them 
romanticly 
but why? 
you reply
does 
this be 
will i think 
and it really 
stinks 
Why don't have 
my missing 
and kissing 
link 
is 
because 
i look 
like 
worn-out book 
or 
a lazy, crazy lady, maybe 

ROLL A MILE IN MY CHAIR (YEAH, THE AG-O-NY OF THIS DIS-ABILITY)

MAN

sometimes

my mind 

wants 

somebody else 

behind

to roll a mile 

in my shoes 

That's right 

It's Saturday 

And I got the blues

But God

how much more 

 will my heart

be sore

And I lose 

my core 

to another

close door

But for real, God

this cerebral palsy life

is 

hard 

and 

Damn

i am 

emotiomally 

scarred 

and yeah 

sometimes

my mind 

is 

not fine 

with me 

constantly 

sitting on my behind 

And I kinda 

want someone 

to see  

and feel 

the ag-o-ny 

of 

this dis-ability 

HEY I DOUBLE DOG DARE YOU TO, DEREK

hey Baby

is the reason 

that i'm not 

your lady 

this season  

is because 

i can't walk 

on my own. 

My Love

if so 

i want you 

to know 

that we  could 

still have a good, 

beautiful life 

with spice 

and Christ 

yeah so come 

over here 

my dear

and roll 

the dice 

yeah make me 

your wife 

and take me to

a view

of 

paradise 

SITTING ON THE BROOK OF MY BAE

so here i am 

sitting at a dam

or 

Here I am 

sitting at a brook 

yeah, just waiting 

for him 

to a swim 

in me 

intentationally 

yeah 

up close 

to post 

or 

wetter is 

better 

together 

yeah 

like leather

to a cow 

wow

we laugh 

we smile 

like a child 

running miles 

on a playground 

in my mind 

yeah, and i'm 

walking 

just fine

WRITING BY FAITH

Man

 Everybody gets to walk by faith 

with mercy and grace

But no, not i 

i try

and cry

and write 

day and night 

but  

it doesn't seem right 

But maybe it does 

in God's eyesight 

Yeah, maybe  he likes

What I type 

or 

 pen

yeah maybe 

It's like 

recieving 

a letter 

from a 

dear  friend 

So let's begin 

Jesus, I'm hurting 

while I'm working 

for you

so whatcha gonna do?

with my pain 

and the rain 

coming from my eyes 

Yeah, due to people 

telling lies 

and with 

no apologize 

surprise, surprise 

BOY, I WISH THAT MAN WAS MINE

BOY
You just don't know 
that
last time
you hugged 
i didn't wanna 
let go 
But if we did 
You should have 
backed away 
real low 
yeah 
so 
i could 
savour 
the moment 
real good 
yeah 
really 
Knock on your 

wood chest

but instead 
we just 
put our paator 
to be 
for his 
final rest 
yeah Rev Boyd
one of the best 
so i didn't 
confess
or contest 
 

BON-SAI LUST

God, i know it's wrong 

for me to carry on 

like this 

but as you see  

ooohwee

lust 

resides 

in me 

apparently 

yeah 

like a bonsai tree

yeah small 

but has 

a mighty power

 for hours and hours 

yeah  Father 

i need a 

shower 

because 

my love 

for him 

is 

so hot 

and i know 

that 

i need 

to stop

thinking about him

and un 

taking a swim 

around the clock 

But I'm ready 

to dock

with a friend of mine 

Yeah, Lord, he's so fine 

and one of a kind 

But his love is blind 

to me 

Yeah his eyes work 

but they are...

buried in dirt 

and he...

just can't see 

what we 

could be